l’ennui du sonny

plus i really like all her (our) friends, especially the ladies. i’m friends with all their husbands too, like really good friends, but i connect more with the women. tonight’s theme was “crafts night” and i was totally interested in it but it wasn’t for me to participate in so i holed myself up in the bedroom.

it triggered the ol’ gender dysphoria in me.

my wife said i should set something up with “the guys” but i don’t fully fit in with the guys. i dont fit in anywhere, really.

you know what’s fun? making your baritone ukulele sound like an electric guitar

i made this cuz i wanted to prove to my band we could do a buddy holly song our style. so i fired up garageband, orchestrated the drum and bass, played my uke and sang.

she goes to home goods, tj max, marshall’s, and whatever store to hunt for bargains. the patience is not just waiting to find cool stuff, but also that she’s putting up with kind of an assholey crowd in some locations. but she’s built that way. unlike me, my patience gauge is always on empty, and i’m afraid i’ll start calling people names.

“hey i was looking at that snoopy candle holder first, DEBORAH.”

anyway

it's probably not going into fruition, but the fact that they've considered it was pretty interesting.

this most likely comes in light of the controversies surrounding AI and other technologies that do so much of the thinking and doing for young students, which potentially hinders proper and deep learning.

super smokey outside, gotta mask up

i just started this, it’s a fun read so far

after watching “good omens” i couldn’t get this song out of my head so i busted out my phone and ukulele and recorded it

i did it in one take so pls ignore the mistakes 😬

- what stapler is this?

- it’s a swingline

- bostitch all day, bitch

- *pulls out glock*

it was pretty funny last night, how the usmnt got smoked. badly. and literally the entire world took pleasure in it. and if we're mutuals on bluesky, then you'll know i took pleasure in it too. and so did my usa friends. and so did so many other usa'ers.

the moment trump stepped in the other day and greased fifa, i said publicly (but no one cared lol) that if balogun were to sit out, it would be the only way the usmnt would save face and show the world they stand against corruption and trump. but they let him play and it showed me that they lack honor and integrity. they were no longer usmnt for me, they became team maga.

it was already difficult for me to root them on to begin with (for many reasons), but after seeing yesterday's starting line-up, there's no way i could support them, and was hoping they'd suffer a humiliating defeat. and they did.

this is a microcosm of a much larger picture of what's going on in this country. trump and anyone who aligns with him should be resisted no matter what it is.

god i wish he was able to give us more music.

maybe rivers cuomo was his reincarnation jajaja

anyway here’s buddy holly to brighten up your day

it makes me think of western women who were accused of witchery, and they were doing essentially the same thing as chinese herbologists, finding healing via mother earth. i wonder if only they knew about the chinese culture of doing so, if they’d have found a home there.

not to mention that daoists also have perfected the art of healing magick too, which includes exorcisms and spellcraft as well.

i am so curious about this world but my mind hits a wall the moment i open up a book or website. yet i power through however much my mental threshold is, which is very low, and i get burned out quickly.

*puppy voice*