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It’s not fair.

That’s why I have decided to be distance with this person and not talk a lot anymore because what is the point in talking and not see this person at all.

I’m tired of this shit.

All built now.

I put my plants in it for shade from this sun.

She probably wanting me to stay at home.

It’s strange that she was unhappy seeing me happy in my holiday pictures.

I don’t want to have this carer anymore because she has shown me energy about everything money and I can’t have that around me anymore.

I trusted her and I opened up to her about my dad,lots of other things.

As Taylor swift says 

“I could build a castle

Out of all the bricks they threw at me

And every day is like a battle.”

I know you are going to say that I can trust her but I can’t because her actions showed me bad energy after that day and how she wants something from me.

I’m not changing my mind and i don’t want to give her a second chance because I have been through too much.

I prefer having good energy around me when someone doesn’t want anything.

That’s my ending to this investigation.

At the end of the day i don’t want the 51p because I got my own money.

I’m not gonna go back and forward with keep explaining my truth over and over again then my story getting twisted. 

I don’t know what the future holds but I hope that my new carer isn’t like all these people I had to go through. 

I just want peace and no more idiots anymore.

update

I am getting a new carer.

When she definitely asked me for £10 and I gave her £10.

At end of the day I know the truth.

She asked me for £10 so I gave her £10.

I don’t really know what the £10 was for when I gave it to her.

I tried to talk to the care agency about it but they wouldn’t listen to me.

I tried to tell them that it’s against their policy giving money to my carer but they think it’s helping me with my money when it isn’t.

A carer shouldn’t be asking for money.

I look after my money well.

It’s like they don’t know what their policy is.

They gave my number out to my carer without my permission.

The issue I have is

when someone comes along just take advantage of me being asking me for money then that isn’t good.

I’m talking about my carer with that one time with the cinema and everything professional went out of the window because she didn’t listen to me when I said that I want to pay for my ticket separately.

I still don’t know why I gave her £10.

So the care agency told me this

I have started the investigation with my carer.

Carer advised that when you asked for two cinema tickets, the person serving put it through as one transaction. Carer did not have cash so she paid on her card but as it was one transaction she paid for both of you, £18.98. Please see attached. She then asked you to pay for your ticket, which was £9.49 (the amount is showing on the photo you sent). She did not have change to give you 51 pence and was going to give it to you the next time she saw you.

I told them that I gave her £10 and not the person at the till.

I got £1.00 change from her.

and she paid £8.

I clearly saw her giving the person at the till money.

then paying with card then asking me for £10.

which she put in her purse.

now all of sudden she wants petrol fare.

She thinks her driving is cheaper than taking the train somewhere.

I thought she was driving me in her car out of kindness but now it seems to be money.

it seemed like it was fake kindness.

Why do I keep putting myself in these situations.

she is probably coping what my old carer used to do when she wanted money from me.

She paid for the cinema on Friday and I gave her money. When I just wanted to pay separately only my ticket away from her ticket.

I don’t understand why no one put me on the guest list.

I really thought that I was one of important people to my best friend.

I thought her family like me hanging out with them.

It’s my birthday today.

I told her now that clown lost his job I can’t go round her flat anymore.

Then I told her that he can’t stop her from going to my birthday.

Suddenly he started to kick off with what I said.

She told me that I made him kick off.

I told her nothing to do with me with his reaction on what I said.

She told me that she is disappointed in me starting an argument with her baby father.

It’s not my fault with his toxic reaction.

He doesn’t like me near my best friend and that’s a fact.

Strange guy.

It’s not my fault that he is toxic and reacts. He doesn’t like me near her and i don’t like him.

Me and my best friend are talking again.

She didn’t say sorry.

She told me not to be a div. Me and her will be ok.

So she is still on her boyfriend’s side.

It’s not me a div it was him reacting toxic to what I said and him not growing up.

I’m just not gonna say anything to her about him when I message her on his Facebook as he will kick off again and how he feels with what I say will be my fault.

It makes me think that I am a distanced memory to her and the friendship is just only talking online and no face to face conversations.

The absence is starting to be there now.

Someone who I once spent time with in person is just absence in my life.

It’s bad that her boyfriend won’t let me see her.

I have to get used to it now.

We used to be close but now we are not.

I don’t like just talking online with not seeing her but in this situation I can’t do anything.