Lacey Te Wilson Elenore'ite

Tsu'tey has finally convinced me to see the tree of souls, that I should stop hiding. He said as long as it wasn't for scientific human things that I could take photos.

This is by far the best one I've taken. I think I am in love with him and.. I think he is with me too...

He might not be conventionally good looking for humans but, I think he's the most handsome male I've ever laid my eyes on.

Tonight he has chosen me. And I have chosen him.

Paskalin is every proud of my weaving today. Our alcove is really starting to come together. I just needed a tall blue man and an extra pair of hands.

You always told me to wait, find the right one mom. Well I think I did. He was really grouchy and closed off at first. I mean, he made me do drills with my bows everyday for weeks. I was kind of convinced he hated me until he brought me a necklace made from a river stone he found.

I'm still human, but I breathe the pandora air, eat the pandora food, I have a Kuru though I keep it hidden. He's the only one who knows. He accepts the scientist I used to be, the girl who studied in her dorm, now the warrior who carries the guilt of her people on her back like a boulder on her back.

He understands why I don't use my avatar, how it makes the clan uncomfortable.

I'm really happy mom. He's kind, and we are gross and affectionate.

I hope you, Dad and Dani are okay.

Lots of love,

Ah yes, while I don't remember this being taken because I was the one you see having a tiny nap, I know damn well it was So'lek picking up my camera to try and hide it. I couldn't find it for a week after this.

Set up the camera on a plant nearby and told Itu I wanted to take a picture together.

Itu: I will look as serious as you always look. That way, you can see how ridiculous you are being.

Me: I do not always look serious!

Itu: ma eylan. Since Anufi has given you the correct body, you have... Mmm what did you call it? Ah, resting itch face. You are painted with such joy but your face, it is resting!

Needless to say I was stunned and then burst out laughing.

Me: it's resting bitch face! Bitch! Not itch. Does my face look itchy?!

This is a picture of Ki'anen and Venat. I met them a long while ago when I first came to the plains. Somehow I felt a lot younger then. Now these two are showing me up in dance fighting and looking at each other like they are one another's intended.

Ki'anen will be the one to bring the first courting gift I'm sure of it. Venat is the kind of Na'vi to he completely ... Oblivious (had to talk to Priya to get that word in English again) because he just doesn't think anyone would like him in such a way. Reminds me of me. I remember Tsu'tey being frustrated when he brought his first courting gift and I thought it was just.. nice.

Eywa help me. Nothing about zakru milk is screaming alcohol. I think he's trying to poison me.

I remember my grandparents mentioning how their parents saw the last of Earth's rainbows. I was a scientist, I studied them, I studied pandora and now here I am sitting in the Kinglor Forest looking at one in real life. Nothing could have even prepared me. I know, I know that it's just water vapor in the sun and it's all reflecting just right but... I'm thankful for it all. All of it.

I can't remember the last time a slept as good as this Zakru is sleeping right now. Something about the Plains feels so welcoming. I can feel Eywa on the wind as if she whispers to me. Yes I'm human, yes I breathe the wrong air, yes I have a Kuru. And I can feel her.

On another note, Kín has said I am welcome only if I learn how to make Zeswa zangke as good as him. I'm prepared for a very intense hangover and So'lek reminding me how I cannot cook or prepare food as good as him.