Find A Peace

I love my job, but reblogging employment jelly for someone else I love.

I- I didn’t realize this but it’s so true

In my case the flour, eggs, sugar, vanilla, and cinnamon are sitting in piles at the moment lol

UGH, How do you tell your best friend that you’re actually head over heels in love with them but you don’t want to ruin your friendship?!

Update: We’ve been together for 1 1/2 years now. Got our own place along with a cat and lovely puppy <3

To explain what occurred that day: TRIGGER WARNING: DOMESTIC ABUSE. It started because there’s a leak in the basement. They thought it was coming from my shower and the way to get to the pipes is through my closet. I had just laid down to get some sleep because I hadn’t slept the night prior when they said they needed to get in my room. My father, brother Josh, John who sexually abused me as a child, and my grandfather all came into my room. Which made me very nervous - it’s my safe space and they’re incredibly nosey. I stayed in my room for a bit watching them before going upstairs. My mother, grandmother, aunt and sister-in-law all were in the kitchen. I went into the kitchen because they were baking. They ignored me - on brand for them. They were talking amongst themselves being incredibly loud. I’m timid. I’m not one to interject into conversations especially when everyone is talking at once. I get sensory overload. If there’s a break in the conversation I might say something but I’m usually ignored anyway. This is normal. So I’ll listen but I won’t really partake. Eventually the conversation turned to the leak and I told my mother they were all in my room. She did what she always does and over-reacted. Got pissy, and yelled, “well what do you want me to do about it?” And shook her head. I usually take this kind of thing from her but I didn’t this time. I said, “nothing I was just telling you.” And I rolled my eyes. That’s when my sister-in-law said that I treat my mother like shit and it’s pissing her off. (I avoid my mother because she is a narcissistic abuser. I do not “treat her like shit.”) At this point my sister-in-law is still laying into me all because my mother said she didn’t know what they were doing downstairs and I told her. So my sister-in-law and I start arguing. I tell her you all always have a problem with me and gang up on me. And she said no that I was moping and upset they were in my room. All I said about it was that they were in my room. Before that I had been just sitting there listening to the conversation. Another thing she took issue with was that apparently I didn’t look happy enough for their liking. I was tired and my heart was racing (I have inappropriate sinus tachycardia.) Sorry I wasn’t beaming when my chronic illness was acting up and I hadn’t slept in 20 hours? I tried to walk away from the conversation but Kayla, my sister-in-law, wouldn’t let me. She followed me down the hall. Then went back in the kitchen to talk shit. So I called her on it. She brought John, another one of my abusers, up and I told her he’s verbally abusive. She said he loves me lmfao. And I brought up all the horrible things he’s said to me for the past 12 years and how he continues to treat me. And she brought up the three times I’ve had to call him in the past during a crisis - such as a flooded bathroom - as a last resort when no one else would pick up and threw it in my face. Side note: I want to go no contact with John but he is in my home regularly as I live with my parents and they will not allow it. Kayla said he has a right to say whatever he wants to me because he’s family. I said he has no right to say anything to me after he sexually abused me. That’s when she went bat shit crazy and pinned me up against the fridge and Becky - my aunt - grabbed my arm. I tried to leave but her and Becky had my arms gripped and wouldn’t let me. Kayla was screaming at the top of her lungs and was so in my face her nose was almost touching mine and covering me in spittle. That’s when she said, “I’m going to pick her (as in me) up and throw her outside where she belongs.” And then she tried to do just that so I pushed her away from me to run. Then she tried beating the shit out of me but Becky was dragging me into the hallway and pushed me into my brother Josh as he was coming to get me away from them. Then John and my father came up. John, Becky, Kayla, and my mother were all screaming at me as I was backed into a corner so I called the cops.

My venmo is: tmb0616

If you think “Don’t touch a woman without her consent” is scary or difficult, YOU ARE NOT A GOOD MAN.

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EXCUSE ME BUT YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO ATTACK ME LIKE THAT