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god it's like nobody even cares that [problem i've taken great pains to make sure nobody will acknowledge] looks like i have no choice but to make it worse in isolation for reasons i can't articulate and don't understand

Well u know what i want a quiet house on sunday morning and it's sunny outside i will play jazz records and make iced coffee and have eggs and some fruit and there's nothing to do and i'm calm and i have the freedom to go walk to a park near a river and watch people have picnics and feel the gentle breeze of the wind on my face and there are no sleepless nights because i go to bed early and peacefully because i have no worries and i can finally rest well