It's Random

I have this urge to not take flight but finish off where I am. I’ve learned a lot in my grief journey, the skills I’ve obtained through my experiences of loss, the fact I haven’t lost my shit and destroyed anything. The acknowledgement that I still am able to feel for others.

Discovering long life friendships with people. I’m questioning right now, why I’m feeling like I need to shift my scenery. I’ve made wonderful friends, I’m in a small town, I’m living at the beach but I need to shift how I’m making money.

It’s just compensation dressed up as understanding.” - Single Widow Life

What you do with it is yours to carry.

But don’t mistake possibility for a promise.”

I don’t rush now.

Don’t explain the silence.

Don’t open what’s already been closed.

It’s not distance.

I sometimes entertain the thought that breaking up would be a lot easier for me to process something ending. But that was the thing, we never broke up, so I’m very unfamiliar in detaching or ending our relationship since you passed. I did hear that I don’t end the love I have for you, I honour it. It becomes part of me.

How is that for my life journey currently. Fml

You become a part of me. Ha! I can imagine you chuckling at that. I also know you’ve been guiding me too, trying to get me to lower my boundaries, seriously? 😂