aro or no i am still always into deep pining and the catharsis of seeing that resolved…..

can i be honest. having a sex life is literally so scary i feel like i’m doing something wrong literally all of the time

i genuinely really enjoy when i read something for a kink i do not have but the author is able to depict what’s hot about it so effectively that i get it. like kink tourism

can i not use grindr bc i have an adblocker installed. girl i’m gonna kill someone

listening to old chatterbox episodes and joe keery used to live in jpc’s old apartment ? wow the world is so interconnected

terrifying stressful conversation with my mom that went well as far as things in my control are concerned. but also she’s definitely going to spiral and drink all night and doesn’t get how that affects me

i thought about moving and leaving my dog at home earlier tonight and i was so upset i was like a few degrees off from crying. i don’t want to leave her behind :( i don’t think i could handle it not being temporary tbh that’s my baby and i will be bringing her with me once she’s better trained

incredibly deluded -> maybe this summer i’ll magically have enough energy to take the train to boston and meet a new person every weekend

also i should’ve gone to sleep a while ago but i can’t bc my allergies r acting up and it’s sort of making me miserable 😭

also. even outside of the aro thing, which obviously is a big part of this. i feel like i often can’t relate to what my friends are looking for in someone or what their bounds are for acceptable attraction at all. like idk man age is just one piece of this but i’m not playing abt liking dilfs and i don’t think it’s weird if someone in their mid thirties asks you (in ur mid twenties) out. it’s fine ur not into that! but like. idk the things i care about and prioritize and the things my friends do seem very different. and it does make me self conscious sometimes

thinking a lot abt meeting people etc between pride and being abt to move and no longer isolated but like. a major problem i have is that i love people so much like in general i find others so fascinating and love getting to observe and get to know them However. i don’t really get lonely, and so it takes so much out of me to set up the circumstances to make this happen. so i just don’t

the catholic vs protestant guilt post going around is sort of annoying me Not bc the post is wrong bc in simplified terms it’s right but bc who is misusing catholic guilt like that….. i mean i’m sure it’s happening but why….. this is the suffering is sexy website stop messing that up….. i guess really i’m just annoyed that enough people r getting catholic guilt wrong for that post to have a reason to exist 😭😭😭