Scream Queen

“I want you at your drunkest night - when you cannot think straight and come tumbling through the doorway with a bottle in your hand and a cigarette between your lips. I want you in my bed when you cannot sleep and ask why God does not reveal Himself, and then proceed to wonder if there is an alternative universe out there, where nothing goes wrong and everything falls into its place. I want you when you are slamming the doors and punching holes in the wall out of frustration. Come to me when you are angry and scream, just scream all you want or do not speak at all. I want you when you are tough to handle and when you cannot take care of yourself. I want those rough hands with a soft heart when sarcasm takes over and the only color you can see is red. I will still want you then. I want you when you are drunk or sober (and everything in between).”

“He always has to lay down the reasons as to why I should trust him, but my soul has a vine twisted around it and I can’t help but let it pressure my heart into thinking that nothing is true. He tells me everyday how beautiful I am, and I’m funny, and explains why he does the things he does and I can’t help but think he’s lying. I wish I could believe him the way I’d understand if he leaves.”

Taking your own advice is always the hardest. 

One day I hope all my sadness will be worth it.

One day I hope all my sadness will be worth it.

“Call me and tell me you miss me. Call me and tell me I’m on your mind as much as you are on mine.”

“Two things to remember in life: Take care of your thoughts when you are alone, and take care of your words when you are with people.”