Handsome Dope

I like the view

Confidence , cold hearted

You can see it in my shoes

He has my name on his lips

He’s not coming for you

Yeah I know

He likes James Dean, Hollywood 1953

Hot as his hell, his eyes on me

And I must confess

With eyes like cigarette burns

He’s got it

He’s got it all

All of this body

My skin and my bounty

He’s got it

Liquor on my lips

You think I don’t give a shit

Like boy blue came back blackened

Like I’m the same man laughing

But I died for you

And after all this time, I sit and wonder

A little salt in my love

Don’t call me handsome

I get that enough

Come to me darling

Deep in the woods

The soft of the bush

Far from the hood

In the dark

Bring all the old sweaters

Dead roses, old bottles and letters

So we might

Find a little freedom in our movements

While the flames, they consume it

Dressing like we’re not human

We’re divine

Synchronicity makes time

Although machinery makes me sick

I keep moving like I’m made to be cause

There will be no one left behind

If I have it my way

All we’ll have to worry about is

Which glass and which wine

This is my land

This is your land

Dancing in the living room

Before the bomb drops

Ka-boom

I really did love all of you

Really wanted to be something you

Destroy completely

But my heart knows

I can’t imagine, anyone better

There’s the clouds in the sky

And then the sun

I’m sorry I burned so bright

I’m sorry I tried to be like David

On my mind

Your one true love

Dancing with him

Black tar heroin

Chipped teeth

Red spiked high tops

On cracked pavement

I watch you as you’re leaving

Singing softly, stay with me

I’m fucked up but please

Daily

On a ride

Singing to demons

Why don’t you dance with me

I want to make you see

White sunlight on bloody bandanas

We could be like, John f Kennedy

Marilyn Monroe - happy birthday

But they just let me know

I’m fucked up

Just a tease

Daily

On the other side

Eyes on him

Some sorta sin to them

I say hold me up

I can see the valleys below

You can see the sunlight over the mountain

Gold chains

My neck and my wrist

Lite me up

With his kiss I’m fine

Fucked up

He shines so bright

I have trouble seeing

The edges of my body

Where my real love ends

And where he started the party

Hard as rock

Soft to the touch

His lips keep moving

It’s fucking me up

But I want him

Gods and kings

Never scared me

I’m soft as plush

I’m your baby

My mind is hard

I’m just crazy

It’s been dead a long time

I know you don’t deserve to be

On my mind so

I’m burning the rose

All that will be left is ashes

No proof it was real

God bless your skies

The wings given to you by life

I’m sure you’ll do fine

I need to guide my hurricane to land

And I won’t be the same man

You were like coffee with whiskey

Intoxicating and killing me slowly

I don’t drink black coffee, it’s like

Life got sweeter when he left

The waves are receding

Tall tan & still breathing

Smiling every morning

Clouds in my coffee, I’m not a mess

Faith in myself like

Faith for faithless

I don’t think you could have

Can you handle realness, like

Drink a bottle cause I hate my life

Sex with a guy cause he was mesmerized

Get home and catch myself crying

Say I’m pretty while some thing keeps dying

Smoke a blunt and just vibe

Hit up Hannah say Hi

It’s just Tuesday night

Work at 6am it’s fine

Let’s get lit on that liquor in the blue bottle

Move hips with some boys in Ann Arbor

Make memories in your old impala, thinking

Why do we hate life

I don’t drink black coffee

I got sweeter when he left

I’m on the shore , in the Water

The waves are at my feet

I’m still breathing, I believe

There’s someone out there for me

Till my James Dean wins me over

Clouds in the sky, I’m not a mess

Faith in myself like

My fingers dig into my wound

Exploring the depth the shot took

I look at my mangled body

Blood runs from my lips

I’m naked and cold

In the mirror

This is a chance

To make myself invincible

Cause nothing worse could ever happen

I begin to scrub

Bathe in my guts

Find a safe haven in the tub

Take a shot of vodka

Very carefully connect the dots

So I’m back together

I am the land of sky blue waters

I am the man who cares unlike his father

I am a force of nature

A hurricane, a monsoon

But I know

He wants me by his side

Speeding in his car, and

We shouldn’t be driving

Shouldn’t be making this

A good thing-

When it’s not

He hurts me more than anyone

Hands on my throat

Scratching at my most, insecure

He hates it when I touch him too hard

Sensitive - stained with massive scars

I hope he knows

He’s hit me hard, a few times

He’s got me in ropes

Running blades up my back

He gets to me the most

So when he tells me I’m beautiful

It stings and the lights flicker

When he starts to let me in

My blood burns and

My thoughts become thicker

Why don’t you want this ?

If you can find someone else, go

Just fucking go

I have enough potential for partners

Pairing my wine nights with risky lovers

Letting my nose dip below the water line

When the waves are high

I am the land of sky blue waters

I am the boy who loves unlike his father

I am the man who knows -