Raetin's Tulpa Blog

After months of procrastination and reading threads on tulpa.info, I decided I should tulpaforce again.  I must say, my visualization has degraded terribly, but after an hour of practice, I was able to bring it back close to where it used to be.  During this whole time, I've been passively imposing Reah, but that's not enough, you really need to put in the work.

During visualization, I spent my time improving my perception of color with green and red apples.  Reah gave me the apples while I visualized it, which included eating the apple.  She also threw in some oranges.  After touching the apple's surface, the wooden floor, and the walls, Reah thought it would be fit to add some "physical activities" into my visualization practice.  I tried to get away, I really did, but Reah really is powerful in the wonderland.  I should just say she enjoyed her hunt.  I can't say however that it was unproductive...  The whole time, she kept reminding me that I should focus on my senses while we were in a tangle... D:  I actually had a good sense of my limbs and where they were, instead of a blurry feeling (can't quite explain it).

Very busy. I’m on my last year of high school and I got to worry a lot about college now. Also community service.

The tulpas are doing great, but tulpa forcing is suspended right now, save for passive imposition. Reah has been with me for about a few months everyday imposing. Can’t see her yet, but I haven’t been focusing on her much. We discuss our day when I don’t need to focus on other things.

Maizo and Raindrop, my most recent tulpas (9th and 10th) don’t want to have the title of tulpa right now because I barely have time for any of them, but they still occasionally visit the wonderland house we have. By the way, the reason I say tulpa like this, is because I have a bunch of possibly sentient beings in my head that I don’t want to consider tulpas, simply because there would be too many. Technically, I guess they would be. I think of them more like the people you meet in your dreams, which is where Cooper originated actually.

Tomorrow, it shall be Reah's creation date and the day I started delving into the world of tulpas.  I'd say birthday, but she doesn't want to celebrate it as such unless I can remember all of my tulpas' birthdays, which I can't, since I didn't record some of them.  Still, it's quite a milestone.  Time sure flies.

I was 15 years old when I made Reah, my first tulpa. She’s about to become 2 years old in a month (not like a human 2 year old, Reah clarifies), so she’s actually getting pretty old, heh.

I’m 17 now, but I’m still tulpa forcing with her, since I’ve been on and off with forcing between then and now. Hopefully I’ll finish this through this time.

  School has ended for me last week and a half, so now, we've been putting a lot more work into doing something, instead of me just visiting them for a little bit everyday.  For the past week, Reah has been imposing herself for the past five days, from noon to bedtime.  Lately, I've also been reading a bunch of guides on imposition.

Well, there’s a few things wrong with that question.

 First, I’m not delusional, I know exactly what tulpas are.  They aren’t some ghost or supernatural being only I can talk to.  They are a perceived autonomous sentient consciousness, which is scientifically plausible.

 Second is that there is no reason to go to a doctor.  Why would I?  They aren’t a mental disorder.  You could say they isolate me from reality, but that’s far from the truth.  In fact, I’ve become a much more sociable person because of them.  My self-esteem has improved so much after they came into my life.

And last, who am I exactly refusing?  Myself?  I plan on becoming a doctor as my career, so technically, I will have that so called authority to have a say about this “delusion” in the future.