i just like the username

yuri smut reading sesh got interrupted by uni results :// good news i got accepted bad news it wasnt for the first preference course & didn’t receive fee subsidy grant :( like ok :( it’s not even the degree i want :( but the uni is very good :( im in a dilemma & i rlly wanted to finish this fic bro now im just worried :/ ig im not That disappointed bc i alr hv one admission confirmed But Still i was looking forward to be accepted here WHY did it hv to be this degree also there’s no way i can apply for the grant at the end of one semester too plus it begins 20th july which is extreme short notice considering it’s abroad what the fuck do i do the fee just more than doubled

me in English & me in Mother Tongue are two completely different people just like me on tumblr & me irl…but they’re all still me…so strange…me on this blog & me on main…i suppose it’s like an onion.. or like a book rather w diff chapters

girls kissing….me when… gruhhfjfjfjncdne

would reallyyyy like to make out w a girl :/ whatever. kicks rocks

gah periodsss im feeling bloated asf + cramps (thankfully they r mild 🙏) + sleepy as fuck + leg day (they made us do hiit but without any 'interval' 15 mins str8 and a bunch of other stuff-- i dont usually hv leg day bc i practice punches on that day but the other guy from my batch wasnt there) & forgot to drink protein shake so legs ache so badly esp when walking im hobbling around + decided to fuck it and drink said protien shake with half a cup of tea so now im extra bloated and my legs still ache & im still eepy but ok whatever

I REALLY MISS GOING TO CLASS ON MY CYCLE I WONT BE ABLE TO DO THAT EVER AGAIN IT’S STUPID BUT IT MAKES ME WANT TO CRY I MISS IT SO BAD I MISS MONSOON CAN IT PLEASE RAIN BE OVERCAST CAN I PERPETUALLY LIVE IN JUNE JULY AUGUST?

really stupid and a bit embarrassing but when i first started reading orv i really wished kim dokja would be my father ??? like not in a kinky way just wanted him as a father figure ?????? and he would be so awful at paternal duties yet i don’t know what came over me….anyway it had been long since the feeling died away but lowk What Was That About

i wonder if there will ever be someone who i can be fully honest with…i mean it’s mainly just me who can’t say anything because it’s too difficult rather than the other person being not trusted…and i don’t know if this is a universal thing but at times i end up..gatekeeping my feelings for the lack of a better word it makes me strangely pleased to certain things about myself no one ever will. yet it also makes me so lonely sigh

exploding into a billion smithereens helpppp

why can’t people i love find happiness and why can’t i be of any fucking help

where do u put the impending sense of loneliness ? crashing out presently & im supposed to meeting ppl but thankfully it’s movies so it isn’t as pressing….but i don’t understand why my heart beats so fast

i think i should have the right to obliterate my mother’s side of the family how can they do all that