Not Me

Hey everyone. I’m about to tell you all a really personal story, and then, I could use your help.

The blonde in the pictures above is my little sister, Rachel. She’s 14, a freshman in high school. She’s one of the smartest kids you’ll ever meet, to be honest. Smarter than me. She’s got an amazing sense of humor and the most gorgeous smile, the sort of person who just lights up a room with laughter after being in it for five minutes. Even though I’m 19 and I should be the tough one, she’s held me when I cried, and she cooks me dinner when I’m too lazy to do it, and she gives me confidence when I don’t believe in myself. We cosplay together, we fangirl together, and we talk Tumblr-speak at the dinner table. It’s not an exaggeration when I tell you this girl is my entire world. I’d do anything for her, and I love her more than words could fully describe.

On Friday, she was admitted to a psychiatric hospital after a year of battling severe depression and anxiety.

She thinks she’s ugly. She thinks her future doesn’t matter. She often hates herself, and can’t see all the amazing things everyone else knows is obvious just from their first glance at her. 

The red tie on my wrist you see in the third picture was from her. Behavioral hospitals don’t allow anything with strings on them, so after she pulled out the tie for her sweatshirt, she wrapped it around my wrist for me to wear until she gets back. It might only be for a weekend, or it might be for longer. I don’t know yet.

Here’s where I’m asking for your help. At the earliest, Rachel is coming home on Sunday, but it’ll probably be longer. Still, that means I might only have two days to get the message out. I want to show her when she comes home that there are people out there who believe in her. Who think she’s beautiful and worth fighting for, worth recovery. 

My Neighbor Totoro

Spirited Away

Sleeping Beauty

Finding Nemo

Wall-E

Beauty and the Beast

Tangled

James and the Giant Peach

Mulan

Winnie the Pooh: Springtime with Roo

Evan Almighty

The Breakfast Club

Clueless

The Little Mermaid

Theres Something About Mary

Austin Powers: The Spy Who Shagged Me

Kiki’s Delivery Service

Eden of the East: King of Eden

Digimon the Movie

Bee Movie

The Nightmare Before Christmas

Pokemon Movie 1: Mewtwo Strikes Back

Pokemon Movie 2: The Power of One

Pokemon Movie 3: Spell Of The Unown

Ponyo

Anastasia

The Wizard of Oz

Monty Python and the Holy Grail

Clue

Hercules

She’s the Man

Mean Girls

10 Things I Hate About You

Clerks

Switch

The First Wives Club

The Birdcage

She’s All That

Romy and Michele’s High School Reunion

Legally Blonde

Miss Congeniality

Spice World

Lion King

El Dorado

Howl’s Moving Castle

Princess Mononoke

Lilo & Stitch

Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind

Coraline

The Emperor’s New Groove

Pitch Perfect

Step Brothers

Alice in Wonderland (1951)

Alice in Wonderland (2010)

Harry Potter and the Sorcerers Stone

Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets

Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban

Harry Potter and the Goblet of FIre

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows pt 1

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows pt 2

Imagine Me & You

The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring

The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers

The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King

Space Jam

The Proposal

Waitress

Galaxy Quest

Spaceballs

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