I'm Rachel😏

“i need to learn to stop excuses for people’s behavior and how badly they treat me. just because i understand that you had a difficult childhood and bad parents doesn’t mean that it is okay for you to treat me like shit. your parents were bad people and didn’t love you like they should’ve, i am not sorry for that, it isn’t my mistake. i suffered the same fate”

You will find no sympathy from creation if you choose to be a victim

“I don’t quite know when I became this person who needed validation, maybe I have been like this for years and just realising it, but I don’t remember turning into this needy person, I don’t even remember what it felt like to not need validation. I have become this person who seeks approval from strangers just to feel like I exist, just to feel like I matter even if just a little bit. Seeking approval from your family sometimes is justifiable, especially when you are feeling low or when you are going through a bad time, but even with them I don’t remember ever getting that approval, that ‘yes you are good enough’ or ‘yes you did good’. I don’t remember ever not seeking approval, validation, trying to be good enough, trying to be better, trying and trying. And eventually love started to feel like a task. Hugs felt forced. Words felt heavy, heart felt numb and soul just felt tired. And suddenly I felt the need to hear from someone that seeking validation all the time is alright even though it isn’t.”