like my desc says, if you report me I will just come back. As it is, I cannot afford therapy or actual help, even if I wanted it. This blog is how I plan to get my thoughts out, so I can have a way to be heard. This is what's keeping me from committing suicide, and I will be damned if I let go of it
Special anons
🦑👁 (my ex that I'm still friends with)
DID alter, Persecutor specifically
Recently discovered I'm a Yumeno fictive
I'm fine with roleplay accounts interacting dw!! And I'm perfectly okay with interacting with your posts and RPing with you, just please remember that I'm a fictive, not just an rp blog :)
"Achilles, Achilles, Achilles come down, won't you get up off, get up off the roof?"
Names:
The Dollhouse System (collective name)
Kyuusaku, Kyuu, Marchosias, Marco, Yumeno
(Feel free to call me any of these. I prefer Kyuu but I went by Marco for so long I understand if you can't stop)
Pronouns: He/they
Demiboy
Pansexual
Body age is 16, as am I (I'm not the EXACT same as my source.)
Interests:
Bungo Stray Dogs (Favorite is ME!!) Edgar Allen Poe (as in the ACTUAL writer) Religious Horror, Meatcore, Rotcore, Weirdcore, Yame Kawaii or wtv it's called, goth, Jirai, Cult of the Lamb, Killer Chat (Ronin!!) Gluttony Gods (Ther my beloved) Cookie Run Kingdom, NSO, Baldur's gate 3 (Astarion my goat) Alien Stage (TILL!!) Alfred's playhouse, however I do NOT support the creator and I am not involved in the fandom, I don't even think it should have HAD a fandom to begin with. Biohazard Supermarkets (Mexia, Seafood city, etc.) (As in I like reading about them, I don't make OCs out of them or stuff like that. Idc if you do though) PTV, MCR, Laufey...I listen to pretty much everything. There's actually even a couple country songs I like ngl (they're all about abusive husbands getting killed or cheating men getting karma) (and also Dixon Dallas but that's bc his songs make me giggle)
DNI LIST (I know this isn't gonna stop anyone, but whatever)
Pedos/maps. People who call Mori a pedophile (BSD related, I could go on a whole rant abt why it's fucked up to call him a pedo) ICE, MAGA, Trump supporters, Ableists, homophobes, transphobes, trans chasers, zoos, etc. anyone under 14 or above 24 (just a boundary) Fatphobes. This includes meanspo and fatspo creators. Fuck you. Ana/Mia people who make fun of people with BED, Non disordered "systems" etc.
Our system (collectively speaking) has been through RAMCOA, SA, DV, and grooming. Please keep this in mind.
HIDE YOUR LIKES AND FOLLOWING OR I WILL BLOCK YOU.
I don't mind doubles (as in Yumeno fictives or fictionkins) but I may be a little more distant. It's nothing against you, I just feel odd when I talk to myself (if that makes sense)
Other than doubles PLEASE interact if we're fictives or fictionkins with the same source PLEASE I love meeting you guys
(So far I've met seven Dazais, three Chuuyas, a Verlaine, a Rimbaud, Sigma, Pushkin, Kunikida, Bram, Ranpo, Akutagawa, Kunikida, Gin, Kyouka, and Kenji but I really wanna make more friends with the same source)
"I wanna scream, Cut you up like you did me."
Other alters blogs:
@m3rak1sb0n3s
@givemepunishmentandrules
@emrysb4nd41dk1t
@the-d0llh0us3-system
Forgot what our Chuuya's blog is and I don't wanna look for it
Tagging my moots that I can remember off the top of my head:
@melancholic-whimsy @chuuyaawannabbee @karmonpiki
(Feel free to tell me to remove you if wanted)
And that's it bc I have horrible memory
Tag list:
Rotting from the inside out: yapping
Screaming into the void hoping something can hear me: venting
"Now I'll make you feel the pain too, Mr. Dazai!" : Answering asks
"Wanna play a game?" : Reblogs
(I got the reblog and ask tags mixed up but it's okay I just switched them around)
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Things they don't warn you about as a fictive: source memories that aren't the exact same as canon
In my source memories Mori was my fucking DAD, and he told me Elise was my SISTER because he made her look like a child due to wishing he had kids, so of COURSE I'm gonna deny any claims that he touches kids, but the problem is I have to look through every miniscule detail about him in order to find actual arguments, because my memories aren't canon and I'm not my source, so I can't just say "yeah that's my DAD and I KNOW he doesn't touch Elise" because it's only IMPLIED that Yumeno (source) was adopted by Mori
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So I found out that one of the male staff members in a mental hospital I was at has been giving his number to female patients???? Mind you all patients there are underage, and morally grey, so he absolutely COULD get away with dating them because the girls he was giving his number to had no moral compass and wouldn't tell anyone if he tried to pursue them.
Okay I guess.
I actually DID have a bad feeling about the guy but now I feel so free bc my suspicions have been confirmed
"But shipping the characters with each other when the irl authors hated each other/making up headcanons for their genders/sexualities that aren't the same as their irl counterparts is disrespectful to the authors!!!" If you actually cared about respecting the authors, I think you people would talk more about half the characters being criminals. Or the fact that a character is viewed as a pedophile by a significant amount of the fandom when the author he's named after was an SA survivor and said he didn't feel any interest in sex or derive pleasure from it.
It feels so awkward when someone who blocks doubles follows me. I'm not yumeshipping with any of those characters but I do happen to be fictionkin. Please read intros, guys. /nm
This or they should specify that they only mean people who yumeship with their F/O and not fictionkins, like I personally feel weird talking to other Yumeno fictives or fictionkins because that's ME, but I could NOT care less of someone yumes with my source, whether that be romantically or platonic/family
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