Spoom

Hello! This is not goodbye! However, this is a thank you! I've had this account for 5 years, and it's been extremely fun. I love writing, and I would be lying if I said I wouldn't return to write more and remain semi-active in fandoms.

It hurts because I basically "grew up" And I had so many memories with friends new and old but it's time to say....

This blog, will take a really big back seat... And I will no longer be writing.

I am sadly no longer able to work for big boy mental health reasons. Like something I'm not comfortable with sharing.

Ever since I've had many talks with my therapist about it, I've been thinking a lot, and honestly, it's been hard.

To help myself, And my family, and especially my dad who is trying his best to support me.

Like I said, this isn't a goodbye. Because I'll always be here lurking in the shadows like some cryptid, perhaps if the temptation is too much, I shall wiggle my way out of the ground through a fanfic and run.

I apologize that I must retire from writing to move on to somewhere else, but I hope you guys will support me on my new journey.

To all 4k of you Thank you.

Because it wasn't like before when they didn't understand Godzilla as much.

They would just shoot a few extra missiles make him destroy planes so he doesn't take out that extra aggression on some power plant or something.

I've never felt that before???

What do you mean it's not just a figurative speech?

Please anyone tell me if this is true?

(thank you Tumblr for not giving me any indication that people were commenting)

I can't believe I need a disclaimer:

This post is in no way an argument of "why MC sucks or not etc" This is just my opinion and how I see her. Because I have a crippling problem of always trying to hyper-analyze protagonists and blank slate characters. If you try to use this to harass or win some argument over the internet about a porn game I will throw a break at you. This is me sharing my opinions and inviting people to a discussion. I want to talk about funny fictional characters.

Since I am a female I am going to use she/her pronouns for MC! My opinions about MC still stand regardless of gender.

First of all: Y'all thank you so so much for not going after me after saying MC has incel traits.

I think I'm more romantically attracted to women than I thought I was.

I thought it was just masculine presenting women.

(Of course I would rather have an emotional connection with anyone before I even dream of feeling like this. But like I'm noticeably more nervous around women)

And then I was like... Wait I think I like feminine women but I'm just too intimidated by their radiant beauty. Because they're over here looking absolutely gorgeous with beautiful makeup with the makeup skills of a god. And the posture, confidence that make them look like Disney princesses.

And The things they wear are so pretty. And the perfume they wear smells so good.

And then it's like... You don't have to wear makeup or wear all these pretty things to be beautiful. So many women say they look like shit without makeup and I'm sitting here looking at whoever said that to themselves like "??????"

Like I am literally a troglodyte compared to you. If you shine too bright in front of me I will burn and disintegrate like a disgusting degenerate confused vampire.

When your best friend draws your straight Oc x Cannon ship on pride month

@beakerr

(They said I can post this)

*GASP*

Tw: hypersexuality, depressing, psychoanalyzing a character that has the characteristics of a styrofoam rock.

Excuse me while I drop this and then run back into the fog like Bigfoot.

Bullied like... Bully bullied. Bullied and unwanted to the point where to feel anything they use porn as an outlet.

Minhyeok being extremely popular with women and men and being basically head over heels for MC was definitely indirectly the cause of some of that bullying. Minhyeok put a hard stop to that... But bullying still happens just Not as open.

They're bullying was so bad they have to switch to online school.

MC didn't like going outside in the human world as they are the subject of bullying they're kind of always self-conscious of how other people see them. Which is why they're so relaxed and exploring all of hell all of the time.

They're also relaxed in hell because they genuinely think the only thing they can offer these demons is their body. They're self-esteem is so low that they literally cannot fath them in their mind that someone would like them other than sex. Which is why they genuinely cannot even fathom the mere idea of Minhyeok having a crush on them. "Lol the most popular guy in my entire life having a crush on me? Haha... Nice try whatever you're taking can I have some?"

It certainly didn't help that since they had little to no parental supervision they've seen stuff at a young age they definitely shouldn't be seeing.

They're hypersexuality is also stemming from the fact they don't keep many people perhaps it's because they lost their parents when they're young. Or perhaps trauma of losing people in their life throughout their life not just their parents. That fleeting connection that they get from watching or reading porn is the only thing they can safely give. Because they are afraid of opening up.

Incel/femcel: Not in the way you think... They just have little to no self-esteem and they don't see a point in trying. No they don't go on weird sites... No they don't hate men / women, They have extremely low self-esteem and they genuinely don't see a point in trying to have literally anything other than the dopamine hit they get from feeling pleasure.

The baby fister

Context:

Warning... Cursed image.

I'm really happy that I made a gender ambiguous masculine woman

As long as she never speaks I'm happy... (Her voice is way too feminine to what I think what her voice actually sounds like

This is Sawyer!

BRO I GOT THIS ASK IN MARCH!!! TUMBLERS NOT NOTIFYING ME WHAT THE FUCK.

I loved talking about fanfics and headcanons about characters!!