Hello! This is not goodbye! However, this is a thank you! I've had this account for 5 years, and it's been extremely fun. I love writing, and I would be lying if I said I wouldn't return to write more and remain semi-active in fandoms.
It hurts because I basically "grew up" And I had so many memories with friends new and old but it's time to say....
This blog, will take a really big back seat... And I will no longer be writing.
I am sadly no longer able to work for big boy mental health reasons. Like something I'm not comfortable with sharing.
Ever since I've had many talks with my therapist about it, I've been thinking a lot, and honestly, it's been hard.
To help myself, And my family, and especially my dad who is trying his best to support me.
Like I said, this isn't a goodbye. Because I'll always be here lurking in the shadows like some cryptid, perhaps if the temptation is too much, I shall wiggle my way out of the ground through a fanfic and run.
I apologize that I must retire from writing to move on to somewhere else, but I hope you guys will support me on my new journey.
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Companies when they need personalities for their player MCs
before
Male Mc: I must get stronger for the sake of the world falls on my shoulders. Other than that my only purpose is to look super cool in cutscenes
Female Mc: tehe I love my friends I'm taking everyone shopping later so we can get enough material to make friendship bracelets, my personality is girl™ (or whatever the male writer thinks women are.) because the developers forget half the population has money
MC personalities now:
Male mc:
I am way too chill given the amount of traumatic events I have been through, and I have no self preservation skills, I think glue taste good. Oh and also I like feeling very Bonita :)
Female mc:
The amount of crap I have dealt with makes me barely tolerant of bullshit. You have seven seconds to explain yourself, or else. If I am unsupervised for one second something will explode and I may or may not be the cause of it.
Your boyfriend really likes rocks- like really, really likes rocks- whether you met him online, during your shift, or at a cafe. It was completely obvious that he loves his job. For one, you hardly see him in clothes that aren't his work uniform or clothes that look like his work uniform. Your first date was in the Sinnoh underground. Something you were extremely skeptical of... Because who takes a first date into the mines? I mean, let's be honest: the first time the two of you entertained the idea of a date, he told you, "I'm not really good at the whole romance thing." And yeah, that is true. He's not fond of being in one place with a bunch of people in front of a candlelit dinner, and he has no clue what gifts to give and what is appropriate on a date. He overthinks what to say to make you blush and swoon, and don't get him started on time and scheduling. But that doesn't mean he doesn't try. That doesn't mean he doesn't love you. And he doesn't mean he can't sweep you off your feet. He can be quite the romantic without meaning to. When he shows you an underground biome of glowing Stone and crystals that sparkle like stars, He takes your hand and leads you deeper. You didn't even know things like this existed in the Sinnoh underground. When he sits you on a blanket that he had prepared, with the only light being the brightly glowing stones and a lantern, His soft voice tells you that he's very happy that you agreed to come with him, and then he chuckles at himself, saying, "Now that I think about it... The mines are a pretty weird place to take someone, huh? I just wanted to take you someplace special... And this is all I know... Beautiful, huh?" Whether you warm up to the idea or you are already ecstatic You're digging into the cavern wall together when he notices a crack in one of the walls. Roark is an insanely good teacher He speaks in a soft yet confident voice that only he talks to you in. Even now. The first thing you dug out of the wall was a very small red sapphire.
Roark is a workaholic now that he has a partner. The urge to go to the Sinnoh underground when he's supposed to be off is enormous. He could just work all day, but why would he do that? He loves his work, but He loves you too. He's a grown man; he can figure it out. He wasn't like this before; after you started dating him, he would work all the time... He would work and work and work. If the two of you live together, he would work until late at night and come home while you're already asleep, or even work on the weekends. He's exhausted but happy. Whether you're okay with it or not, how much you works, working every day with little breaks, isn't really good for anybody's health. If you ever bring up your worries. He'll almost look horrified. He does love his job but the fact that he didn't even realize he was neglecting you scared him.
The reason why he reacted so strongly has because his dad used to do the same, working all the time. One of the many reasons why the relationship is so strained. His mom left when he was a young age because of it.
Roark has never thought of himself as someone who would be interested in long-term commitment or marriage. But with you he thinks about it constantly. Every time he looks at you he pictures you in white and suddenly he can't focus on anything else. Now how would a man who spends most of his waking hours underground digging for fossils minerals and other gems used for the stone of a wedding ring? Of course it would be something he dug up himself. As much as he loves looking at pictures and through glass cut gemstones, something so cut and polished doesn't feel right to him... But at the same time He could never even hope to give you something you wouldn't potentially like.
A couple of months later, you're tearing through the place trying to find something. It was so precious to you. You were on the verge of tears. Roark, who is ever so weak to seeing you cry, You are immediately in your arms. "What's wrong? Why are you crying?" You tell him that you lost that little sapphire stone, the same one you found on your first date with him. Raork smiles, "That little old thing? Babe, I've given you so many sapphires now..."You insist that it's different, that it means so much more to you. It means even more to you than the display cabinet of all the gifts he has come home with from the underground. For one thing, the red was far more vivid than the others, and another thing, it was the first one you found with him. Roark presses in the top of your head, inhaling your scent before saying, "Well... I found a better use for it." Then out of his pocket he pulls out a velvet box, getting on one knee. The actual band was simple, whether it be engravings or a design. However, in the middle, that's where you recognize it: the oval stone was the vivid little sapphire you found on that first date with him. You don't know whether to get upset at him for taking something of yours without asking, cry about how cute it was, or squeal with joy...
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Am I the only one who likes to read Head cannons of negative traits about my favorite characters.
I love them so much I want all their sides even the parts that would piss me off. Because being with your partner despite their negatives feels so sweet to me.
(potential angst as well)
Baby I'm just the only one thinking about having an argument with Mac about cryptocurrency and AI.
God I love Mac so much but holy shit My drama llama ass I would LOVE to read a fanfic about S/o and Mac accidentally getting into a conversation about AI.
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Lohen NSFW ALPHABET
Tw: NONCON!!! Drugging, kidnapping, marking, threats, degrading, intoxication, Knife play, blood play, sadism, masochism, power imbalance, improper use of poison, fear play, improper use of a crossbow, Lohen does not take consent seriously, breeding.
(I don't know how many trigger warnings I can or can't put here Please just Don't read if you're sensitive to certain topics warnings man He's a red flag)
Haven't played genshin since Fontaine Because I mainly play ZZZ now. I made this for a friend so hopefully I didn't butcher his character too much.
A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)
Lohen is.... Still getting the hang of aftercare. Personally, he doesn't want to be the receiver. In fact, he quite likes any and all pain you give him. To him, it's a love language.
For you, however, that's different. You are the entire reason why he's trying in the first place. Lohen is surprisingly gentle as he rubs salve on the open wounds and scratches marks he has given you. Lohen hums in satisfaction as he looks at his work, begrudgingly putting plasters over those sweet, sweet cuts and bruises. You swore you heard him whisper that he'll miss one of them as if he isn't going to cover you again in marks, hickies, and wounds later.
Don't get into a bath with Lohen; he'll start to regret having you wash everything he's done to you down the drain.
B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)
Lohen's: his hands are his favorite, His hands dextrous yet terrifyingly strong; these hands have ended lives, and these are the same hands that touch and grope and give you pleasure, which Lohen gleefully brings up when his fingers are knuckles deep inside you. An honorable mention, if it counts, is his teeth. Personally, I think Lohen has sharp canines, which he frequently uses on his partner's body.
S/o's: legs and thighs. Especially thighs. Soft, strong yet sensitive, plush. He likes how easily they bruise. He likes the way his knife presses slowly against the plush skin until the skin breaks. He likes it when they tense up when his tongue runs across the cut, licking up every drop of your blood. He likes how they feel in his mouth when he bites down. He likes the way they close around him and squeeze when his mouth brings you pleasure. He will take personal offense if you don't squeeze as hard as you can. He loves when they tremble and become limbless when you're cumming.
C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)
If you are not covered in wounds and cum he's doing something wrong.
Everywhere and anywhere, your face, your mouth, your chest... Your thighs, your ass inside you. Deep inside you. Let him make you filthy.
D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)
He has drugged you, and he has fucked you while you are passed out. Multiple times.
At first, it was just an experiment tampering with something that would make you sleep better at night after you complained. And then he saw how... Tantalizing you were, knocked out and at his mercy.
You do thank him for the sleeping solution He has made for you. So you take it every night... And Lohen happily presses his entire body against you, rutting his cock between those thighs, grabbing handfuls of you and pressing you hard against him. I can't even help myself in placing a hickey on the back of your neck.
You never know it's there. You notice that some people get a strange look, but that's about it. And you also notice Lohen has that suspicious smug smile on his face as he insists on walking behind you. Every time you ask, he has the same thing: "mh..? Oh nothing... Just admiring you."
His other not-so-secret dirty secret is that you just want to keep you drugged and reliant on him. He fantasizes I'm coming home and seeing you warming his bed. It'll be like keeping a pet. A pet that he fucks and feeds and bathes.
E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)
Would you believe me if I said no? Would you believe me if I said he tried to have sexual encounters in the past to no avail?
He learned an alarming number of things from outside sources. What outside sources? Use your imagination~! They are all legal, I promise.
F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)
He likes doggy. He likes grabbing fistfuls of your hair, pressing you down onto the pillows until you're struggling to breathe as he slams his hips into your plush ass over and over. Leaving red handprints of where he strikes you.
G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)
He can be, but I don't think you want him to be... Hey, goofs off during sex in a way that would unsettle you. No particular reason other than the fact that He secretly gets off to it.
H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)
Lohen personally keeps himself shaved every now and then so he can't be bothered to deal with it later. He also likes the burn he feels after he waits for a while.
I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)
Lohen has the romance of a rabid rabbit in heat. He has his own twisted ass way of showing romance. He thinks flower petals and lit candles are tacky. He thinks dinners are boring. Drugging and kidnapping you and keeping you in an unknown location where you're all his to do with as he pleases for a week? There we go... Now that's romantic.
I'm serious. He thinks there is nothing more romantic than two partners sharing every waking second together. There is nothing more romantic than Lohen taking care of you and being in complete control while you're completely dependent on him for everything.
Don't act like you don't like it.
J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)
Why would he jack off when the real thing is right here? Why would he purposely downgrade himself to just his hand when your holes are his and his alone to use for his pleasure?
Though he does like masturbating in front of you. And he does like watching you do it... But that's the only exception.
K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)
He loves marking. He loves leaving his mark on you so much that it's some kind of fetish. He has traced the tip of his knife against your thigh, spelling out his name multiple times. His eyes have a distant look as if he's contemplating whether to give his knife just a little more pressure. He is so sick of you being so afraid that you might hurt him. Stop hesitating, cut him with the knife already. He's straight up asking you to mark him. He wants to wear your marks. How many times does he have to tell you? Bite him, scratch him, and do it hard! Bite him so hard that he can run his finger across the scar for weeks as he giggles and kicks his feet, thinking about you.
Fear play: That fear in your eyes gets him harder than he cares to admit. He wants to be the one to twist that look of fear on your face intoint pleasure when he fucks you so hard. All you can think about is him. He will press his crossbow between your legs, put a knife to your throat, and tell you to grind on it.
An example for S/o with a uterus:
You warned him to be careful because today you are most fertile. He burned the look of your eyes going wide in panic when he pressed his hips firmly against yours as he spurted every hot load of cum he had for you. Only for him to laugh and tell you that he can't have kids even if he wanted them to begin with. He is, in fact, infertile.
The taste of your blood is his favorite flavor.
Noncon/freeuse:
He loves, loves, loves seeing the panic in your eyes when he sneaks into your place when you think he's supposed to be working. He puts a dagger to your throat and takes you right then and there. He wants you to fight back. Please fight back, try to hurt him. Don't hold back when you do. Even better if you grab a weapon. Don't worry about him. Don't even think about hesitating. If you think you will accidentally kill him, then you must be deluded, or you think he's weak.
Corruption:
If you are otherwise innocent or naive about anything in any way, and you just started dating him. You will not be the same when he's done with you. He will ruin you and demand you thank him as he covers you in shame. He calls it cuteness aggression.
L = Location (favorite places to do the do)
I don't know how to answer this...
All I can say is that he probably has a checklist of where he wants to do it. His bedroom gets boring after a while. He likes the risk of his office. Though he can't do it too often or else his dumbass coworkers will get suspicious. He likes the adrenaline rush of doing it in public.
M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)
That far-off look you get when you're either drugged or drunk out of your mind. It's his favorite thing. He doesn't like touching himself but when he does do it when he can't have you that he's thinking about.
N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)
Lohen WILL NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES SHARE YOU!!!
You have a ticking time bomb of a partner who you literally have to try to disarm when someone else tries to flirt with you.
The last time someone thought you were single, Lohen reassured you that everything was fine. You couldn't walk for a week, and somehow magically, you felt so weak you couldn't get out of bed. But don't worry, Lohen happily provided you with everything~
"oh... My dearest you're so weak! You don't feel too well? Aw... It must have been something you ate~or maybe you're still sore? That's understandable if you are... Especially after the night we had."
O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)
MAKE HIM GAG ON IT! SUFFOCATE HIM! SUFFOCATE HIM RIGHT NOW, CUT OFF ALL BREATHING UNTIL HIS VISION GOES WHITE! LOHEN DEMANDS IT!
P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)
The pace of a rabbit on aphrodisiac in mating season.
Fast rough deep combination of those two
Slow grinding is saved for nights.
Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)
Lohen has been reprimanded far too many times for public indecency. Basic tasks are boring, and he needs an outlet for anything thrilling, something that will get his blood pumping and sweat rolling down his body.
What? Are you on your lunch break? Ah... Whatever. Don't worry about it, he'll just give your boss some excuse that he needs to borrow you for a second. He's a knight after all.
R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)
Yes. Sometimes he has a bad habit of experimenting without telling you in the middle of sex, which is something you have talked to him about more times than you can count.
S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)
"'No more, no more? You can't take it?' YES YOU CAN! I-hhuugh~ d-Don't care if you can't take it! You can and you will! I will-I will fucking train you to do it slut!- oh y-yes, squeeze... Just Like that! O~oh? Are you crying? Mmmh fuuck You going to make me cum if you keep making that face~ fuck Yes my perfect darling!! I'll drain my balls for you till they burn!"
T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)
"Anything's a toy if your brave enough... " - Lohen probably
U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)
I can see Lohen being a massive bully in bed. But I can also see him having little to no patience and just giving everything in anything to you.
V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)
But never begging... Do not ask him Do not try to get him to beg he'll do anything but begging????? No he'd like to see you try.
W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)
Personal headcan of mine is Lohen Is completely infertile from all the experiments that has been done on him Lohen either completely lost the ability to have kids, or it is very, very rare for him to conceive.
Another personal headcanon of mine is that Lohen has an age difference kink directed at people older than him. He will take it as a personal challenge if anyone brushes off his flirting because of his age or because of how young he looks. He loves breaking people who infantilize him. He gets an insane power trip from that.
X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)
He is actually well-endowed. He is a grower on the lengthy side but still has a good amount of girth, vany and he is circumcised.
Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)
Be thankful that Lohen Is biologically infertile.
Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)
Lol no to literally fuck you for an entire day before he passes out.
Byleth as a non-human is so funny to me because He already wouldn't know a lot of human customs. So it's his normal socially and emotionally underdevelopment, with an extra layer of him not understanding humans.
He treats you like glass And yet he doesn't understand why he can't just yonk you away until your warm and protected in his nest.
In reality all he did was show up stare at you practically stalking you giving you weird shit every once in a while like a rock or sometimes a kill. And you didn't immediately attack him so you must accept his courtship.
He knows humans are skittish so he approaches you as if he's about to grab a feral spitting kitten.
No he will not understand until either one of his students or his peers tell him. And he is astonished....You mean humans don't court by displays of violence...? Wait... What do you mean that's not how court either.
That's when he realized he truly does not know how to do this.
I want to build on this But I want to be specific soo here's a poll
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Whb mc personal headcanons extra (mostly just talking)
(thank you Tumblr for not giving me any indication that people were commenting)
I can't believe I need a disclaimer:
This post is in no way an argument of "why MC sucks or not etc" This is just my opinion and how I see her. Because I have a crippling problem of always trying to hyper-analyze protagonists and blank slate characters. If you try to use this to harass or win some argument over the internet about a porn game I will throw a break at you. This is me sharing my opinions and inviting people to a discussion. I want to talk about funny fictional characters.
Since I am a female I am going to use she/her pronouns for MC! My opinions about MC still stand regardless of gender.
First of all: Y'all thank you so so much for not going after me after saying MC has incel traits.
Obviously I'm not trying to make fun of MC for having these traits... Because if you peel back all of the violent misogynistic, homophobic and literally everything else. You just get people who are very sad lonely and have very low self-esteem.
MC strikes me has the type of person to just have given up on everything using porn as an outlet for a lot of trauma they have...
And trauma they are still having, bro she literally watched the only person she had in her life die right in front of her just like her parents... She was so distraught losing another person She literally begged to do anything from a demon. (Before she knew anything)
As much as I have problems with her I personally feel bad, She lost her parents at a very very young age being raised by a family who I assume probably had a little to do in her life. They're nice but according to the little screen time they have they don't seem to care that much.
May I remind you that MC lives alone in her own house... The same house That was owned by her deceased parents. Minhyeok was literally the only person she had.
And then it continues in hell, especially in the story these demons she lives with through the relationship with her is very transactional. She is there for one reason... And she's having sex too basically breathe.
And even if these demons did love her, for a while they didn't like her because of hers They liked her because of the completely different person she was in the past. Some demons are constantly comparing her and bringing her down to *descendant of Solomon*
I don't doubt her for being very detached because of this, I bet if a demon did try to genuinely want her affection... Not sex... Dating and affection. The first thing MC is going to think is "okay do they need me to take my pants off? They're kind of sexy so I might like this."
Not going to mention the amount of times demons took advantage of her or betrayed her trust or tried to kill her...
And the little fart on the shit cake...
SHE BASICALLY FOUND OUT THAT EVERYTHING SHE KNEW WAS A LIE. AND THE ONLY PERSON SHE GREW UP WITH TRUSTED AND THE CLOSEST SHE EVER FELT TO ANYONE IS POSSIBLY A MASTER MANIPULATOR WHO PROBABLY CREATED THIS ENTIRE LIFE OF HER PERSONAL SUFFERING FOR JUST HIM...
Ooh! I just know MC is going to be so allergic to commitment.
In conclusion: MC is extremely traumatized, And they are still getting traumatized to this day!
