New motivation

I really hate that I have to come on here talk about these issues, but 2026 is crumbling, and I need to just release the emotions surrounding sharing.

I hate that I have to sit down here and write about my experiences, because time is moving at such a rapid rate, there are so many things to do, obligations to uphold, things that are seeping through the cracks, and also just a lot of complex emotions happening all at once, all of the time in this current stage of my life.

So I'm returning here, momentarily, to just release the "gunk" of my life.

I am sad that I have to work with loser-ass coworkers. But these are not your typical loser-ass coworkers.

Specifically, there is a 58-year old grown ass man who is married with a child who lives and works at the place that I work at.

He is a loser.

But more importantly, he is a creepy man.

At first, I thought he was a regular person.

But it is now becoming clear that he is a creep. Initially, I never saw that about this person. But when I realized that he is visiting our coworker outside of work, who is 30 years younger than him, that was when things really set in for me that this man is actually sick.

I have absolutely zero intention of wanting to know the details or the nature of their relationship, and I am actually weirded out that I had to learn about their inappropriate relationship in the first place.

But the weirder thing is that both parties are obsessed with me and it is becoming creepy!!!

This man was talking to this girl about seeing my email address (which is WEIRD bc I have virtually zeroooooooooooooo information online that shares this information), which is what is making me uncomfortable.

I actually want to address this with someone, but I know my boss isn't going to do anything. He's just going to ask if I want to take it to HR.

I'm at the last home stretch of this train wreck that is my career (and life) and I am at the end of my road here. Every single thing is crumbling. While this experience has been very annoying, aggravating, hurtful, and enraging, it has also been freeing, because I get to let go of things that no longer serve me.

And I get to let go for good. And go in a new direction that will be lasting.

During this transitional period, I will continue to speak up for myself, but also remain detached from the foolishness and clownery of this situation.

I'm supposed to be applying to internal jobs....but I am just so over this experience! I want to quit! I really do, but I am going to see things through. I will be applying to these internal jobs AND EXTERNAL BECAUSE EVERYBODY GOT ME FUCKED UP. And it WILL RAIN DOWN ON THESE PEOPLE!! WRATH!