Queen Nerd Fitness

The beginning of quarantine!

April

At the time, my love, dumped me... I was in so much internal pain. I was broken — but this form of broken, wasn’t the familiar broken feelings I’ve ever felt before.

— Because I’ve been broken many times before —

I’ve been emotionally and mentally abused for 3 years. I’ve had my spirit knocked down, spit on, kicked, buried and destroyed.

But!

This wasn’t that.

I never loved my abuser. I believed I did, for all the wrong reasons. I was blinded by that mans bright light of bullshit.

I was in love with this man, that had left me numb that first day of April🥺

I was so numb. I couldn’t eat, sleep, move, work out, run, and I didn’t even have the motivation to shower for the next eight days. I was truly BROKEN!

I could’nt even bare making conversation with anyone. What was the point? I felt unworthy and disgusting. I hated myself.

I cried so much to the point that when I was crying, no tears would coming out. I was crying air!

My friends suggested going back on tinder a month after the break up, so I figured I would try. But every guy that came up, I would compare to my ex and just think about everything that I missed about my ex.

The connection. The laughs. The good times.

It wasn’t working...

So I stopped trying because sex was no longer a craving of mine. It was so unappealing to me. The thought of dick would leave me feeling sick. I didn’t want to be bothered with it, what-so-ever.

Life works in mysterious ways,

Because —

A few months had passed, and an old friend of mine is returned from Florida, a free man out of jail.

He wanted to meet up & hang out; he invited his friend as well. Since my friend was texting terribly, his friend, whom we went to high school with, messaged me and told me to come through to chill with the two of them.

Something about him messaging me made me feel better about going to hang out.

My decision was swayed, and I meet up with the two of them.

Well —

I’m so glad I went!

Him & I have been talking for almost 2 months now, and it’s been going really well!!

I am finally finding happiness within myself & with this gentleman!

He inspires me to grow, to become a better version of myself. For myself.

For us🥰

Change is inevitable!

At first, it hurts like a bitch!

But once you’ve gone through the emotions, and truly felt everything that you needed to feel, then, change will become a beautiful journey, which you’ll never want to end.

Growing pains are everything🌱🌻💕

During this pandemic and lock down, everyone has been declining in their mental health. Why? Maybe your’e depressed. Maybe your’e dealing with anxiety. Maybe your’e out of work. 

BUT --

That shouldn’t stop your self love and self care. Continue to love and care for yourself! You should keep working out, face masks, baths, reading, walking/hiking, facetiming friends & family as much as you can. 

Work on becoming the best you possible, this way when lock down is all over, you are a new and improved you! Ready to take on the new world!!

Growing pains are the best kind of pains!!! <3 

I just put a new set of nails on, myself, a couple days ago. I applied two coats of Essie’s #772 Butler Please, then finished it off with Sally Hanson’s no chip top coat💅🏻💙

I used Kiss glue on nails, the short length. The set was blank, & opaque, white plastic.The nails came in a plastic container broken up by sizes.

I needed to shape a couple of the nails accordingly, so they would sit, as well as, fit properly onto my real nails. This ensures that the nail you’re glueing on adheres to your natural nail, & importantly stays on longer.

My set lasts me about one to two weeks. The box of nails I purchased includes 5 full sets & the nail glue, of course!

Glue ons are a great alternative if you’re on a strict budget, or you’re going out & completely forgot to go to the nail salon. You don’t have enough time now, but you still want to slay! Have no fear, kiss glue ons are here!

💅🏻Glue on nails are really simple, quick, & come in a variety of styles, colors, finishes and lengths.💅🏻

The majority of glue on nails I’ve purchased, have had numbers underneath, at the tip of each nail for you. This makes it easy to find the second nail you need for your opposing hand, as well as, being easy for the next time you apply a fresh box of glue ons. Because you know the number that goes with your natural nails already. All you would need to do every time you purchase a box, is pull out the numbers that fit your natural nails the best. Super easy, right?

All you need is:

🔸A box of Kiss glue ons, whichever style and length you choose! In this case, I bought the large box set of squared shaped short length nails, which only cost, $6.49 or $8.49, at CVS.

🔸nail file

🔸cotton balls/cue tips & paper towels (unless you ran out of paper towels, then good luck & be safe buying more☺️🤪😅)

👆🏻(if you’re going to be applying nail polish onto your set, like I did for mine, then the cue tips can be used for when you make errors when applying the polish. You know what I’m talking about. Your innocently painting your nail, then — WHAM! You get it on your skin! Have no fear! Cue tips & nail polish remover are here! Cue tips make it easy to see where you’re applying the polish remover, with out removing the polish on your nail.)

Yesterday, I was very much feeling inspired to do a full face of makeup, due to the fact that work has cut my hours back, due to the corona virus pandemic.

Anyways…

I created this look using my James Charles artistry palate and my Jefree Star Alien palate, but I only used one shade with Alien, which was my brow bone and inner corner highlight. :D

This eyeshadow look compliments my eye color so well!! This look turned my eyes blue. My eyes change color depending on a few variables, such as: my makeup look I do that day, what I’m wearing, the season (not kidding, haha sometimes I have more brown/hazel/grey in the winter/fall time, and in the spring/summer I have more blue/green/gold), and depending on the filter I am using on snapchat XD with that said, —

SO! If you have hazel, green, or blue eyes, this is the look to compliment those beauty’s! & even if you don’t have those eye colors, JUST DO IT! XD Makeup is fun to play with and is a form of expression, so express it ladies!

Embrace your inner goddesses! Love yourselves, because you ARE worth it and you are more than good enough. We are unicorns in a world filled with jack asses ;) Get it, donkeys :P Lol I’m a loser, sorry XD

Well, lets get into how I created this look!

First, I did my foundation and concealer. Once, I set my concealer with my Becca translucent setting powder. I take my Urban Decay original eyeshadow primer.

Second, I apply CANVAS to my whole eyelid as a base.

Third, I apply a small amount of PUNCH ME to my crease, as my transition shade. 

Fourth, I pat, blend and repeat that in my crease using the shade, RUSTED, until I get my desired look. 

Fifth, I pat the shade, 518, on my eyelid, taking 518 only halfway onto my lid.

Sixth, I pat blend & repeat using the shade, YOU’RE KIDDING, on my outter-v blending into the crease color, RUSTED and a little bit with the lid color 518. Going back and forth with YOU’RE KIDDING, & 518 until desired look. Make sure to blend accordingly ladies! No one likes harsh lines.

Seventh, take RUSTED apply to your lower lash line halfway, then take 518 and apply that the rest of your lower lash line. Then taking YOU’RE KIDDING, applying it over RUSTED , slightly blending into 518.

Finally, using Alien by Jefree Star, taking the shade pluto, applying that to your brow bone and inner corner as a highlight. Using Morphe liquid eyeliner to creat winged liner then I used Maybelline’s lash sensational mascara to finish off the eye look :D