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I was planning a proposal. To renew our vows I thought maybe If I planned now the day would come And I would know it was time I want you and only you But you still get angry And decide to quit again On us Our love Our friendship Our families hope for a bright and happy future So I guess Instead I'll plan something for me Or maybe a surprise for our kids But to propose to you To redo the things I did wrong and learned from To renew a life long companionship with my best friend To have and to hold Just isn't sane Not anymore I will love myself and the three gifts you've given me And hope I can teach them to choose better than I did To love with a true unending well of forgiveness and understanding The static my heart and head are dealing with is not something I wish to pass on Not to my own worst enemy I do hope you find whatever you're seeking You could have it all with us but as long as you find it somewhere I will be happy for you I will support you I will love you until the day I die More than anyone else ever will Even if I can't have you.

If I had the chance again To love and be loved in return I would give up everything For that glance That touch The soul strand that completes you and holds you unconditionally. Happily. I would sacrifice my life to have one day of love that is returned.

The swirling storm inside my chest Ceases not for anything I wish I knew why you did this to me Or that I could just be where freedom lives Happiness is all I want with you Yet this is all you give I don't want to run this race anymore Even though I said I'd never leave The time has come and I should go Someone out there will come To take your hand and hold your heart And give you what you need.

It really shouldn't be this bloody complicated.

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'Out of Time' has not been updated and I am terribly sorry. I've been in a very odd mood- spent the last few weeks alternating between this wicked flu plague and rearranging for better flow and energy. The clutter was driving me mad. I will have time soon to get another part (maybe two- I have A LOT of rough drafts/ notes/ outlines to work into something sensible. Thanks for being patient I am pretty sure it will be worth the wait! (I say pretty sure because I am not even certain how it will end 😬)

I really would like some sort of inspiration for the next part of Out of Time. I thought 'threatening Baby E' may do the trick.