johnny boy stan

i've buried the worst parts of myself so deeply, a portion of my mind just about collapses when they're brought up again. no matter how hard i try, they always get brought up again.

the 'now' is so completely different than how i'd thought it would be. expectations don't hold up to reality, that's nothing new.

music, film, and poetry have done so much to help the expectations of my personal now to remain romantically untrue, which kinda fuckin sucks... but somehow also doesnt?

im sorry for how inactive i've been. i feel like i've let a lotta people down, which is stupid. (or, i hope it's stupid lmao)

i just wanted to stop by and apologize for how inactive i’ve been lately.

honestly, i dunno what funk i’ve been in, but i’m trying my best to get out of it haha

look a her lil eyelashes !

if i were a snail, i would not have to be dealing with this currently. oh, how i wish to be a snail with a little mushroom house and a tiny patch of moss