no it isn't fine. I'm tired of being left behind and of nobody talking to me unless I send them a message first. I don't know at what point I just became the "oh well" friend but I never wanted anyone to just drop me like garbage and not even try talking to me anymore. I don't get asks. I barely get texts unless I send them first. I just. I don't ever get spoken to anymore unless I start it. I get it's a two way street and I don't try often but even when I do it goes nowhere and certainly nobody ever attempts it with me anymore. I know I'm garbage at hanging out in person but I just don't do physical interaction well at all. but I don't see why that means I have to be ignored everywhere else. and forgotten. I'm depressed but not impossible. at least I never thought so until now.
im tired and angry and sad and I'm going the fuck to bed. I'll delete this and probably my blog in the morning.
