princess invert

i am exactly like everyone else i am the average girl &the general public

i could never feel shame about being gay but i honestly do feel really guilty about it especially as of late. when people show me affection or kindness i find it hard to feel good at all. i feel terrible because i know that if they knew that about me they would never treat me that way & if they ever found out they would think of me as some kind of disgusting perverted scheming liar that was playing them like a fiddle all along. i am so consumed by the paranoid thought of my actions & responses being misconstrued against me all the time 🫥 so i became more of a Nothing person as a precaution. & i know nobody is entitled to that information & there is nothing i can do about people's interpretations of me but i am responsible for protecting what i currently have, because otherwise i have nothing & nobody to fall back on