sarieta

nobody understands andrew adamson's vision for peter and caspian's rivalry in the movie EXCEPT MEEEEE it's not my fault none of you understand they're mirrors of one another, both struggling with the same feelings of being not enough, of being unworthy, of being not what everyone wanted or expected, of being a failure, of everything being their fault, and here's this fucking guy who has everything you ever wanted and what did he do to deserve that! caspian feels like everyone hates him for being a telmarine, the people who did all this to narnia, and that it's all his fault so they'll never trust him nor look to him as a leader. caspian's angry because peter isn't the savior he thought he would be. because peter's human and just as angry and hurt as he is. because peter's like everyone else. peter's angry because he's spent a year stuck in a kid's body in england where no one respects him, no one listens to him, no one views him as anything but some punk idiot kid who could never have anything worthwhile to add, who's just another example of what war does to boys his age, and being back in narnia (where he was king, where he was good at this, where he had purpose and joy and a life) was supposed to fix all that but everyone here is looking at him the same way as before. he's angry because caspian is looking at him and the first words out of his mouth are "i thought you'd be older", and peter thought so too. because he's afraid everyone thinks he abandoned narnia, and in many ways, he feels like he DID, like all of this is his fault, and it's easier to shove that blame off on caspian instead because guilt is a heavy burden and after all it was caspian's people who invaded even if peter wasn't here to stop them. because here's this guy who grew up prince of peter's country and did nothing to earn it, doesn't even seem to understand all he had, doesn't even seem to want it. this guy who you are so desperately afraid understands narnia better than you do now despite the fact that you once knew it by heart. they both feel like they're failing, like no one believes in them, like they have to work twice as hard to prove themselves worthy, and if that means you have to measure up to This Fucking Guy, to square off against him and try to make him see things your way, try to prove yes, i know what i'm doing, i'm trying, i care, then of course they're going to do it. fuck, man, they're like seventeen each (yes, canonically, caspian is meant to be peter's then-age), even if peter used to be older; he's stuck in a younger body and a younger mind living a younger life, and even his own siblings don't seem to want to back him up here because of how much he's been struggling in england. they're angry with one another because they're angry WITH THEMSELVES. recognizing themselves and their mistakes in one another is how they begin to work together and forgive themselves too. bro literally put two boys two kings two failures into the screenplay and everyone is sleeping on the insane beauty and meaning of that.

sure girl, shift just because you want your s/o.

ladies ladies!! there’s enough of me to go around!!