πππ‘π ππ ππππππ : πππ ππ π soundtrack sentence starters change tenses/pronouns as neededΒ !! some lines have been edited for clarity / length / ease of roleplaying tw ; mental health , suicide , child loss , drugs , general nsfw , language
'I am worlds away from who I was'
'I have lived a life of clouds and gray but this is crystal clear.'
'Β I'm trying to enjoy it but I'm missing all the fun.'
'do I just disappear?'
'it's always all about you, isn't it?'
'I'm robotripping. I can't feel my legs!'
'I don't want you doing drugs!'
'you're the one who's hallucinating...'
'It's a miracle... everything is different now.'
'flip the switch, I'm good as gone.'
'I feel the burn, but I don't feel the pain.'
'what a lovely cure! it's a medical miracle!'
'it's there, I'm sure! 'cause memories don't die.'
'I've missed you these days. I thought you might call.'
'I've been crazed.'
'have you been on the scene? 'cause you look like a mess.'
'are you clean?'
'I don't do what you do.'
'you took it too far.'
'oh? I took it too far?'
'(name), don't. don't do this to me!'
'don't say that we're over.'
no, I want who I knew. she's somewhere in you.'
'will you come to this dance? it's some spring formal dance.'
'it's cheese but it's fun and it's free.'
'I don't do dances.'
'do this dance with me?'
'at times like this, the mind tends to repress troubling memories.'
'I couldn't give a flying fuck what's normal. we haven't had a normal day in years.'
'are things becoming clearer with the treatment?'
'is life less cloudy than it was before?'
'do you still feel your head is filled with concrete?'
'keep it light at first, that's best.'
'when the time's right, tell the rest.'
'well, that's how I remember it so that's how it'll be.'
'it's an open book to write here. it's a life we can restore.'
'we can get back what we had and maybe more.'
'we'll remember all the good times and forget the things we should.'
'your life has kind of sucked, I think.'
'gonna get back what I lost there. gonna find out who I was.'
'they've managed to get rid of me, return me to the grave.'
'the memories will wane. the aftershocks remain.'
'you wonder which is worse? the symptom or the cure?'
'I'm gone without a trace.'
'they cut away the cancer but forgot to fill the hole.'
'I'm still there in your soul.'
'your life goes back to normal now.'
'your heart is in your chest again, not hanging from your sleeve.'
'but with nothing to remember, is there nothing left to grieve?'
'so tomorrow's the dance. it's annoying, I know but let's go.'
'let me know you again.'
'say wait and I'll wait.'
'it's already too late.'
'there's no way it's too late.'
'will you listen? just shut up and listen!'
'why do I get denied?'
'you remind me of me and how fucked up I can be.'
'okay, hey... let's start over, clean slate.'
'you just don't give up.'
'so don't give up on me.'
'my mind is still a mess.'
''cause my past is like the weather, it will come and it will go.'
'I don't know the things I don't know.'
'I'm sure something's missing, I wish it would show.'
'doΠ΅s the puzzle come togΠ΅ther piece by piece and row by row?'
'I don't know where the fucking pieces go!'
'I don't know how this started, so I won't know when it's done.'
'how could I ever forget?'
'I was a child, raising a child.'
'that day that I lost you, it's clear as the day we met.'
'why would you want to remember the things that hurt you?'
'how did he die?'
'god, what was his name?'
'it's gonna be fine, it's gonna be fine.'
'why stay?'
'why not simply give in and get on with living?'
''cause everyone knows you tried but somehow somethingβdied onβtheβway.'
'so tell me why you stay.'
'why not simply end it? we'd all comprehend it.'
'whatever may come, we'll come through.'
'that's the promise that I made that day.'
'if you see her, please send her my love.'
'that boy is long lost to me now.'
'and the man has forgotten his reasons but the man still remembers his vow.'
'come closer.'
'(name), there's nothing there.'
'I am old as time and forever young. I am every song that will stay unsung.'
'I'll find you. remind you.'
'(name), come back here!'
'until you name me, you can't tame me.'
'this is one old game that I can play so well.'
'the medicine failed and the doctors lied.'
'I am death defied.'
'(name), let me help you.'
'what happens when the burn has healed, but the skin has not regrown?'
'relapse is very common, (name).'
'it's upsetting that the delusional episodes have returned, but not entirely unexpected.'
'what happens if the cut, the burn, the break was never in my brain, or in my blood, but in my soul?'
'this is clarity that you did not have before.'
'the effects fade, and additional treatments are almost always needed.'
'that wasn't on the form.'
'make up your mind that you'll try again.'
'the one thing that's sure is that there is no cure but that doesn't mean we don't fight.'
'maybe the falling isn't so bad after all.'
'you have a chronic illness. if left untreated it could be catastrophic.'
'I understand but there has to be another way.'
'don't walk out on treatment, don't lose what you've won.'
'you've struggled for years but you've only begun.'
'my first psychiatrist told me that, according to the manual, grief that continues past six months is pathological, and should be medicated.'
'six months... for the life of my child... who makes these decisions?'
'is medicine magic? You know that it's not.'
'we know it's not perfect, but it's what we've got.'
'maybe I've lost it at last.'
'maybe my last lucid moment has passed.'
'I'm dancing with death, I suppose.'
'maybe I'm tired of the game. of coming up short, of the rules, of the shame.'
'maybe you feel that way, too.'
'I see me in you.'
'it's so lovely that you're sharing! no, really, I'm all ears!'
'all those years I prayed that you'd go away for good, half the time afraid you really would.'
'when I thought you might be dying, I cried for all we'd never be.'
'there'll be no more crying, not for me.'
'things will get better, you'll see.'
'maybe we can't be okay. but maybe we're tough and we'll try anyway.'
'we'll live with what's real. let go of what's past.'
'maybe I'll see you at last.'
'we wanted to give you a normal life. I realize I have no clue what that is.'
'I don't need a life that's normal, that's way to far away. but something next to normal would be okay.'
'something next to normal, that's the thing I'd like to try. close enough to normal to get by.'
'we'll get by.'
'you look like a star.'
'I thought we were through, me and you.'
'can you leave it behind?'
'stay, let's see this thing through.'
'am I crazy?'
'I might end up crazy.'
'so you could go crazy or I could go crazy, it's true. sometimes life is insane, but crazy I know I can do.'
'sometimes life is insane, but crazy I know I can do.'
'crazy is perfect, and fucked up is perfect, so I will be perfect for you.'
'so anyway, I'm leaving. I thought you'd like to know.'
'you're faithful come what may. but clearly I can't stay.'
'clearly I can't stay. we both go mad that way.'
'I'll try this on my own.'
'I'll face the dread alone.'
'with you always beside me to catch me when I fall, I'd never get to know the feel of solid ground at all.'
'it makes me feel the fool to know that it's not true.'
'it's quite a trick to tell the dancers from the dance.'
'I'll take a chance on leaving. it's that or stay and die.'
'I loved you once, and though you love me still I know it's time for me to fly.'
'I loved you once, and though I love you still, I know it's time for me to go.
'I am the one who loved you. I am the one who stayed.'
'I am the one who stayed and you walked away.'
'and now you act like you just don't give a damn... like you never knew who I am.'
'I am the one you fear.'
'I am the one who'll heal you.'
'I know you told her that I'm not worth a damn.'
'I know you know who I am.'
'can't you just leave me alone?'
''cause I'm holding on and I won't let go.'
'I am the one who watched while you died.'
'I tried pretending that I don't give a damn.'
'you've always known who I am.'
'first of all, we need some light. you can't sit here in the dark.'
'you can't sit here in the dark and all alone, it's a sorry sight.'
'it's just you and me. we'll live, you'll see.'
'we've waited far too long for all that's wrong to be made right.'
'but some hurts never heal, some ghosts are never gone but we go on.'
'and you find out you don't have to be happy at all to be happy you're alive.'
'well, going home has never been a solution to any of my problems.'
'you're like number three on my list of issues.'
'don't worry, (name). you're my favorite problem.'
'give me pain, if that's what's real.'
'it's the price we pay to feel.'
'the price of love is loss but still, we pay.'












