this is a blog run by a programmed system, for programmed experiences. this includes systems, singlets, etc, as long as it's programmed.
programming can include ramcoa/oea, but we are referring specifically to itbc/tbmc.
FAQ:
Q: "how do i know if im programmed" / "is there a diagnosis checklist"
A: you can't know for 100% certainty, it would be nice if you could; but you just can't. There is no sure-fire way to tell if you're programmed other than looking into your system function & see if there's any intense conditioning— but that looks different for everyone ! And looking into that can be very unsafe !
Q: "does [x] count as programming" / "can i be programmed from [x]"
A: possibly. I dont know all the intricacies of your experiences, so i can't give a blanket answer ! Nor do i feel comfortable saying definitively what you have or haven't experienced.
Q: "im questioning programming, can i send an ask/interact ?"
A: yes.
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< intro >
this blog is run by a (programmed) side system in a programmed system. for our safety, we will not be specifying who we are .
please only refer to us as "♠️" using it/its pronouns & computer/robot based terms .
< byi >
the blog goes on hiatus sometimes due to not being able to come here without triggering things internally . askbox will remain open usually , though .
Please don't treat us as an authority on the subject of programming/itbc/tbmc ! im happy to answer asks, but please remember i am one guy with opinions based on research & personal experiences, and anecdotal experiences
please properly tw triggering asks, don't censor the tw AT ALL. anon sign offs are completely welcome :> just let us know if it changes. please don't go into detail about trauma, programming triggers, system details, ANY OF THAT- even if you're on anon; i will not post it for your safety. also, typing quirks are fine, just provide translations before your ask please. i will tag asks mentioning having OSDDID, using we/us/our, & similar as "programmed system culture"; and asks not implying plurality as "programmed culture".
< dni >
T.R.A.S.H., under 14, transprogrammed/transramcoa, non programmed singlets & systems (you may interact- just dont send asks), if your blog centers around images of sh/ed/nsfw, kink blogs, people who think this is a conspiracy theory/people are faking, anti self dx.
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Programmed culture is looking through your system member list and thinking "whyyyyyy are none of your names normal".
Bonus points if its like the "thank God im the only normal person here" meme because everyone in your system thinks theyre the exception and they are NOT 😭
Programmed culture is vanishing for days to weeks from ur friend circle even though you love your friends because you forget youre allowed to have more than one person close to you now.
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Programmed culture is oh you mean this hyper specific conditioning due to it wasn’t a normal childhood experience and now it heavily affects how I think??
Programmed culture is us, realising that during early syscovery days, our brain randomly changing the "lore" of our system/inner world based on new introjects was not a sign of us faking the system or making it up to sound fun.
It was a sign of programmed system resets being triggered every time we split an alter that wasnt a fragment, to stop us from discovering the programming.
Our system/IW "lore" so to speak would change to match the exomemories (is that the right word?) Of the most recently split full alter, so that they would feel comfortable enough to not question anything. And our host didnt question it at the time. Its stopped now and it still took us up until just now to realise it wasnt just us faking anything or making it up.
This realization has taken us three entire years. 🫠
programmed culture is feeling like a hypocrite for being against fetishizing of pedophilia/etc all while constantly living with loops of that sort of desire in your brain, so much so that youre physically incapable of sleeping or calming down unless you allow your brain to loop it. resisting it feels like death. I hate what they did to me. i'm a monster.
CW - mention of angels & vessels (religious elements mention?)
Programmed culture is wondering why you relate to robots, angels, and other vessels of imposed purpose before you realize you were programmed, and after you realize you were programmed you're like Oh well yeah, no shit :-|
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Programmed culture is having a hypnosis kink, wishing you didn't, and (still) the topic of hypnosis being extremely triggering in everyday interactions.
Sometimes it is so hard to resist researching hypnosis and searching up hypnosis fantasies. I keep coming back to it and it is so embarrassing. Writing this for other people to see feels so exposing.
The research did originally help me get past the internal barrier to find the truth about the mind control abuse. But now that I feel more "comfortable" with it, I keep reading hypnosis fantasies I don't really even intend to live out. Like I said, it's embarrassing, especially when the mind control has caused so much trauma and pain.
programmed culture is so many things about You and Your Life making sense for the first time when you learn about ramcoa. never felt so afraid & sad about learning what my experiences mean
Previous anon here, programmed culture is spending over an hour typing that last as despite it being so short because were still incapable of saying bad stuff about our abuser
Tw cults + trafficking briefly mentioned (idk if this needs a TW, it's just to be safe)
Programmed culture is feeling invalid because our programming didn't come from a cult, or a trafficking ring or any sort of organized group. It came from one sick person who programmed us just to see if they could. Not even a parent. Just some guy who took advantage of a vulnerable child.
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Programmed culture is feeling alone because your specific experiences had to do with racist disgusting excuses of life and knowing that this aspect of your experience is something only black programmed individuals will ever relate to, so in a way you feel alone even with so many people who go thru similar things
Programmed culture is after realizing you probably were programmed randomly remembering that one kid who went through your sketchbook and pointed out a ton of occult/religious symbols in your art you didn’t know existed and thought you just made up bc you never learned about that stuff, and wondering if that has anything to do with something or what
