♡princess♡

it was with my ex boyfriend who was toxic an cheated on me, but at this point the arguments werent often an we were somewhat in an okay spot. but id opened up to him about bein a regressor an explained it all very thoroughly an how i cant always control wether or not i slip. id slipped whilst we were together, an he was jus letting me cuddle with him while i color an i remember him even helping me name the colors. id never felt safer, and then he started givin me kisses. it was just forehead and cheek ones so they made me happy. but then he kissed my lips an it made me feel icky so i turned away from him, but he kept asking an pulled me on his lap. an usually i struggle to remember what i do when im little, but i remember it vividly. id told him that i didnt want to kiss him and he said why and i said "theyre boyfriend kisses", and i was already coming back into my big headspace because i was getting alarm bells in my head. he started getting upset and somewhat angry and we barely spoke or touched the rest of the night. we spoke on text after, and he said that even if im 'pretending to be a kid' that hes still my boyfriend and 'its not like he was asking to make out'. i sort of just took it and gave up, but it still effects me to today. it makes me feel gross. i think its part of why its difficult for me to let myself drop, and i jus wish this would go away. we broke up last year, but it still effects me all the time. i wish it never happened, i wish i never told him about bein a little. :/

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