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*Original Masterlist got too hefty, had to make a new one. You can access the first one below*

First Masterlist <<<<

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~ BANG CHAN ~

Blinded Rage

I’m Not Jealous

~ LEE KNOW ~

Go Be With Her, Then! Pt. 2

~ CHANGBIN ~

~ HYUNJIN ~

~ HAN ~

~ FELIX ~

~ SEUNGMIN ~

Old Thing Back Pt. 2

~ I.N. ~

~ OT8 ~

Texting bf!Skz “I Miss Being Single”

Telling Dad!Skz you’re pregnant again >

[Hyung Line] [Maknae Line]

~ AU’s ~

Who Even Are You [Complete]

//fem!reader x husband!Skz//

Synopsis: You and your husband are pregnant…. again!

Genre: crack, fluff

Warnings: reader is fem, swearing

A/N: Did a callback to my last texting dad Skz fic in Seungmin’s 🙂‍↕️

[Hyung Line]

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//fem!reader x husband!Skz//

Synopsis: You and your husband are pregnant….again!

Genre: crack, fluff

Warnings: reader is fem, swearing

A/N: Dad Skz RAHHHHHHHH 👹👹👹

[Maknae Line]

//gn!reader x bf!Lee Know//

Synopsis: Your boyfriend seems to always put his best friend over you

Genre: angst

Warnings: swearing

A/N: Part One <<<

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//gn!reader x bf!Lee Know//

Synopsis: It seems Lee Know always picks his best friend over you

Genre: angst

Warnings: swearing

A/N: part two

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//gn!reader x bf!skz//

Synopsis: Doing the “I miss being single” trend on your boyfriend

Genre: crack/humor

Warnings: swearing, suggestiveness on Bin’s, unserious threats

A/N: So happy to be back to these texts omfg, PLEASE SEND REQUESTS IF YOU HAVE SOME!!

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Warnings: Sexual content!!!!

~ Masterlist ~

A/N: Thank you guys so much for reading this AU omgoshhhh!!! I’m so thankful for all of you!! 🥺🥺

You walked into the house to see the living room decorated to the nines. Balloons, gift bags, and wrapped presents everywhere, a trail of roses leading to a large table full of food, your favorite movie playing on the TV. On the couch was an array of Skzoo plushies (in age order, of course). You were so happy as soon as you walked through the door. Despite how beautiful the room looked, you couldn’t help but look around at your boyfriends.

They were all smiling shyly, watching you take in what they had spent several hours doing. They knew the end of the CLAW era meant different schedules and less time being able to be spent together, but they loved you. Truth be told, they wanted to be with you for the rest of eternity, so they figured they’d express that.

“Y/n,” Changbin started, “Our story started rough, didn’t it?”

You look away, a little embarrassed. Despite it being over a year since the day you shaded them on the TAA stage, you still felt immense guilt over the event. However, if you hadn’t done that, you might not have gotten the loves of your life.

Changbin walks up to you, gently grabs your chin, and moves your head to look at him.

“I’m so happy you talked shit on that stage”

You laugh loudly, which sets off a chain reaction. Everyone began to laugh hysterically, even Changbin, who still had a hold of your chin. As soon as everyone calmed down, he planted a quick kiss on your lips.

“I wanna hear that laugh for the rest of my life. I wanna feel those lips, see that smile, look into those eyes. I want you until the end of forever”

Tears quickly found your eyes, and you let them fall freely. Changbin chuckled as he began to cry as well.

“You’re so beautiful,” He whispers, “I love you”

He hugs you tightly, rubbing your back lovingly, before walking off and allowing a wet-faced Han to take his place.

“I remember one day we were on the phone and you asked me what my biggest fear was.” He smiled, “I told you bugs, I think. Well, that was a lie”

He grabs your hands and holds them so tight it almost feels like he is afraid to let go, and honestly, he is.

“My biggest fear is losing you,” He says softly, “You’re such a blessing”

Blessing, that word stuck with you.

“You’re everything; I can’t believe we get to be with you. I’m so proud to be your man. I love you, sweetie”

Next is Felix; his hands are trembling slightly, but his face looks determined. He walks over to you and immediately kisses your forehead, something he did often, before planting a soft kiss on your lips.

“My mind is totally consumed by you,” He starts, “My dreams are full of you, my waking thoughts are full of you, those moments right before I sleep: all I see is you. So, I find myself smiling all the time. You make me so happy, so calm; I feel like I can fly when I’m with you.”

He hugs you, “I love you, baby, always and forever”

One more kiss to your forehead, and he moves out of the way to let Seungmin take his place. Your lover gives you a silly smile that makes you laugh out loud.

“I love you because it’s so easy to make you laugh,” He reveals, “And because you laugh louder at me than you do Changbin”

Changbin gives him a warning glare from across the room while the other members chuckle. You can’t help but giggle too.

“I love you because you happily watch baseball with me, even though you couldn't care less about what’s going on.” He takes a deep breath, his teasing tone replaced with an emotional one,

“I love you because you’re the first one to congratulate us when we accomplish something, no matter if it’s finally getting up early or earning a platinum plaque”

His voice cracks, and you immediately begin to rub his back. He chuckles, “I love you because you’re so quick to comfort us when we’re emotional”

He looks you in your eyes with so much intensity that you couldn’t look away even if you wanted to, “I love you because you’re you. You’re sweet, you’re funny, you’re beautiful. You are everything we want and need. You’re the best thing that could have ever happened to us. Baby, I love you”

You think he’s going to kiss you, but instead he bites your shoulder and walks off, making you roll your tear-filled eyes in amusement.

Lee Know is next. He’s the only dry eye in the room, and his teasing smirk lets you know that he’s going to be even more unserious than Seungmin was.

“My speech isn’t that long,” he says. You were about to tell him that it was okay until he dramatically shushed you. You just stare at him with pure amusement.

“I can’t believe you’re here, in this life, with us. It feels unreal. I’m so happy, and I’m ready to spend the rest of my life making you the happiest woman alive. I love you with everything in me”

He cups your face and kisses you all over your cheeks. He whispers another “I love you” before calling I.N. over to you.

“These hyungs are stealing everything I wanted to say,” He sighs playfully, his fox-like eyes staring deeply into yours.

“How about I tell you about our future?”

Your smile instantly gets bigger as the tears appear to fall twice as fast.

“A big house, all of us. Waking up to each other every day. Eating together, movie nights, playing games. You’ll be able to have a huge garden in the backyard; we’ll give you the in-house library you've always wanted. Pets, trips every month. Anything you want, baby. Most importantly, we’re gonna do everything together. I love you, honey”

A kiss and a hug, then suddenly Hyunjin is in front of you.

“You know we just came back from overseas,” He starts, “I was in a cafe and started to think about you…”

He pulls out a folded napkin from his jacket pocket and hands it to you. On it is a little sketch he made with a pen. It looked to be a girl looking out onto the water, a girl who looked just like you.

“AWWWWWW,” you squeal happily.

“That’s not fair! We agreed to do gifts later!” Lee Know's fake complains.

Hyunjin rolled his eyes, then engulfed you in a hug. You’re smiling like a lovesick fool as he begins to speak:

“I never knew a love like this. This love is scary. I feel everything so deeply. When you hurt, I hurt. When you laugh, I laugh. Every night I wish for an eternity with you…with us. To have you in my arms now, I feel complete. You make me whole, y/nnie. I love you; I need you; we’re one.”

Your bottom lip quivers slightly as he finishes his speech.

“Can I steal her, Jinnie?” You hear Chan say. Hyunjin lets go with a kiss to your temple, then the last member is in front of you.

“Life is crazy, isn’t it? Look at where our story started and where we are now. The most exciting part is that we’re only getting started. I can’t imagine how different life would be without you; I don’t even want to think about that. I’d like to believe that in every universe, the nine of us are together. I promise to love you every day. I’m going to show up, be present, and be exactly the man you need daily. I love you so much, y/n y/l/n. We love you.”

Suddenly, eight bodies are on you, hugging you tightly. You feel so loved, so wanted. So…

“Can we go to the bedroom?”

And then instantly, you’re on your back, moaning loudly as Felix licks in between your legs. Changbin has your right breast in his mouth, and Hyunjin has the left. Chan is above your head, slowly pushing his tip into your mouth, and the rest of the members are somewhere nearby, pants to their ankles, touching themselves to you.

You don’t stay on your back for long, as Felix gets needy and has you get on your hands and knees. He quickly pushes inside you, while Hyunjin grabs two fistfuls of your hair, slowly guiding his dick in your mouth. Han is standing off the bed, still jerking off but using his other hand to find your clit. You feel multiple waves of pleasure, your eyes roll to the back of your head every time Felix hits your spot, or Hyunjin touches the back of your throat.

You cum once, and Felix pulls out, letting Changbin take his place. He asks you to come off the bed, and you do it, though your legs feel a bit wobbly. He bends you over, your hands grip the covers. Chan eagerly gets in between your legs. The position is a little awkward, but he finds your clit nonetheless. His mouth explores you while his hands grip either side of your ass. Changbin slides inside you, going at a steady pace to make sure Chan’s rhythm isn’t disturbed.

Seungmin is lying on the bed in front of you. You bend down a little, only able to get his tip without your back hurting, though that’s enough to get him moaning loudly.

You cum three times, then you switch positions one more time. You’re once again on your back, Lee Know is off to the side, sucking at your clit while I.N stands off the bed, fucking you mercilessly. Seungmin is at your head, kissing you passionately, while Han and Chan suck at your breasts. Hyunjin and Changbin are on their knees at your sides, jerking off over you. Felix decided to kiss your cheeks, whispering to you.

“You look so pretty”

“You’re doing so well”

“You can cum, baby; it’s okay”

You cum four more times.

Your body aches so good, you love the feeling of shaking legs and quivering lips.

“I love you guys,” you say, breathless.

“We love you too, y/n”

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~ Masterlist ~

Your hospital stay lasted only three days. Your members were the first to arrive and the last to leave every day, so your room often had 12 people in it (which wasn’t really allowed but no one said anything). Stray Kids usually arrived a few seconds behind them and only left before your members so that hospital staff wouldn’t get suspicious and leak news to the press.

Moni came for a few hours every day, always there to hold your hand and just watch you. She was blaming herself for the attack, and she continuously felt bad even after you two talked about it fully.

She was at the hospital early with flowers when you were discharged, and hid your face as best she could when you were met with paparazzi outside the hospital doors. Some fans were outside as well, screaming their wishes for a speedy recovery. That warmed your heart.

Moni drove to the hotel and walked you to your room, where your members were waiting with balloons, cards, and gifts. Jia was the first to hug you, tears running down her cheeks as she whispered a prayer into your ear. The rest of the members followed after, all carefully wrapping their arms around you. It felt so nice to be around your girls in a setting that wasn’t the hospital.

You all sat and talked about everything. Turns out, someone told TMZ you had been attacked by a staff member, likely another person on staff. Fans on Twitter were coming down hard on your company and JYPE for not doing proper research on individuals before hiring them; you do wonder how Allison was able to get hired in the first place.

Others wondered why you were attacked specifically and not Skz or your other members, and why it had been a staff member to do it. Several theories were running rampant on every social media site, the most notable being that you had to antagonize her somehow, which made you quickly delete all your social media.

Your members wouldn’t let you out of their sight until it was half past midnight. They all begrudgingly went to bed, but not before asking you a million times if you were okay.

Alone in your hotel room, you instantly pulled out your phone and texted your lovers. You missed them more than anything, and not seeing them was eating at you.

No more than 10 minutes after you sent a “come to my room” text, there came a hushed knock on your door. You quickly opened it, letting your boyfriends in.

Han got to you first, carefully hugging you as he not-so-subtly tried to hold in his tears. Felix was on you next, touching you so gently that you would have thought you were made of glass. Hyunjin and Changbin both opted to kiss your cheek; Chan and Minho preferred your lips. I.N. and Seungmin were scared they’d hurt you, so they kissed your knuckles.

“I’m okay, guys,” you giggle as you all take a seat on your pretty large bed, “You aren’t gonna break me”

“We just don’t want to hurt you,” Felix sighs, “How are you feeling?”

“Great, all things considered. I should be back to work in a couple of months”

“Let’s not talk about going back to work,” I.N. said with a weak smile

Chan nods, “Yeah, fuck all this work stuff for right now. Let’s just talk about y/n. How are you feeling, really?”

You look down at your fingers, fiddling with them. You felt good. Of course, you were aching, your head still hurt a bit, but you were good.

“I’m feeling pretty good,” you say. Your lovers smile, immediately sensing you were telling the truth, “I’m just glad it wasn’t worse than what it was”

A tired-looking Chan sighs, “We had to... talk to the police today”

“One of the officers, I guess their kids are fans,” Felix adds, “Asked us for autographs”

“He was really wondering why we put ourselves in danger for you…wouldn’t let it go no matter what we said”

You groan, “By tomorrow, everyone is gonna know you guys saved me…. The conspiracy theorists are gonna have a ball”

“I’m sorry, baby,” Changbin mumbles, taking your hand in his. You give him a weak but sincere smile

“Oh, please, don’t apologize. Comes with the territory, right? It was bound to come out. At least everyone will know you’re heroes”

It’s the guy's turn to groan, playfully rolling their eyes and calling you corny. You laugh hard, hard enough to make Minho beg you not to hurt your side.

“JYP wants us to do a press conference when the whole story comes out. Just gotta tell the truth, we saw someone we care about getting hurt, and we jumped into action before security could get to you. Should be simple.” Hyunjin shrugs

“This has to be the craziest comeback we’ve ever had.” You chuckle, “I’m so ready to get on stage, I can’t lie”

“Here she is talking about going back to work,” Seungmin teases, “You know, sweetie, you’ll probably have to perform from a chair for the majority of this comeback”

You know he’s right, and it disappoints you, but knowing you’ll be on stage with your girls and your lovers is good enough for you. You could have been in a worse position, so even being able to sit on stage makes you happy.

“I’m just glad to be with you guys.” You smile, “So it’s okay, I’m excited no matter what”

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~ Masterlist ~

Warnings: physical attack, mentions of knife being used as a weapon

A/N: yall this chapter a lil long 🧍🏾‍♀️

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It was about 7 AM. You and your members stood around the warm Australian studio, trying to catch your breath. Stray Kids were near, all trying to slow their heart rates.

You all had been at rehearsal since 5 AM. It was either a super early rehearsal or a super late one right after a lengthy interview, you all chose the morning, naturally.

“Okay guys, let’s break” the choreographer calls, forcing every dancer in the room to sigh in relief. The backup dancers scattered out of the room to go take advantage of the free water and snacks the studio owner was providing. Your members all decided to follow suit

“Y/n you coming?”

“No, I brought my own stuff”

Jia looks to Skz (who were not so subtly giving you longing looks) and then at the managers, smirking a little before walking over to them.

You don’t know what she said, but it was enough to get all three managers out of the room. She rushed over to you, telling you that she had probably distracted the managers for 10 minutes and to take advantage of it. With a wink and a promise to watch the door in case anyone tried to come in, your members left.

You were alone with your eight loves. It had been a while since you got this luxury. Nowadays there is always staff lurking. If you did have some free time you usually were able to get two, maybe three members at a time. When you were able to sneak over to their house for sleepovers, you all went straight to sleep without really being able to spend time together. So these ten minutes were important.

Immediately you rush to the group and kiss the first member you come in contact with: Han. His hands find your ass pretty quickly, and a shudder runs down your spine as he mercilessly gropes you.

You go down the line, next was I.N, then Lee Know, Hyunjin, Felix, Chan, Seungmin, and ending with Changbin. Each kiss needed to be a strict thirty seconds to avoid using up all your time (though Changbin definitely snuck a few more seconds in).

“You guys okay?” You question after the brief makeout session, sitting and urging the boys to do so.

“We’re okay” Lee Know smiles, “How about you, my love?”

“I’m so tired, but so happy to be with you all”

The group teases you, which makes you laugh, but you could tell they liked the comment by the flush of pink on their cheeks.

“Y/n” Seungmin says almost hesitantly. He fumbles with his finger, looking at you with a mix of sadness and calm determination.

“I know this is a little bit of an inappropriate time but… we’re a little past the 24 hour mark”

You sigh, grinning tiredly, “I know, honey. I have 24 hours to tell Moni. I promise I’m going to”

“I believe you!” He quickly said, “There’s no doubt in my mind that you’re getting everything together”

The truth was, you gathered all your evidence as soon as you all landed in Australia. It took you about five hours. You stayed locked in your hotel room with calming music on to help you get through it, but you got everything and put it into a digital folder that you copied to several other places.

“I’m just saying…” Seungmin continues, “I wanted to check in. Addison has been ramping things up. I mean, do we remember dinner yesterday?”

Ah yes, dinner. Right after you gathered everything, Skz invited you and your members to dinner. It was strictly supposed to be just the two idol groups, but Addison caught you all leaving and asked Moni if it was okay if staff joined. The managers then felt like excluding staff could cause issues so everyone was mandated to attend the dinner, which was going to be held in the hotel because no restaurant was going to accommodate 50+ people at 8 pm.

The initial intimate, informal, and casual dinner turned loud and very corporate. You couldn’t talk how you wanted with your friends and lovers because there were too many people around that would either reprimand you or sell you out to the press for a check.

Addison made it a point to sit really close to Chan, who was sitting right next to you. She was still playing the “isolate everyone from y/n” game and losing terribly. She first tried to bring up a time early in your career when you slipped off stage and broke your ankle, saying she “laughed so hard her stomach hurt for days.”

You didn’t find it funny, especially since the whole thing was captured on camera and was the number one thing talked about the day after it occurred. When it happened, Addison laughed about it then, playing the video over and over again and screaming while on FaceTime with you.

She claimed that as a “fan”, it was refreshing to see an idol perceived as “super innocent and perfect” be taken down a notch. That didn’t roll over too well with Jia, who politely told her about herself.

She then proceeded to talk about the time you shaded Skz at the award show. It was an obvious attempt at trying to get your boyfriends to join in on her shit-talking, but they all shrugged it off and said they believed you meant nothing by it.

In all honesty, you all see that moment as a blessing in disguise. That directly contributed to the joint album which forced you to spend time with Stray Kids, and now you’re in a loving relationship with all eight (still crazy to say).

When Addison saw no one was taking her bait, and how you were blatantly refusing to engage in her mess, she excused herself and left the dinner early. Once she was gone, you were able to relax a bit more and admittedly had a good time at the dinner.

You groan lowly as you peel away from your thoughts and tune back into the group. It’s true, Addison has been making little digs that seem like she’s gearing up for something bigger. An extra 24 hours may not be ideal.

Scarily, the door cracks open, and Addison peeks in with a big smile.

“Hey guys! I was told to grab Stray Kids because we need to film a couple of TikToks”

You not so subtly roll your eyes and stand up with obvious irritation. The boys get up as well, their frustration evident.

“We’ll be right back” Lee Know says, rubbing your shoulder. Everyone gives you a loving look before sluggishly walking out of the room.

The door is closed, and you stand in the middle of the room all by your lonesome. Pulling out your phone, you see Jia texted you twice to tell you Addison was skipping towards the studio door. You chuckle in disbelief and put your phone back up.

The original 10 minutes of distracted managers turned into 15, so you knew at least your members were heading back soon. You begin to zone out, staring at the floor as the door opens again. You look up fully expecting to see your members, but you see Addison.

She has a creepy, stoic look on her face. She looks…not human as she locks the door and walks towards you slowly.

You couldn’t contain your fear as you backed up to the mirror right behind of you. Addison seems to find this hilarious because she laughs hysterically.

“You’re seriously afraid of me, y/n?”

You say nothing, which pisses her off. You didn’t notice the stainless steel water bottle she was holding until she chucked it at your head. You duck, and the bottle shatters the mirror on impact. Glass rains down on you, you squeeze your eyes shut.

You know people heard the commotion, and they were probably rushing towards the studio right now, but the locked door definitely gave Addison the time to hurt you badly.

“You’re such a fucking bitch y/n” you hear Addison grumble. You say nothing again. Her nice, calm steps speed up and you feel a hard kick to your side.

“OPEN YOUR EYES YOU DUMB BITCH”

You do as told, and see a rage-filled Addison standing over you. She’s breathing hard, almost animalistic.

“You think you can just give up on me? I was the only person there for you your whole life, stupid! You think your sister cares about you? Your grandfather? They fucking hate you because you’re nothing but a talentless loser who doesn’t deserve anything”

Another kick to your side. You whimper lowly, this fuels her fire as she grabs some of your hair and pulls you to the middle of the room. You’re screaming in pain as the studio door is being pounded on. You can hear Changbin in particular yelling your name.

Addison finally releases your hair and you decide to look at her, taking in the pure anger on her face. She was about to yell at you again, but you decided to grab one of her legs and pull.

She falls on her back, effectively knocking the air out of her chest. You take the opportunity to get up and rush to the door, holding your likely bruised side as you do so.

You fiddle with the lock for a couple of seconds, only now letting the tears you’ve been holding in fall. Just as you open the door, Addison begins to stand up.

Moni is the first of the bunch to get in, and she’s quick to grab you and give you a once-over

“Oh my God, what happened?” She asks as soon as she takes note of the visible bruises on you.

Addison screams angrily, stomping her foot like a toddler, “I FUCKING HATE YOU” she points at you.

Everyone pauses, looking at her. She looked insane, borderline foaming at the mouth.

“FUCK YOU Y/N! YOU DON'T FUCKING DESERVE THIS LIFE! I DESERVE IT!”

You feel a hand grab yours, without looking, you know it’s Han. There’s a hand on your shoulder, Chan.

“I WAS BETTER THAN YOU WHEN WE WERE KIDS AND I'M BETTER THAN YOU NOW! I SHOULD BE A FUCKING POPSTAR, NOT YOU”

“Addison” Moni warns, “You need to calm down-”

“NO!” She fishes a small pocket knife from her pocket, “YOU THINK YOU’RE INVINCIBLE BITCH? HUH? YOU THINK YOU’RE ABOVE ME? I PAID THAT MOTHERFUCKER TO BREAK IN YOUR HOUSE! I PAID ANOTHER LOSER TO BREAK INTO JYP! I PAID THE BITCH IN THE PARK!”

A few gasps could be heard around the room, your breathing gets quicker but you aren’t surprised

“THOSE FUCKERS WERE TOO STUPID TO GET THE JOB DONE SO I’LL DO IT MYSELF”

And with that, she charges at you. You only stare, time going in slow motion. You take in every detail on Addison’s face: the veins popping out of her forehead, the beady, fully black eyes, her wide-open mouth with a little drool spilling from the sides, the beads of sweat coming down the sides of her face.

She looks crazy. She looks like she wants to kill you, and that’s exactly what she tends to do.

You watch as she gets closer, you’re exposed enough that she could do serious damage. You’re prepared for impact, until you see a group of people swarm her at once.

A group of people who look just like your lovers. All eight run to tackle her to the ground, and suddenly you’re no longer in slow motion.

Han and Seungmin are the ones who manage to get her on the floor. Chan and Changbin have her arms, Hyunjin snatches the knife, and Lee Know and I.N hold her legs down.

Security is in the room not too long after, holding her while police are being called. Your members rush you out of the room, and you look back to see Stray Kids still there, standing over a screaming Addison, watching as you’re pulled away.

You’re immediately taken to the hospital. You had a rib contusion. The glass that fell on you left a few odd cuts on your arms and hands, but nothing major. Your head hurt from her dragging you by the hair, but no hair was lost, and some pain meds helped tremendously.

The public knew you had been attacked by noon, though specific details were not released. Promos were put on hold and YouTube content you filmed alongside the boys was now pushed up to keep fans happy.

You could do nothing but lie in an Australian hospital bed: stunned. Your members were fussing over you since the moment you arrived at the hospital, and only recently went back to the hotel at midnight.

Moni had chastised you about not saying anything about Addison, something you didn’t want to hear. She left after you begged her to leave and scold you later.

You expected thousands of messages from your lovers by now, but there were none. You felt bad, knowing that they had to speak with the police after what happened. You wanted to cry, but had no tears left.

By 1 AM, you were staring at the ceiling, listening to the sound of your own breathing.

Then, your door opens. You prepare to sit up, thinking it was your nurse.

“Baby don’t hurt yourself” You hear Hyunjin whisper

You gasped so hard that your side instantly started to hurt. The boys all wince when you do.

“Baby be careful” Changbin calls. They all pile into the room, and Chan closes the door quietly.

You find the hand remote near your bed and press the button to help you sit up. It takes a while, which was pretty funny, but once you’re sitting up you immediately start panicking.

“What are you guys doing here? Someone could see!”

“The hospital is pretty empty” Han shrugs, “Plus your room is super out of the way, no one saw”

“Someone saw, Han!” You stress, “Someone always sees!”

“Look, baby, we just wanted to see you” Lee Know sighs, “Sue us! We needed to be by your side”

You groan, but signal for your lovers to get closer

Once they’re close enough, you turn on a lamp by your bed.

“Guys” you start, “I’m….” You pause, taking in all the faces around you and realizing they're not only worried, but so full of love. They love you, why else would they (stupidly) sneak into a hospital to see you?

“…..I’m so happy you’re here” you finish, voice cracking a little. The guys all smile as relief washes over them.

“We’re happy you’re okay”

“Only a bruised rib, and a few cuts. Nothing too bad. Especially since you all saved my life” Your tone is teasing, but you’re serious. Addison wanted to stab you, but your boyfriends didn’t let that happen.

“We told you we were going to protect you, didn’t we?” Chan asks. You nod, feeling a warm tear leave your eye

“You guys could have gotten hurt”

“I’d happily get hurt if it means you’re okay” I.N. says, a shy smile on his face.

At that moment you wonder how you got so lucky. How could you have gotten not one, but eight people willing to put themselves in harm's way for you?

“I love you all” You confessed, though you’ve said it before. This time felt different. This I Love You almost hurts to say. It sat heavy in your throat but rolled off the tongue so easily. This I Love You meant you needed them forever.

It meant you wanted the whole world to know how much you loved them. It meant you would also put yourself in harm's way for any or all of them if it meant they wouldn’t be hurt.

No sooner than those words left your mouth did they be said back to you. Each member said I Love You in a way that made you forget that you were sitting in a hospital bed. It made you feel so good, like you were floating on a cloud.

The boys could only stay for 15 minutes. They weren’t supposed to be in the hospital in the first place, both because it was past visiting hours and because this would be the most talked-about thing if the press were to get hold of it.

All of them got kisses from you before they left, and they promised to see you when you woke up.

You knew they would make good on their promise, so you slept peacefully in the lonely hospital bed.

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Thank you friend!!! I’m alright, rn I’m trying to center my own mental health, hope, & strength while also making sure to be involved in the fight to overturn/eradicate these blatant racist acts.

If anyone else is struggling in this truly difficult time please check out this link: https://www.cdc.gov/mental-health/caring/index.html

And if anyone would like to know about what’s going on, here’s a link: https://naacp.org/articles/naacp-emergency-town-hall-unpacks-supreme-court-voting-rights-decision

~ Masterlist ~

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Promotion runs are tiring, but so fun when you have people like your members and Stray Kids around you. You guys met up at the airport and sleepily played Two Truths and a Lie while you waited for your respective flights.

“My turn” You smile, “I have six toes, I used to eat bars of soap as a child, and I watch Mickey Mouse every morning to get me ready for the day”

“The fact that two of these are true is so crazy to me” Goo remarks, causing the whole group to laugh

Felix smirks, “This one is easy”

“You know the answer?” You ask, a little surprised. He stares at you with a “duh” expression before confidently answering:

“She doesn’t have six toes”

You giggle and nod, high-fiving him

“Honestly, all you guys should have gotten this” You say, “I’m sure everyone here has seen my feet”

“I never stared at your toes” Kye defended, “I’m not a feet person”

“I knew the answer too” Minho claims

“Same” Seungmin chimes up, “Process of elimination. I know for a fact you have five toes on each foot, therefore the others had to be true”

“Plus” Felix smirks, lowering his voice, “It’s kinda hard not to know what your feet look like when I always have your legs in the air”

Jaws drop throughout the few people who heard that, and you feel your face burn up. However, it wasn’t embarrassment that you felt. It was arousal, and you were very close to suggesting you two take a joint trip to a bathroom until a group of people walked up to you all.

The new staff members bow, and you guys have a quick nod in acknowledgement.

“Goodmorning” One guy, who you learned was named Jay, greeted. You, your members, and Stray Kids smiled and greeted everyone.

You could feel her staring at you, but you wouldn’t dare look at her. You weren’t saying a word to her if you could help it. All you wanted to do was get your evidence together and get her out of your life for good.

The conversation between the groups and staff flowed easily. You all laughed and joked around, creating a pretty happy atmosphere. However, whenever Addison spoke the vibe of the group soured a bit.

Chan told his members about the situation as soon as they were awake. Apparently, Changbin ranted for three minutes straight in the group chat about how he had a bad feeling about her. When your lovers arrived at the airport, they stood around livid until your group arrived.

They showered you with appropriate affection (because let’s face it, there wasn’t a mob of fans here but someone was always watching) and conspired with your group members about the next actions to take. You had to remind them that you had made your decision, and they had to respect it, at least until your 48 hours were up.

So now, as Addison tries her best to talk to you despite your obvious lack of interest, they’re all getting more annoyed by the second.

“Y/n, how’d you sleep?” Addison asked you while there was a break in conversation, “I imagine not so good after that break in that happened a little while ago-”

“Let’s be appropriate” Hyunjin quickly said, “Don’t speak to her about anything like that, please be respectful”

The air in the room was awkward, at least for the staff. Personally, you were slightly turned on by Hyunjin’s defending of you but that’s neither here nor there.

Addison was stunned into silence. When she regained her audacity, she bowed and apologized. Not to you, by the way,

“My apologies Hyunjin. It’s just, when I heard about the incident on the news a while back I was so heartbroken and I swore if I ever met Y/n-”

“What did he just say?” I.N. interjected, “Do I need to get our managers over here? Who do you think you are to comment on that situation? You don’t know her, remember?”

Han subtly rubbed I.N’s arm to calm him down. As much as his outburst was justified, the other staff didn’t know why it was justified. The last thing we needed was talks of either group being rude to staff.

You put on a sweet smile, “Thank you Hyunjin and I.N.”

You turned to look at the general group, “Let’s keep our conversations strictly to promotions, shall we? Are we all excited?”

The staff members awkwardly say yes. You ask them again, a little more energy in your voice, which seems to get them riled up. Perfect. Everyone begins to talk about what they’re most looking forward to, everyone except Huunjin and I.N. You pull out your phone and begin to text them:

Addison huffed and puffed all the way to….Felix. He stood very close to Hyunjin and I.N., glancing back at them as Addison stood there.

Tears prickled at her eyes, and she crossed her arms as if she was a literal toddler.

“Felix, did I do something wrong?”

You looked around and seen the rest of the staff had migrated over to a coffee machine, probably as you were texting.

Before he could respond, she began her rant about how she’s a “good person” who “cares about people.”

Your blonde lover is stunned to silence, as you all are. Though, you can’t help but roll your eyes as this was a usual tactic for Addison. People call her out? She starts to cry and play victim. The thing is, no one was taking her seriously.

You guessed she went to Felix because he was notorious for being sweet and understanding. What Addison didn’t know was that despite how nice he was, he didn’t play about you, and that was going to be evident very soon.

Felix allowed Addison to continue talking as your members blew up the group chat and half the Stray Kids members started to text in theirs as well.

“… I just want everyone to get along because we’re going to be spending so much time together” You hear Addison say. You, who took a few moments to text your members, looked up just in time to see Addison rest her hand on Felix’s chest.

Listen, Addison is a fucked up individual, but even she should know that touching an idol, especially if your position in the company has nothing to do with makeup, hair, or clothes, is a no-no.

Cue her batting her eyelashes and slightly biting her lip.

Everyone was floored, to say the least. Addison always liked to isolate people from you. If she couldn’t get ahead of the narrative and talk shit about you, she’d flirt with whoever to get them to take her side.

Felix skillfully stepped back to get her hand to drop. He then looked around, seemingly trying to see where the managers (who were uncharacteristically leaving everyone alone) were, or see if any fans caught what just happened.

When he saw neither, he looked back to Addison and matched your sickenly sweet smile from earlier, “Ms. Addison, firstly, don’t touch me again”

Addsion’s jaw dropped and before she could bring the tears back, he kept going, “Your inappropriate behavior is getting to be too much. You’re likely new to the entertainment industry, that’s okay, I’ll give you some advice; It’s not okay to bring up personal and traumatic events to someone you don’t know-”

Addsion’s eye twitched at the “don’t know” part. You could tell it’s eating her alive.

“-furthermore, it’s not appropriate to come to me and try to plead your case. I’m an idol, I’m not a manager, I’m not any of the higher ups. Please refer to them from now on if you have an issue”

And as if on cue, the managers jogged over and said it was time to start heading to your respective gates.

Stray kids were on one plane, your group was on another, and the staff were pretty split between the two. Addison happened to be on the Skz plane, a fact she probably hated right about now.

The flight to Australia was going to be a long one, and you felt Addison was going to take every second to come up with a plan to get back at you.

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~ Masterlist ~

A/N: The streets saying it’s been over a year since I started this au 😬 Thank yall so much for rocking with me for this long omfg, I can confirm we have less than 5 chapters left 😛 Sending you all virtual kissies 💋

~ Masterlist ~

A/N: Every time I tell myself I’m going to start uploading more consistently, it seems I have more rights stripped away from me. [context: I’m a Black American 😃]

Anyways, enjoy!! 🥲

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You and your members stand in a straight line, facing the studio door. Stray kids stand near you, also in a straight line, though every once in a while, one of them gets out of line to come and bother your members.

“Get out of my face, Minho” Jia playfully snaps, making the man feign offence.

“I just want to talk to you” 

“Talk to me later, jackass” 

He laughs, walking over to Kye who gives him a look that makes him not even try to bother her. He gets to you, who’s at the end of the line, and bites his lip.

“Good morning, Ms. Y/N”

“Morning”

“Don’t I get more than that?”

“Morning, Jackass” 

His members laugh loudly, causing Minho’s cheeks to go red

“You’ll pay for that”

You smirk, “Really?”

“Really” 

The sexual tension must have gotten a little too high as Kye elbowed you and gave a look to Minho. He winked before practically skipping back to his members.

Your respective managers take that Tim to tune back into you all, walking in the middle of both groups.

Moni smiles tiredly, “Okay guys, we have a few new faces for our promo staff, they’re finishing up training and will be here in a few-” 

The door to the studio opens and in come ten people. You put on your best idol smile as you bow.

The employees first greet your managers before situating themselves between the two groups. They all have on baseball caps and masks, but the group looks to be very diverse, which makes you happy. 

“Alright staff, please introduce yourself to our idols” 

You glance over all the people once more. Your eyes land on a specific girl. Again, baseball cap and mask, but you know those eyes.

Before you know it, everyone is clapping and saying “nice to meet you!” You do as well, feeling bad for missing the first girl’s intro.

This continues down the line, each person coming up and doing an intro, though you can’t help but stare at that one specific girl. After a while, she shamelessly stares back at you. 

It hits you like a ton of bricks. How did you not notice as soon as she walked in?

That’s Addison.

As if on cue, she steps forward and bows. She lowers her mask and puts on a dazzling smile. 

“Hello, my name is Addison. I’ll be working as one of your videographers! I’m so excited to work with you guys, thank you!”

The clapping in your ears is muffled. You couldn’t even force yourself to start applauding, you just stared. She smirks at you before pulling her mask up and getting back in line.

After the introductions, your managers encourage you all to get more acquainted. Stray Kids rush to the staff to introduce themselves, they love meeting new people. You would smile at them if you could move.

“Y/nnie, you okay?”

You look at your members, all watching you with confused looks. You have two options: tell them everything is fine, or tell them the truth.

Y/n a few months ago would tell them you were just feeling a little tired. Y/n of today, the one who’s been consistently harassed and threatened and is SICK of it, won’t let this slide.

“No um…girls can we talk in that corner over there? The boys seem to have the staff occupied anyway.” 

They all nod and you guys head to the corner, immediately you start to spill your guys, whispering only loud enough that they could hear.

“Listen carefully….that girl over there with the short red hair is my childhood best friend who used to manipulate and bully me since we were kids. When I became an idol she started to ask me for money and whenever I pushed back, she verbally abused me. One day I got sick of it and blocked her and ever since then, I’ve been stalked, harassed, and you remember the break-ins and incident at the park? I’m almost sure she had something to do with that. She’s also been texting me trying to get me back into her life. Basically, I’m saying she’s dangerous and I’m almost sure she’s gonna do something to me” 

The girls are silent for a bit before Jia speaks up, “Y/nnie why didn’t you tell us this sooner?”

“I didn’t want her to get in trouble” 

“Sweetie she tried to hurt you on several occasions” 

“Yes, I know. I should have said something but I don’t know, sometimes I thought I was overreacting and I never truly had proof that she-”

“Girls? What are you doing over there?” Moni calls out. You and your members seem to sigh lowly in unison before putting back on your idol smiles and walking over to the group 

“Sorry, we were arguing over whose turn it is to clean the toilets back at our dorms” 

The group laughs, taking your explanation with no problems. Addison, who is deep in a conversation with Felix, practically beams when she sees your group has joined everyone. She rudely walks away from Felix and starts making her way towards you. 

You internally panic, and when old Y/n would have frozen in fear, the new you grabs ahold of the nearest person (who happens to be Bang Chan) and starts to tease him, seamlessly joining his conversation with another one of the staff.

Addison is irritated, but not deterred. She simply comes over to you and starts talking. 

“Y/n!! It’s been so long! I’ve missed you!”

Her semi-loud talk has garnered the attention of most of the people in the studio, though they try not to listen.

You exhale, looking at Chan who’s a little puzzled. You give him a look that says you’ll explain later. 

The last thing you wanted was to speak to Addison, but you put on a brave face and looked at her. She’s smug to say the least. She opens her arms in preparation for a hug, but you only step back and bow. 

“I’m sorry, I don’t think we know each other. Thank you in advance for your hard work, though” 

You give a tight-lipped grin and nod to Chan and the staff before moving on to introduce yourself to others. 

You could practically feel Addison’s rage building, you knew that you’d have to tell everyone the truth soon. 

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~ Masterlist ~

~ Masterlist ~

A/N: Fluffy time with Lee Know before shit pops off soon😛

~ Masterlist ~

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You sit next to Jia, posture perfect and legs crossed. The room you were in was large, with white walls and white floors. You and your members sat on the left side of the room; the interviewer was in the middle, and Skz sat on the right.

The boys looked so good, you couldn’t help but send flirtatious looks their way when no one was looking. Well, someone was always looking, and it was usually one of your members. You hadn’t told them about the recent developments in your relationship with the boys: the sex, the making the relationship official, or the date. As far as they know, you and Changbin are still sneaking off together to kiss a little, having not told the members anything yet. Imagine their confusion when they see you biting your lip at Hyunjin.

“Y/nnie, calm your flirting” Jia whispers from the side of you, “We don’t want anyone to see”

“Yeah. Plus, you haven’t even told the rest of them about… you know. Don’t flirt with them until then” Lilly giggles, making you laugh awkwardly.

Moni walked up to you all, dressed in all black with pops of pink and red, like how you and Skz were.

“Okay girls, we’re starting in 2 minutes. Remember to be yourselves, make sure to interact with the Stray Kids members, and smile a lot!”

You all nod and mumble a “yes ma’am”

Two minutes later, a short middle-aged man sat in the middle of you all, introducing himself and his show to the camera. You immediately turn your idol persona on, smiling big and paying close attention to the interviewer.

“Our guests today need no introduction! To my right, it’s the chart-topping global sensation: Stray Kids!”

Everyone cheered, clapping loudly. You, admittedly, clapped a little louder than anyone else.

“Step out! Hello, we are Stray Kids!”

More cheering, followed by exaggerated whooping from the host

“To my right, we have the equally loved and talented K-pop supergroup: GREENLITE!”

You and your members bowed from your seats, nodding and clapping politely as the staff and Stray Kids members cheered for you.

“Be bold! Take a look, we’re Greenlite!”

More cheers, though the host gave you maybe two claps before clearing his throat.

“Today we’re here to talk about the upcoming joint album CLAW. I have to say, we don’t have too many K-pop groups doing these sorts of collabs. Bang Chan, can you tell me how this came to be?”

“Sure! It’s not really an exciting story: my members and I had seen and interacted with the talented ladies of Greenlite a couple of times at award shows and such. One day our managers got to talking, and here we are! TAA night was when everything was finalized”

“Just like that?”

“Just like that!” Chan smiles

The interview looks over to your group now, eyes specifically staring at you.

“Y/n, Chan mentioned TAA, your group actually won the grand prize that night!”

“Yes! We’re so happy to have received such a big award. It’s all thanks to our fans” You say

“And what are your fans called again?”

“They’re our daisies!”

“Yes of course. Can I ask, how did both daisies and stays feel after that little jab you threw at Stray Kids?”

Your heart dropped to your ass. A quick look at Moni told you she probably didn’t approve of this question. Though, you’re a trained idol. You answer quickly, not losing your composure for one second.

“Goodness, it wasn’t really a jab” You fake laugh, “The story is, we made a bet with the guys to see who would win. If they won, they got to troll us on stage, and vice versa for us. It was all in good fun, plus our collab announcement was released a few days after so I think both Stays and Daisies knew it was just us being silly”

Jia subtly pats your knee, silently commending you for answering with such grace. Being an idol, you have to be fast to lie, to change the subject, to smooth things over.

The host nodded, “How long has this collaboration been in the works?”

“A couple of weeks! As Chan said, we had been seeing each other and talking for a little bit. Our managers saw the potential for something great and got to work. The night of the TAAs was when we really got the go-ahead from our companies”

“That’s amazing! And I’m sure everyone is excited?”

A chorus of yesses filled the room

“Fantastic. Now, you guys have done several content videos together. Y/n, you were even seen out with two members of Stray Kids, Changbin and Hyunjin, in your personal time, isn’t that a little scandalous?”

You can only get out an “um” before he moves on

“It’s safe to assume the two groups get along. Can we know a bit about this friendship?”

“It’s fun” Felix answers, “We have a good time together. Whether it’s cracking jokes, teasing each other, shooting YouTube videos, or just sitting in spaces like these, I think we lift one another and make sure to show support”

You and your girls nod.

Jia adds, “Yeah I’m glad we have the chance to do this collaboration. We get along really well, us and the guys and I are pretty similar in regards to our work ethic and stuff like that. We fit well together, and our fans seem super excited too so everything definitely worked out the way it was supposed to”

The host gives a tight smile, “Greenlite, you’re often regarded as the ‘female Stray Kids’. Do you think that’s a true statement?”

“I don’t know” Kye answers quickly, “Really, we’re just us. We’re Greenlite. But we’re super flattered by the comparisons, I mean we all see how talented Stray Kids are”

The boys shy away from the compliment, making you giggle in adoration.

The host's eyes snap to you, narrowing a bit, “Y/n, Han, you two are often regarded as an ACE. How do you feel about that title?”

“It’s great” Han says, “It’s such a big title to hold though, it comes with some pressure, but to even be regarded as such is so rewarding. It gives me the strength to keep going for my members and for our stay. I have a reputation to uphold, and I want to continue to make the people around me proud”

“Jeez, how do I follow that?” You mumble, causing an uproar of laughter, “I’ll just say this: I’m honored to be called an ACE in this industry, really. Obviously, people see something in me that sometimes I fail to see in myself, and that’s comforting. That’s reassuring. I’ll be sure to keep working hard”

The host and staff clap for your answers, though the host's eye contact still creeps you out.

“See, the reason I asked that is because Y/n, you said in an interview last year that you don’t like comparisons, and you want people to stop comparing you to other idols. You and Han are aces, is it fair to call you the female Han Jisung?”

Your heart started to beat fast, it was obvious this interviewer was baiting you, “Well um, I think I’m Y/n and he's Han. Very different people”

“I didn’t ask who you were, I asked, is it fair to say you’re a little clone of his?”

“Be respectful” You heard across the room. You and your members look up to see Han sitting red-faced, arms crossed, and eyes wide, “She answered you, move on”

The host laughs “Oh no Han I was just—”

“You’ve been making sly remarks to her all evening. I don’t know what your problem is but you will be respectful.”

The director yells cut and the managers come running onto the set. Moni walks up to you girls while the host is being chastised by his producers, though you can only pay attention to the conversation Han is having with his manager.

He looks pissed. The members around him are patting and rubbing his back. Chan sits next to him oozing a “leader” energy, backing up everything Han seems to say.

“Y/n!” Moni says, snapping you out of your trance, “You okay darling?”

“Yes ma’am” you nod, “Just shaken up. What’s that dude’s problem? Why’s he coming at me like that?”

“Probably wants some drama, and you’re the easiest target. Don’t worry about him, I can guarantee he won’t get any big artists like this after I talk with the network”

No sooner than those words leave Moni’s mouth, the host stands and rushes over to you. Felix saw this and decided to get up and walk to you as well.

“Miss, were you offended by those questions?” He nearly yells, causing you to jump

“Let’s start with an apology, yes?” Felix says right as he reaches the group, “You were out of line, sir”

The host sighs, “Yes sir. Miss, I’m sorry if I offended you. I only speak like this to make the show more interesting”

“But you’re doing it at her expense” Felix mumbled, causing Moni to shoot him a quick look.

“I won’t allow my artist to be humiliated like this. We gave you a list of questions that you can use, everything else will not be permitted.” Moni added

The host nods and bows at you, “My apologies again, Miss”

“Thank you” you mutter, embarrassed and a little irritated. Felix walks back to his members before Moni can question why he came to you in the first place. Your members all check on you, and when you’re ready, the interview continues.

Stray Kids are noticeably less lively and less friendly. They answer the host’s questions politely and move on. You and your girls are the same way, only smiling or laughing at each other. You make sure to send a few jokes to Han and Felix, to try and get them feeling better.

By the end of the rather long interview, everyone is irritated and ready to go. The host apologizes two more times to you and at least five times to the boys. It doesn’t matter, you won’t be back on his show ever again.

Right after that interview, you and your members prepare to head to JYP for rehearsal and behind-the-scenes filming. The car ride there is quiet, except for the frequent buzzing coming from your phone.

~Masterlist~

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The chair you sit on is hard and stiff, putting a strain on your back that your PT will have to massage out later. It’s a little too bright in the tiny room, and you hate how nothing seems to match. 

It’s very quiet as well, the only thing that can be heard is the receptionist typing on her keyboard. You want to pull out your phone and text the boys but you can’t: they’re working and you feel oddly awkward even thinking about pulling out your phone.

“Y/N?” You hear from the side of you

You stand quickly and bow to the receptionist, happy to leave the rather depressing waiting room. Your new therapist stands near the door, smiling big and genuine.

You follow her back to her office, taking note of how confident her steps are as she walks. You wish to walk with that much confidence someday. 

“Come in, take a seat anywhere” She says once you two enter her office. This room is more your speed: lights low, scented candles, comfy chairs, just the right temperature. It makes you relax instantly.

You choose to sit in the chair closest to the therapist’s desk. She picks up a little book from the desk and decides to sit in a comfier chair near you. 

“Hi, Y/n. I’m Kim Nabi. I’m very excited to get to know you” 

“Likewise” you say, giving her a tiny bow.

 You take a few seconds to give her a once-over. She looks to be in her early fifties, hair in a neat bun, and glasses so big that it makes you want to chuckle. Her eyes are kind and she looks at you like you’re the most important person in the world. 

“Let’s get right into it, shall we?” 

You nod, suddenly feeling nervousness flood your body. It’s scary, talking to someone about your feelings, about your problems, about your fears. 

“First, I want to let you know that I know you’re an idol. I’ve worked with pretty much all professions in the entertainment industry. Let me reassure you right now, everything said in this room will not leave this room. I pride myself on being ethical, fair, honest, and respectful. You don’t have to put on a mask with me, you’re not on stage, you can be yourself. It’s just you and me here, just two friends talking”

You smile, feeling a few nerves leave, “Thank you, that means a lot” 

“Now, can you tell me why you’re here?”

“Yeah um, well of course, as you said, I’m an idol and I have immense stress and stuff regarding that”

She nods and starts to write in her book

“Plus I’ve always had feelings about not feeling good enough, pretty enough, all those things” 

She nods again, “Is that all dear?”

“Well, um…no. I also have, or had? Yeah, I had this friend who I was close to for a very long time. Me and her fell out recently, she’s been harassing me. Looking back on the friendship, she was terrible from the start. She’s the reason I have all these insecurities now” 

“And what’s her name?”

“Addison. She’s thousands of miles away but…I don’t know, every time I start to feel a little good about myself, I remember all those times she told me nobody cares about me. Everyone hates me. She used me, abused me. Manipulated me into giving her money…and some more stuff”

You stop talking, looking down and letting a few tears fall.

“Hey… look at me”

You hesitate, but look up at the woman.

“I can assure you dear, you’re loved. Let’s start there” 

You nod, wiping your tears. 

“Let’s start from the beginning, tell me where everything started. Don’t worry about the time, don’t worry about tears, they’re gonna fall, let them. Just tell your truth”

It’s like the floodgates opened. You tell her everything, every time Addison picked on you as a kid, the guilt you felt when you left your family to pursue music, unintentionally comparing yourself to your members, Addison using you for money then threatening you once you cut her off, the intruder at JYP, the break in at your old dorm, the situation at the park, everything.

You left out no details.

By the time you were finished, you held a couple of tissues in your hands. Your face was hot and wet, covered in tears. Your nose was runny, your voice trembled, and you looked a mess.

Besides you sitting there, fragile, Nabi looked at you like you were strong. 

She first congratulated you on surviving all your troubles. She called you hardworking, resilient, and kind. She gave you tips on how to manage your anxiety and suggested ways to mitigate the guilt you feel when you think about your family back home. 

About Addison, Nabi gently encourages you to speak to Moni about her. You end up agreeing, and you promise to have a talk with Moni about it. 

All in all, the session was a success, and ended with you booking another for next week. Walking out of the building, you felt lighter, calmer. 

A security guard waited for you outside, and you hopped into the car with a smile on your face. For the first time in a while, you actually felt like things were going to get better. 

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