And I dive in.

when butterflies die

July 24

Update: vacation was nice, it’s entirely unfair that I’m not on an island right now.

Not in a way that vows “I love you” but in a way that declares “I loved you” deep from within my bones, wrapped in the core of who I am now.

It’s funny that I still look for the characteristics of our relationship in people I meet now. The childlike laugh that filled any space we were in, and the subtle glow that the memories of you are accompanied by.

Now that three months have passed I’ve also realized I’m good at it. It’s going so well. It’s a surreal feeling.

I’m happy I didn’t give up. It even led to me singing again and now a second EP, 12 released song, and so many more to come in the future.

It’s nothing crazy or even all that special, but I did it.

This time last year I didn’t know if I would make it to my birthday (in March), but I did and I’m still going.

I’m wondering how you

thought I didn’t have my doubts

my hearts in palpitations

ploughed through everything since she came around

and I want my sanity but I want you more

I heard your whispers in the corridors

When I find out…