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(She looks him over several times. Her eyes analytical and almost untrusting, but the more she looks, the more she gawks and stares, the more she relaxes. Her relaxation turns to relief, and that relief is overwhelming. Her eye twitches before tears begin to run down her face. She wipes at her tears pathetically, but her smile shows all her intent. Relief, happiness, a wavering line of fear.)
"I'm here.. for now. I can only stay as my avatar for a while before- egh, I go back to being that nightmare alpaca or whatever they're called now. I'm just glad I could reach out to someone before that happened.. glad that it was you, Pomni."
Jax pulls Pomni in for a tight hug, a hug like they shared in that mind-realm that Pom braved for them. He'd done enough crying since she left..
(Pomni wraps her arms around Jax, loosely at first, but eventually her desperation consumes her as she holds on tighter. It feels as if she'll lose him if she lets go. She can't lose him again.)
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 You didn't seem to really want me in there, ha... 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(She replies weakly and in-between sniffles. Her laugh dry. It's as if all her strength is forwarded to keeping Jax here, by hugging him, even though it won't change anything.)
"Heh.. I really didn't. But you were there, and since you saw all of.. that.. there was really no reason for me to try and push you away any longer. That's behind me now."
He let himself be squeezed tight by the jester, her helping keep him grounded in the moment. He was just so.. so happy to feel her touch again.
(The words get stuck in her throat for a moment, in between her sobs and sniffles, it was a bit difficult to spit it out. She suddenly pulls away from Jax and focuses on trying to wipe her tears instead. God, this must look just as pathetic as it feels, or so she thinks.)
He leaned down and wiped one of her tears away, keeping his hand planted on her cheek. If this was Ribbit, or Kaufmo.. or anyone else, now, he'd be in the same position as Pomni.
"I know what you're thinking, pompom. Stop that. I'd be just like you if our positions were swapped. Not pathetic, pompom."
(She could only laugh at Jax's response. Not truly because of the response itself, but at just how easily Jax read her. It felt strange to be this vulnerable, to be the one being comforted for once.)
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 I— I know. Just feels kinda silly. 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(Her tears slowly died down, awfully slowly. It still leaves behind a residue on her cheeks however.)
"..Wh- what have I missed, by the way? The circus is back to being colorful again.."
After keeping his eyes on Pomni for so long, they stared to look around at the environment around him. A huge tent.. inside the main tent. It was nice and dark at least.
(She swallowed hard after speaking. How can she explain everything? She fidgets with her thumbs before speaking.)
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 after I entered your mind, or whatever that was, we came up with a plan to subdue you? Abstractions are calmer in the dark, so we built a giant tent inside the tent, and wrangled you into it, anyway—! 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(She felt like her words were falling out of her mouth quicker than she could think about them.)
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 And after that, uh. Caine came back. He apologized, promised to be better, and showed us something. Something special... It was us, all of us, from the real world. What our real selves had been up to, and how successful they are... Um... 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(She wasn't sure how to go on, she knew there'd be questions no matter how much she explained, so she just stared at Jax expectantly.)
Jax nodded along, trying to follow along until the lil jester had mentioned caine coming back. The news of also their real life counterparts snagged on his thought process and hard stopped, turning to Pomni.
"Th- CAINE.. came back? and showed- that- Successful?.. I don't.."
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 Yes, THE Caine, came back— I don't know how he got ahold of it, but... We have real life counterparts, and they're out there thriving. Like— Like yours! You have an apartment and a stable job now! ... We also got to learn of our real names too, though I, uh, rejected mine. 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(Her speech turns into rambling as she goes on. She's unsure of a lot the details herself, just trying to sound plausible to Jax.)
Jax let themselves slowly fall off to the side into the pillows and blankets lining the floor, staring up into the ceiling. 'Ribbit was right, and- my real self is doing alright. Oh if only..'
(She doesn't entirely know what that means. Though, she can make an educated guess based off of his tone and body language. She looks up at the ceiling with him but remains standing.)
"I'd uh.. ask if you wanted to hang out for a bit longer, but I don't- I don't know how long I'm gonna last. Plus you probably have like.. stuff to attend to."
As much as he'd like to admit that he was ready and raring to catch up with everyone else.. he feels the dark drawing them back. He's also not exactly ready to talk to anyone else.. again.
"I'll be fine, pom. I hope you have enough trust in me to believe that?"
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 I don't really have much to do. 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(She says quickly after Jax speaks. It's technically a lie, she does have other things to attend to, but those can wait. Everything right now can wait.)
He propped himself up on his elbows as he looked up to her, his eyes wide in a bit of shock. He shouldn’t be surprised- there’s no doubt that she’d be willing to push aside things just to stay with him for longer.
“P- Pomni. You’re sure? I don’t want you to.. y’know. I don’t want to hurt you.”
(Her tone is firm, almost authoritarian, but there's a desperate edge to it, anedge that's really never left her voice. It's like she's pleading with someone, herself or Jax, but it's someone.)
He caught that edge, felt it pressed into his rabbit ears as his eyes softened, leaned back further, and looked at Pomni with an almost sorry expression.
He didn’t speak for a moment after she did, but eventually all that left him was:
That dull ache of worry slowly melts away, and he leans back into the pillows, patting the one beside him. After all that's said.. and done.. his love for Pomni hasn't changed.
"If you say so, jester." He said with an obviously playful tone.
"I uh.. I don't know. I just kinda assumed this would go quicker but, like- I don't really feel it now anymore.."
He turned his head over to look at pomni, smiling. Without taking his eyes off her, he raises his hand and places it on Pomni's shoulder. A subtle gesture to lay down and just relax with him for a minute.
(She looks away from Jax, staring all around the tent instead. She imagines it for herself... But the light from it might be too bright, or so she thinks.)
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 I'm not... Sure. They'd be pretty, but it'd be really bright. 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(Which defeats half the purpose of this place, She mutters in her head.)
"It wouldn't be on when I was-.. am, the abstraction. I think I can handle light fairly well.. I guess, uh, now's not the time for it though, is what you're saying?"
"Yeah- there's the rub, isn't it. I guess I just like to.. think. about what would look nice here. Of course I still have my room, and whatever's inside it. One of these days, I wanna learn that creation stuff you and Kinger do."
His hand never left her shoulder as either of them were talking, shuffling himself ever-so-closer to her side.
“It’s really just that simple? Nothing that I have to get Caine or Kinger’s express permission to do?”
He felt the subsided abstraction flare for half a second, then went back into its dormancy. He inhaled sharply and quickly let go of Pomni, not daring a risk of it getting her too.
(Pomni whips hear head to look at them. The triangular formation glitching into nonexistence after being let go of, though her hands still hover in the air, not touching Jax.)
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 Jax—! . . . Are you okay? 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(She looks over their form cautiously, her eyes darting around, looking for anything that could be dangerous or cause issues.)
(She looks him over several times. Her eyes analytical and almost untrusting, but the more she looks, the more she gawks and stares, the more she relaxes. Her relaxation turns to relief, and that relief is overwhelming. Her eye twitches before tears begin to run down her face. She wipes at her tears pathetically, but her smile shows all her intent. Relief, happiness, a wavering line of fear.)
"I'm here.. for now. I can only stay as my avatar for a while before- egh, I go back to being that nightmare alpaca or whatever they're called now. I'm just glad I could reach out to someone before that happened.. glad that it was you, Pomni."
Jax pulls Pomni in for a tight hug, a hug like they shared in that mind-realm that Pom braved for them. He'd done enough crying since she left..
(Pomni wraps her arms around Jax, loosely at first, but eventually her desperation consumes her as she holds on tighter. It feels as if she'll lose him if she lets go. She can't lose him again.)
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 You didn't seem to really want me in there, ha... 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(She replies weakly and in-between sniffles. Her laugh dry. It's as if all her strength is forwarded to keeping Jax here, by hugging him, even though it won't change anything.)
"Heh.. I really didn't. But you were there, and since you saw all of.. that.. there was really no reason for me to try and push you away any longer. That's behind me now."
He let himself be squeezed tight by the jester, her helping keep him grounded in the moment. He was just so.. so happy to feel her touch again.
(The words get stuck in her throat for a moment, in between her sobs and sniffles, it was a bit difficult to spit it out. She suddenly pulls away from Jax and focuses on trying to wipe her tears instead. God, this must look just as pathetic as it feels, or so she thinks.)
He leaned down and wiped one of her tears away, keeping his hand planted on her cheek. If this was Ribbit, or Kaufmo.. or anyone else, now, he'd be in the same position as Pomni.
"I know what you're thinking, pompom. Stop that. I'd be just like you if our positions were swapped. Not pathetic, pompom."
(She could only laugh at Jax's response. Not truly because of the response itself, but at just how easily Jax read her. It felt strange to be this vulnerable, to be the one being comforted for once.)
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 I— I know. Just feels kinda silly. 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(Her tears slowly died down, awfully slowly. It still leaves behind a residue on her cheeks however.)
"..Wh- what have I missed, by the way? The circus is back to being colorful again.."
After keeping his eyes on Pomni for so long, they stared to look around at the environment around him. A huge tent.. inside the main tent. It was nice and dark at least.
(She swallowed hard after speaking. How can she explain everything? She fidgets with her thumbs before speaking.)
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 after I entered your mind, or whatever that was, we came up with a plan to subdue you? Abstractions are calmer in the dark, so we built a giant tent inside the tent, and wrangled you into it, anyway—! 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(She felt like her words were falling out of her mouth quicker than she could think about them.)
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 And after that, uh. Caine came back. He apologized, promised to be better, and showed us something. Something special... It was us, all of us, from the real world. What our real selves had been up to, and how successful they are... Um... 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(She wasn't sure how to go on, she knew there'd be questions no matter how much she explained, so she just stared at Jax expectantly.)
Jax nodded along, trying to follow along until the lil jester had mentioned caine coming back. The news of also their real life counterparts snagged on his thought process and hard stopped, turning to Pomni.
"Th- CAINE.. came back? and showed- that- Successful?.. I don't.."
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 Yes, THE Caine, came back— I don't know how he got ahold of it, but... We have real life counterparts, and they're out there thriving. Like— Like yours! You have an apartment and a stable job now! ... We also got to learn of our real names too, though I, uh, rejected mine. 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(Her speech turns into rambling as she goes on. She's unsure of a lot the details herself, just trying to sound plausible to Jax.)
Jax let themselves slowly fall off to the side into the pillows and blankets lining the floor, staring up into the ceiling. 'Ribbit was right, and- my real self is doing alright. Oh if only..'
(She doesn't entirely know what that means. Though, she can make an educated guess based off of his tone and body language. She looks up at the ceiling with him but remains standing.)
"I'd uh.. ask if you wanted to hang out for a bit longer, but I don't- I don't know how long I'm gonna last. Plus you probably have like.. stuff to attend to."
As much as he'd like to admit that he was ready and raring to catch up with everyone else.. he feels the dark drawing them back. He's also not exactly ready to talk to anyone else.. again.
"I'll be fine, pom. I hope you have enough trust in me to believe that?"
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 I don't really have much to do. 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(She says quickly after Jax speaks. It's technically a lie, she does have other things to attend to, but those can wait. Everything right now can wait.)
He propped himself up on his elbows as he looked up to her, his eyes wide in a bit of shock. He shouldn’t be surprised- there’s no doubt that she’d be willing to push aside things just to stay with him for longer.
“P- Pomni. You’re sure? I don’t want you to.. y’know. I don’t want to hurt you.”
(Her tone is firm, almost authoritarian, but there's a desperate edge to it, anedge that's really never left her voice. It's like she's pleading with someone, herself or Jax, but it's someone.)
He caught that edge, felt it pressed into his rabbit ears as his eyes softened, leaned back further, and looked at Pomni with an almost sorry expression.
He didn’t speak for a moment after she did, but eventually all that left him was:
That dull ache of worry slowly melts away, and he leans back into the pillows, patting the one beside him. After all that's said.. and done.. his love for Pomni hasn't changed.
"If you say so, jester." He said with an obviously playful tone.
"I uh.. I don't know. I just kinda assumed this would go quicker but, like- I don't really feel it now anymore.."
He turned his head over to look at pomni, smiling. Without taking his eyes off her, he raises his hand and places it on Pomni's shoulder. A subtle gesture to lay down and just relax with him for a minute.
(She looks away from Jax, staring all around the tent instead. She imagines it for herself... But the light from it might be too bright, or so she thinks.)
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《 I'm not... Sure. They'd be pretty, but it'd be really bright. 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
(Which defeats half the purpose of this place, She mutters in her head.)
"It wouldn't be on when I was-.. am, the abstraction. I think I can handle light fairly well.. I guess, uh, now's not the time for it though, is what you're saying?"
"Yeah- there's the rub, isn't it. I guess I just like to.. think. about what would look nice here. Of course I still have my room, and whatever's inside it. One of these days, I wanna learn that creation stuff you and Kinger do."
His hand never left her shoulder as either of them were talking, shuffling himself ever-so-closer to her side.
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"Wh- Wow what, Pom? That I said 'sorry' for once? I don't know if you've noticed but.. I've changed. Hopefully for the better, but it's not up to me to put that verdict down. What do you think, Pompom?"
Jax turns to look at the jester, leaning back into the couch of the main commons area.
"That's good. I'm.. glad. I mean it, by the way. I regret all the mean stuff I said, especially when I had that- let's just call it a breakdown, at the end of the gun adventure. I wouldn't forget about you, and I definitely wouldn't be able to just move on."
He chuckles, and takes a deep breath before slightly smiling. It's clear that he's thinking about something still, and this sudden apology begs a question. What happened to him to make him like this?
[Pomni listens carefully to Jax's words, trying to find a hole in his message, anything to grasp why. It's all rather sudden. Maybe after everything that's happened, he just feels the need to? But even that explanation doesn't feel right. And Pomni is horrible at hiding her curiosity.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , I get it . I couldn't stop thinkjng about you either , just got all worried , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She laughs humorlessly at her stumbling speech.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《So ... What warranted the change ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"The change- Oh, MY change. It's uh, kinda a funny story, actually. Well, one you might find funny. It was during that awards show that Caine hosted right after the gun adventure, remember? I was.. kinda far away from the stage, and from you and Ragatha. I saw you left a spot open for me- I probably made you bad that I never moved up to it."
Jax looked back down, slightly fiddling with his gloves
"B- but that's not why, no no. It was a little later. Something finally gotten into my head that I needed to get out, away from the noise.. away from you.."
[She listens intently and sincerely as if she cares because truly, she does. She cares for everyone in this shitshow of a circus. It'd be difficult not to sympathize with the same few people you're stuck around all the time or at least it is for Pomni.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《It was kinda loud in there , so I don't blame you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods as she speaks, stopping abruptly, assuming Jax would continue on.]
“That wasn’t the only reason. My chest felt heavy, I couldn’t keep still, I- I didn’t know what was coming over me, so I rushed into the bathroom and turned the sink on to block out the noise. Didn’t help. Tried to do some calming breathing, instantly backfired and started hyperventilating. Nothing was helping.”
His paw would start tapping, not exactly quick, but slightly audible against the stale carpet under them.
“I.. was having a panic attack. Because I have horrible trust issues, and the last person in the circus who got close to me.. abstracted..”
[Pomni's sincere expression turned sour rather quickly. Her expression faltering as she begins to stare at Jax in worry. Her hand twitching beside her, debating on what to do. She's not exactly keen on how to comfort someone especially in a setting like this.]
[Instead of verbally comforting him, she wraps her arms around him. Her hug is tight enough to be comforting, but loose enough that if he's uncomfortable he can move away.]
The few seconds of silence started to worry him, so he was about to turn to Pomni.
“Pompo-?”
Until he was hugged by the jester, completely halting his thought process. His leg stopped, and he thought he was going to have a repeat reaction to Pomni hugging him.. until his arms wrapped around her as well, pulling her close to himself.
[Pomni honestly thought he'd have a repulsive reaction to her hugging him, so she definitely didn't expect to be pulled closer. It felt strangely nice to have the hug returned by warm, smooth hands. She subconsciously melted into the hug once it's returned to her.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You don't have to suffer alone , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She sounds so matter-of-fact, it's hard to disagree, but it's really not as easy as she makes it sound.]
"I.. know, Pomni. But it's not that simple. And- I haven't even finished my story yet."
He let his grip loosen around Pomni, but not so much to completely let her slip away
"Eventually It passed, and I was left alone with just my thoughts. I looked at myself in the mirror, and told myself: 'you look stupid'. Cause I did. Afterwards though, I had a moment of clarity. What's my problem? I don't let anyone get close to me, like Ribbit, just to see them.. turn into that. So I put on a mean personality, be abrasive, mess with everyone so that no one wants to get close to me."
[Pomni's hold never loosens. If Jax doesn't let her go, she probably won't move. She does try to tilt her head to look up at him, but she's too short to actually be able to see his face clearly, so she gives up on trying.]
[She lets out a short, breathy laugh when he calls himself stupid. She doubts that he actually did, but with how blunt he sounded, it was just a bit funny.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm not easily deterred by personality traits . You are no expection to that .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
He lets out a little laugh as well, gently placing his hand on top of her hat, making the bells jingle a little.
"I know. That's why I hung around you so much. I kinda knew you saw through my whole thing.. I think when I was finally staring at myself in that mirror, I realized. Why do I want to be the bad guy. I don't want to be the one that causes someone to.. y'know.."
Jax suddenly pulled pomni in again close, looking down to her.
[Pomni tenses up slightly at the sudden touch to her head, but her shoulders slack quickly after. A smile crossing her face again as she's pulled closer, tightening her grip on Jax and laying her head on his chest (kind of, she's a bit short).]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You're not exactly good at hiding it either .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[Her brows furrowed "fakest idgafer", a bit confused on what it means. She mentally shrugs it off, she'll ask Zooble later. Though her heart seems to swell when he mentions that he does care for her... she'll deal with that later.]
[She didn't realize her struggle was that prominent, a faint blush creeping onto her face from embarrassment. Her hands fly off from around Jax, and she laughs awkwardly.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , that'd probably be better than ... y'know , dealing with being short .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
Jax's smile went WIDE, as it only shows when he gets a particularly mischievous idea.
"Well, there's a solution for that, pompom!"
The rabbit picked the jester up with a firm hug around her, and walked over to the purple couch he was laying on earlier with her in his arms. He made sure to lay back down carefully, even though he couldn't really hurt her. He rested her on his chest while he melted into the couch.
[Pomni quirked a brow as Jax spoke of a solution. Though she couldn't particularly see his expression, she could feel the mischief radiating off of him. She just suspiciously hums in response to his mischief.]
[She squeaks when suddenly picked up. She knew she was light but not that light. As soon as she thinks about kicking her feet to get Jax to put her down, she's plopped onto the couch with Jax. It eases her earlier discomfort as she buries her face into his chest.]
"Heyyy, c'mon! You know I wish I was! So many other jaxs out there being actually furry 'n.. I'm stuck with this damn rubbery ass skin.."
Jax grumbles and turns his head down off to the side, his ears following along as they droop towards where he's leaning to as well. Might've touched a nerve there, Pomni.
"I don't wanna be stuck like.. this forever.. you probably don't either, do you, pom?"
[Whoops, she didn't realize how sore that spot was. She'd tried to quickly think of something to say to not ruin this moment. She always felt on edge around him, having the tip-toe around.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Hey , it just means your special !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She wanted to choke the words back in the moment she spoke them. She hoped that Jax would ignore it if she continued on.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《No , I really don't . But it feels almost useless to try and leave .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"You thought I meant- Ah, hah.. No, no, I didn't mean leaving, pompom. Though, that'd be nice too. I meant these outfits, the bodies, kinda along with the everything else. I'd love to have fur, a sweatshirt or two, different pairs of gloves, a couple sweatpants, y'know?"
He turned back, reaching over with one of the hands that was wrapped around her to gently pat pomni through her hat.
"Don't you ever get tired of the hat? The outfit? I mean- psh, probably your height too if you asked nice enough."
[She averts her gaze afterwards. She's doing a damn good job at embarrassing herself lately. What is up with her?]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I dunno , I don't really ... think about it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She pauses, questioning to continue on. Eventually, she does.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm gunna sound crazy but — I don't really hate it ? It's nice to not have to think about change . It gets annoying , but I almost prefer it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'd still like you . I doubt a whole lot could deter me from liking you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't answer the second question just out of politeness. If she were honest, she'd probably prefer if he didn't change. It's easier to deal with change, especially spontaneous change. She looks back up at him, somewhat avoiding his eyes directly.]
The bunny smiles.. then he gets a thought, which makes it go from his normal smile to his devious smile once more. He leans in close to Pomni's face, almost uncomfortably close for a normal person.
"I think you're being modest, Pompom. I think you'd totally want me to change to be fluffy. That way, you could have a fluffy bunny boy to sleep on at night~"
[Pomni leans away from Jax, startled by the sudden closeness to her face. She blinks a few times, trying to register the situation. Once she does, her cheeks flush a bright red.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I didn't say anything like that !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
“Ohh but you diiid, you said you’d still like me no matter if I changed or not, but you sounded just that teeensy bit disappointed by the fact I wasn’t fluffy. It’s okay Pom, I understand.”
He moved his head back to leaning against the armrest, still smiling wide. It was all mean to just poke fun at Pomni, he didn’t mean any of it to be mean.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think you're just hearing things .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She rolled her eyes playfully after. The flushness in her cheeks dying down finally. She looks around her, her eyes never seeming to stay in one place for very long, until Jax mumbled something, and she didn't quite catch it.]
"Huh? N- Nothing! Nothin, Pompom. Are you starting to hear things?"
Jax watched her eyes flick around, until landing back onto him as he spoke, where then he would move his hand from the top of her hat down to the side of her face, gently holding it. His smile would close, only leaving a thin line of a content looking bunny
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Maybe , we're just going crazy together .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She leans her head into his palm, closing her eyes shortly after. She never realized how much she missed this, gentle touch rather than being prodded and pulled like a toy.]
"That'd be funny, us going insane at the same time. People would say that's fate or something. Not me, nah, there's no fate to be found here.. just the decisions we make for ourselves."
A hue of pink would rise to Jax's cheeks as he felt the jester push into his hand, giving him some slight panic. He only NOW realizes the situation he's in, the jester laying on him, being comfortable around him of all people in the circus.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think there's a little fate in everything ...》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods and burrows her head impossibly further into Jax's hand. As calm as she seems, there's a slight panic in her mind, a fear that he'll pull away and she'll never get this again with him. Her hand snakes it's way around his wrist, keeping him in place. Her grip is still loose, so he could pull away if he wanted. It's quite a futile attempt.]
The rabbit's digital heart started to race, seeing how close and clingy she was getting. He didn't know what to do, but he didn't want to upset her though.. so he pulled the jester further up on his chest, his grappled hand moving to interlock his gloved with hers, holding on tighter with the hand that was still laid across her back.
He almost knew what was coming.. but he wasn't going to spill his soul first.
[She tilts her head up off his hand after their fingers interlock. She looks over at it before looking back up at him, then her gaze darts away as the same red flush creeps itself back onto her face. She hadn't registered the hand on her back until he pulls her up, letting out a small squeak in response.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Ah — um ... sorry .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She seems to be avoiding spilling her heart out as much as he is.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I do . It felt like to talk to you without you bullying me .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't seem to bring up the argument, but it definitely hasn't slipped her mind. She remembers it like it was yesterday, it's practically drilled into her brain. The fact he wouldn't care, that he'd just move on like everybody else eventually would... It makes her stomach churn. But she doesn't mention it.]
Jax took another breath and close his eyes, before leaning up to Pomni’s face and placing a gentle kiss upon her lips. He kept his composure well, despite his hands shaking slightly as he leans back onto the armrest.
You could barely tell the difference between his and Evil Jax’s face with how flushed he is.
[Pomni's eyes somehow widen even further. The kiss startles her, and she almost pulls away. Almost. Instead, she melts into the kiss as Jax melts into the sofa. Her face flushed an impossible shade of red, she looks like a tomato. She eventually pulls back for air, blinking rapidly a few times.]
[Until she suddenly pushed herself off of the couch, standing awkwardly beside it instead. She almost looked ready to run away, but something held her in place.]
He was disoriented by the sudden and quick escape from the couch that she’d executed, but instead of running away, like he thought she was going to, she just stood there, back turned to him.
Jax sat up and pushed his legs over the edge of the couch, and moving into a sit instead of laying down.
“W- was my kiss that bad, Pom?” He let out a dry low laugh after he said that, shaking his head with how bad the joke was.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《No , no ! Not at all , I just ... 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She trails off after not sure where exactly she planned on going with her speech. She felt bolted to the ground, yet all she wanted to do was run away with no idea why.]
Jax crossed his lanky arms and leaned back into the couch, keeping some of his attention on the jester, and the other on making sure that he doesn't let his legs carry him back to the solitary of his room.
[Pomni doesn't really hear what he says, but she nods as if she did. It felt far too heavy to put one foot in front of the other, but eventually she did, running off into the abyss of the circus or what's left of it.]
[She doesn't understand her own need for sudden escape. All she knew is that something felt wrong. Maybe she's scared, scared to hurt him, scared to be the breaking point.]
"Wh- Wow what, Pom? That I said 'sorry' for once? I don't know if you've noticed but.. I've changed. Hopefully for the better, but it's not up to me to put that verdict down. What do you think, Pompom?"
Jax turns to look at the jester, leaning back into the couch of the main commons area.
"That's good. I'm.. glad. I mean it, by the way. I regret all the mean stuff I said, especially when I had that- let's just call it a breakdown, at the end of the gun adventure. I wouldn't forget about you, and I definitely wouldn't be able to just move on."
He chuckles, and takes a deep breath before slightly smiling. It's clear that he's thinking about something still, and this sudden apology begs a question. What happened to him to make him like this?
[Pomni listens carefully to Jax's words, trying to find a hole in his message, anything to grasp why. It's all rather sudden. Maybe after everything that's happened, he just feels the need to? But even that explanation doesn't feel right. And Pomni is horrible at hiding her curiosity.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , I get it . I couldn't stop thinkjng about you either , just got all worried , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She laughs humorlessly at her stumbling speech.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《So ... What warranted the change ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"The change- Oh, MY change. It's uh, kinda a funny story, actually. Well, one you might find funny. It was during that awards show that Caine hosted right after the gun adventure, remember? I was.. kinda far away from the stage, and from you and Ragatha. I saw you left a spot open for me- I probably made you bad that I never moved up to it."
Jax looked back down, slightly fiddling with his gloves
"B- but that's not why, no no. It was a little later. Something finally gotten into my head that I needed to get out, away from the noise.. away from you.."
[She listens intently and sincerely as if she cares because truly, she does. She cares for everyone in this shitshow of a circus. It'd be difficult not to sympathize with the same few people you're stuck around all the time or at least it is for Pomni.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《It was kinda loud in there , so I don't blame you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods as she speaks, stopping abruptly, assuming Jax would continue on.]
“That wasn’t the only reason. My chest felt heavy, I couldn’t keep still, I- I didn’t know what was coming over me, so I rushed into the bathroom and turned the sink on to block out the noise. Didn’t help. Tried to do some calming breathing, instantly backfired and started hyperventilating. Nothing was helping.”
His paw would start tapping, not exactly quick, but slightly audible against the stale carpet under them.
“I.. was having a panic attack. Because I have horrible trust issues, and the last person in the circus who got close to me.. abstracted..”
[Pomni's sincere expression turned sour rather quickly. Her expression faltering as she begins to stare at Jax in worry. Her hand twitching beside her, debating on what to do. She's not exactly keen on how to comfort someone especially in a setting like this.]
[Instead of verbally comforting him, she wraps her arms around him. Her hug is tight enough to be comforting, but loose enough that if he's uncomfortable he can move away.]
The few seconds of silence started to worry him, so he was about to turn to Pomni.
“Pompo-?”
Until he was hugged by the jester, completely halting his thought process. His leg stopped, and he thought he was going to have a repeat reaction to Pomni hugging him.. until his arms wrapped around her as well, pulling her close to himself.
[Pomni honestly thought he'd have a repulsive reaction to her hugging him, so she definitely didn't expect to be pulled closer. It felt strangely nice to have the hug returned by warm, smooth hands. She subconsciously melted into the hug once it's returned to her.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You don't have to suffer alone , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She sounds so matter-of-fact, it's hard to disagree, but it's really not as easy as she makes it sound.]
"I.. know, Pomni. But it's not that simple. And- I haven't even finished my story yet."
He let his grip loosen around Pomni, but not so much to completely let her slip away
"Eventually It passed, and I was left alone with just my thoughts. I looked at myself in the mirror, and told myself: 'you look stupid'. Cause I did. Afterwards though, I had a moment of clarity. What's my problem? I don't let anyone get close to me, like Ribbit, just to see them.. turn into that. So I put on a mean personality, be abrasive, mess with everyone so that no one wants to get close to me."
[Pomni's hold never loosens. If Jax doesn't let her go, she probably won't move. She does try to tilt her head to look up at him, but she's too short to actually be able to see his face clearly, so she gives up on trying.]
[She lets out a short, breathy laugh when he calls himself stupid. She doubts that he actually did, but with how blunt he sounded, it was just a bit funny.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm not easily deterred by personality traits . You are no expection to that .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
He lets out a little laugh as well, gently placing his hand on top of her hat, making the bells jingle a little.
"I know. That's why I hung around you so much. I kinda knew you saw through my whole thing.. I think when I was finally staring at myself in that mirror, I realized. Why do I want to be the bad guy. I don't want to be the one that causes someone to.. y'know.."
Jax suddenly pulled pomni in again close, looking down to her.
[Pomni tenses up slightly at the sudden touch to her head, but her shoulders slack quickly after. A smile crossing her face again as she's pulled closer, tightening her grip on Jax and laying her head on his chest (kind of, she's a bit short).]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You're not exactly good at hiding it either .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[Her brows furrowed "fakest idgafer", a bit confused on what it means. She mentally shrugs it off, she'll ask Zooble later. Though her heart seems to swell when he mentions that he does care for her... she'll deal with that later.]
[She didn't realize her struggle was that prominent, a faint blush creeping onto her face from embarrassment. Her hands fly off from around Jax, and she laughs awkwardly.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , that'd probably be better than ... y'know , dealing with being short .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
Jax's smile went WIDE, as it only shows when he gets a particularly mischievous idea.
"Well, there's a solution for that, pompom!"
The rabbit picked the jester up with a firm hug around her, and walked over to the purple couch he was laying on earlier with her in his arms. He made sure to lay back down carefully, even though he couldn't really hurt her. He rested her on his chest while he melted into the couch.
[Pomni quirked a brow as Jax spoke of a solution. Though she couldn't particularly see his expression, she could feel the mischief radiating off of him. She just suspiciously hums in response to his mischief.]
[She squeaks when suddenly picked up. She knew she was light but not that light. As soon as she thinks about kicking her feet to get Jax to put her down, she's plopped onto the couch with Jax. It eases her earlier discomfort as she buries her face into his chest.]
"Heyyy, c'mon! You know I wish I was! So many other jaxs out there being actually furry 'n.. I'm stuck with this damn rubbery ass skin.."
Jax grumbles and turns his head down off to the side, his ears following along as they droop towards where he's leaning to as well. Might've touched a nerve there, Pomni.
"I don't wanna be stuck like.. this forever.. you probably don't either, do you, pom?"
[Whoops, she didn't realize how sore that spot was. She'd tried to quickly think of something to say to not ruin this moment. She always felt on edge around him, having the tip-toe around.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Hey , it just means your special !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She wanted to choke the words back in the moment she spoke them. She hoped that Jax would ignore it if she continued on.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《No , I really don't . But it feels almost useless to try and leave .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"You thought I meant- Ah, hah.. No, no, I didn't mean leaving, pompom. Though, that'd be nice too. I meant these outfits, the bodies, kinda along with the everything else. I'd love to have fur, a sweatshirt or two, different pairs of gloves, a couple sweatpants, y'know?"
He turned back, reaching over with one of the hands that was wrapped around her to gently pat pomni through her hat.
"Don't you ever get tired of the hat? The outfit? I mean- psh, probably your height too if you asked nice enough."
[She averts her gaze afterwards. She's doing a damn good job at embarrassing herself lately. What is up with her?]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I dunno , I don't really ... think about it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She pauses, questioning to continue on. Eventually, she does.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm gunna sound crazy but — I don't really hate it ? It's nice to not have to think about change . It gets annoying , but I almost prefer it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'd still like you . I doubt a whole lot could deter me from liking you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't answer the second question just out of politeness. If she were honest, she'd probably prefer if he didn't change. It's easier to deal with change, especially spontaneous change. She looks back up at him, somewhat avoiding his eyes directly.]
The bunny smiles.. then he gets a thought, which makes it go from his normal smile to his devious smile once more. He leans in close to Pomni's face, almost uncomfortably close for a normal person.
"I think you're being modest, Pompom. I think you'd totally want me to change to be fluffy. That way, you could have a fluffy bunny boy to sleep on at night~"
[Pomni leans away from Jax, startled by the sudden closeness to her face. She blinks a few times, trying to register the situation. Once she does, her cheeks flush a bright red.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I didn't say anything like that !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
“Ohh but you diiid, you said you’d still like me no matter if I changed or not, but you sounded just that teeensy bit disappointed by the fact I wasn’t fluffy. It’s okay Pom, I understand.”
He moved his head back to leaning against the armrest, still smiling wide. It was all mean to just poke fun at Pomni, he didn’t mean any of it to be mean.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think you're just hearing things .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She rolled her eyes playfully after. The flushness in her cheeks dying down finally. She looks around her, her eyes never seeming to stay in one place for very long, until Jax mumbled something, and she didn't quite catch it.]
"Huh? N- Nothing! Nothin, Pompom. Are you starting to hear things?"
Jax watched her eyes flick around, until landing back onto him as he spoke, where then he would move his hand from the top of her hat down to the side of her face, gently holding it. His smile would close, only leaving a thin line of a content looking bunny
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Maybe , we're just going crazy together .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She leans her head into his palm, closing her eyes shortly after. She never realized how much she missed this, gentle touch rather than being prodded and pulled like a toy.]
"That'd be funny, us going insane at the same time. People would say that's fate or something. Not me, nah, there's no fate to be found here.. just the decisions we make for ourselves."
A hue of pink would rise to Jax's cheeks as he felt the jester push into his hand, giving him some slight panic. He only NOW realizes the situation he's in, the jester laying on him, being comfortable around him of all people in the circus.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think there's a little fate in everything ...》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods and burrows her head impossibly further into Jax's hand. As calm as she seems, there's a slight panic in her mind, a fear that he'll pull away and she'll never get this again with him. Her hand snakes it's way around his wrist, keeping him in place. Her grip is still loose, so he could pull away if he wanted. It's quite a futile attempt.]
The rabbit's digital heart started to race, seeing how close and clingy she was getting. He didn't know what to do, but he didn't want to upset her though.. so he pulled the jester further up on his chest, his grappled hand moving to interlock his gloved with hers, holding on tighter with the hand that was still laid across her back.
He almost knew what was coming.. but he wasn't going to spill his soul first.
[She tilts her head up off his hand after their fingers interlock. She looks over at it before looking back up at him, then her gaze darts away as the same red flush creeps itself back onto her face. She hadn't registered the hand on her back until he pulls her up, letting out a small squeak in response.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Ah — um ... sorry .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She seems to be avoiding spilling her heart out as much as he is.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I do . It felt like to talk to you without you bullying me .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't seem to bring up the argument, but it definitely hasn't slipped her mind. She remembers it like it was yesterday, it's practically drilled into her brain. The fact he wouldn't care, that he'd just move on like everybody else eventually would... It makes her stomach churn. But she doesn't mention it.]
Jax took another breath and close his eyes, before leaning up to Pomni’s face and placing a gentle kiss upon her lips. He kept his composure well, despite his hands shaking slightly as he leans back onto the armrest.
You could barely tell the difference between his and Evil Jax’s face with how flushed he is.
[Pomni's eyes somehow widen even further. The kiss startles her, and she almost pulls away. Almost. Instead, she melts into the kiss as Jax melts into the sofa. Her face flushed an impossible shade of red, she looks like a tomato. She eventually pulls back for air, blinking rapidly a few times.]
[Until she suddenly pushed herself off of the couch, standing awkwardly beside it instead. She almost looked ready to run away, but something held her in place.]
He was disoriented by the sudden and quick escape from the couch that she’d executed, but instead of running away, like he thought she was going to, she just stood there, back turned to him.
Jax sat up and pushed his legs over the edge of the couch, and moving into a sit instead of laying down.
“W- was my kiss that bad, Pom?” He let out a dry low laugh after he said that, shaking his head with how bad the joke was.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《No , no ! Not at all , I just ... 》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She trails off after not sure where exactly she planned on going with her speech. She felt bolted to the ground, yet all she wanted to do was run away with no idea why.]
"Wh- Wow what, Pom? That I said 'sorry' for once? I don't know if you've noticed but.. I've changed. Hopefully for the better, but it's not up to me to put that verdict down. What do you think, Pompom?"
Jax turns to look at the jester, leaning back into the couch of the main commons area.
"That's good. I'm.. glad. I mean it, by the way. I regret all the mean stuff I said, especially when I had that- let's just call it a breakdown, at the end of the gun adventure. I wouldn't forget about you, and I definitely wouldn't be able to just move on."
He chuckles, and takes a deep breath before slightly smiling. It's clear that he's thinking about something still, and this sudden apology begs a question. What happened to him to make him like this?
[Pomni listens carefully to Jax's words, trying to find a hole in his message, anything to grasp why. It's all rather sudden. Maybe after everything that's happened, he just feels the need to? But even that explanation doesn't feel right. And Pomni is horrible at hiding her curiosity.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , I get it . I couldn't stop thinkjng about you either , just got all worried , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She laughs humorlessly at her stumbling speech.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《So ... What warranted the change ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"The change- Oh, MY change. It's uh, kinda a funny story, actually. Well, one you might find funny. It was during that awards show that Caine hosted right after the gun adventure, remember? I was.. kinda far away from the stage, and from you and Ragatha. I saw you left a spot open for me- I probably made you bad that I never moved up to it."
Jax looked back down, slightly fiddling with his gloves
"B- but that's not why, no no. It was a little later. Something finally gotten into my head that I needed to get out, away from the noise.. away from you.."
[She listens intently and sincerely as if she cares because truly, she does. She cares for everyone in this shitshow of a circus. It'd be difficult not to sympathize with the same few people you're stuck around all the time or at least it is for Pomni.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《It was kinda loud in there , so I don't blame you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods as she speaks, stopping abruptly, assuming Jax would continue on.]
“That wasn’t the only reason. My chest felt heavy, I couldn’t keep still, I- I didn’t know what was coming over me, so I rushed into the bathroom and turned the sink on to block out the noise. Didn’t help. Tried to do some calming breathing, instantly backfired and started hyperventilating. Nothing was helping.”
His paw would start tapping, not exactly quick, but slightly audible against the stale carpet under them.
“I.. was having a panic attack. Because I have horrible trust issues, and the last person in the circus who got close to me.. abstracted..”
[Pomni's sincere expression turned sour rather quickly. Her expression faltering as she begins to stare at Jax in worry. Her hand twitching beside her, debating on what to do. She's not exactly keen on how to comfort someone especially in a setting like this.]
[Instead of verbally comforting him, she wraps her arms around him. Her hug is tight enough to be comforting, but loose enough that if he's uncomfortable he can move away.]
The few seconds of silence started to worry him, so he was about to turn to Pomni.
“Pompo-?”
Until he was hugged by the jester, completely halting his thought process. His leg stopped, and he thought he was going to have a repeat reaction to Pomni hugging him.. until his arms wrapped around her as well, pulling her close to himself.
[Pomni honestly thought he'd have a repulsive reaction to her hugging him, so she definitely didn't expect to be pulled closer. It felt strangely nice to have the hug returned by warm, smooth hands. She subconsciously melted into the hug once it's returned to her.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You don't have to suffer alone , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She sounds so matter-of-fact, it's hard to disagree, but it's really not as easy as she makes it sound.]
"I.. know, Pomni. But it's not that simple. And- I haven't even finished my story yet."
He let his grip loosen around Pomni, but not so much to completely let her slip away
"Eventually It passed, and I was left alone with just my thoughts. I looked at myself in the mirror, and told myself: 'you look stupid'. Cause I did. Afterwards though, I had a moment of clarity. What's my problem? I don't let anyone get close to me, like Ribbit, just to see them.. turn into that. So I put on a mean personality, be abrasive, mess with everyone so that no one wants to get close to me."
[Pomni's hold never loosens. If Jax doesn't let her go, she probably won't move. She does try to tilt her head to look up at him, but she's too short to actually be able to see his face clearly, so she gives up on trying.]
[She lets out a short, breathy laugh when he calls himself stupid. She doubts that he actually did, but with how blunt he sounded, it was just a bit funny.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm not easily deterred by personality traits . You are no expection to that .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
He lets out a little laugh as well, gently placing his hand on top of her hat, making the bells jingle a little.
"I know. That's why I hung around you so much. I kinda knew you saw through my whole thing.. I think when I was finally staring at myself in that mirror, I realized. Why do I want to be the bad guy. I don't want to be the one that causes someone to.. y'know.."
Jax suddenly pulled pomni in again close, looking down to her.
[Pomni tenses up slightly at the sudden touch to her head, but her shoulders slack quickly after. A smile crossing her face again as she's pulled closer, tightening her grip on Jax and laying her head on his chest (kind of, she's a bit short).]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You're not exactly good at hiding it either .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[Her brows furrowed "fakest idgafer", a bit confused on what it means. She mentally shrugs it off, she'll ask Zooble later. Though her heart seems to swell when he mentions that he does care for her... she'll deal with that later.]
[She didn't realize her struggle was that prominent, a faint blush creeping onto her face from embarrassment. Her hands fly off from around Jax, and she laughs awkwardly.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , that'd probably be better than ... y'know , dealing with being short .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
Jax's smile went WIDE, as it only shows when he gets a particularly mischievous idea.
"Well, there's a solution for that, pompom!"
The rabbit picked the jester up with a firm hug around her, and walked over to the purple couch he was laying on earlier with her in his arms. He made sure to lay back down carefully, even though he couldn't really hurt her. He rested her on his chest while he melted into the couch.
[Pomni quirked a brow as Jax spoke of a solution. Though she couldn't particularly see his expression, she could feel the mischief radiating off of him. She just suspiciously hums in response to his mischief.]
[She squeaks when suddenly picked up. She knew she was light but not that light. As soon as she thinks about kicking her feet to get Jax to put her down, she's plopped onto the couch with Jax. It eases her earlier discomfort as she buries her face into his chest.]
"Heyyy, c'mon! You know I wish I was! So many other jaxs out there being actually furry 'n.. I'm stuck with this damn rubbery ass skin.."
Jax grumbles and turns his head down off to the side, his ears following along as they droop towards where he's leaning to as well. Might've touched a nerve there, Pomni.
"I don't wanna be stuck like.. this forever.. you probably don't either, do you, pom?"
[Whoops, she didn't realize how sore that spot was. She'd tried to quickly think of something to say to not ruin this moment. She always felt on edge around him, having the tip-toe around.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Hey , it just means your special !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She wanted to choke the words back in the moment she spoke them. She hoped that Jax would ignore it if she continued on.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《No , I really don't . But it feels almost useless to try and leave .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"You thought I meant- Ah, hah.. No, no, I didn't mean leaving, pompom. Though, that'd be nice too. I meant these outfits, the bodies, kinda along with the everything else. I'd love to have fur, a sweatshirt or two, different pairs of gloves, a couple sweatpants, y'know?"
He turned back, reaching over with one of the hands that was wrapped around her to gently pat pomni through her hat.
"Don't you ever get tired of the hat? The outfit? I mean- psh, probably your height too if you asked nice enough."
[She averts her gaze afterwards. She's doing a damn good job at embarrassing herself lately. What is up with her?]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I dunno , I don't really ... think about it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She pauses, questioning to continue on. Eventually, she does.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm gunna sound crazy but — I don't really hate it ? It's nice to not have to think about change . It gets annoying , but I almost prefer it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'd still like you . I doubt a whole lot could deter me from liking you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't answer the second question just out of politeness. If she were honest, she'd probably prefer if he didn't change. It's easier to deal with change, especially spontaneous change. She looks back up at him, somewhat avoiding his eyes directly.]
The bunny smiles.. then he gets a thought, which makes it go from his normal smile to his devious smile once more. He leans in close to Pomni's face, almost uncomfortably close for a normal person.
"I think you're being modest, Pompom. I think you'd totally want me to change to be fluffy. That way, you could have a fluffy bunny boy to sleep on at night~"
[Pomni leans away from Jax, startled by the sudden closeness to her face. She blinks a few times, trying to register the situation. Once she does, her cheeks flush a bright red.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I didn't say anything like that !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
“Ohh but you diiid, you said you’d still like me no matter if I changed or not, but you sounded just that teeensy bit disappointed by the fact I wasn’t fluffy. It’s okay Pom, I understand.”
He moved his head back to leaning against the armrest, still smiling wide. It was all mean to just poke fun at Pomni, he didn’t mean any of it to be mean.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think you're just hearing things .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She rolled her eyes playfully after. The flushness in her cheeks dying down finally. She looks around her, her eyes never seeming to stay in one place for very long, until Jax mumbled something, and she didn't quite catch it.]
"Huh? N- Nothing! Nothin, Pompom. Are you starting to hear things?"
Jax watched her eyes flick around, until landing back onto him as he spoke, where then he would move his hand from the top of her hat down to the side of her face, gently holding it. His smile would close, only leaving a thin line of a content looking bunny
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Maybe , we're just going crazy together .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She leans her head into his palm, closing her eyes shortly after. She never realized how much she missed this, gentle touch rather than being prodded and pulled like a toy.]
"That'd be funny, us going insane at the same time. People would say that's fate or something. Not me, nah, there's no fate to be found here.. just the decisions we make for ourselves."
A hue of pink would rise to Jax's cheeks as he felt the jester push into his hand, giving him some slight panic. He only NOW realizes the situation he's in, the jester laying on him, being comfortable around him of all people in the circus.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think there's a little fate in everything ...》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods and burrows her head impossibly further into Jax's hand. As calm as she seems, there's a slight panic in her mind, a fear that he'll pull away and she'll never get this again with him. Her hand snakes it's way around his wrist, keeping him in place. Her grip is still loose, so he could pull away if he wanted. It's quite a futile attempt.]
The rabbit's digital heart started to race, seeing how close and clingy she was getting. He didn't know what to do, but he didn't want to upset her though.. so he pulled the jester further up on his chest, his grappled hand moving to interlock his gloved with hers, holding on tighter with the hand that was still laid across her back.
He almost knew what was coming.. but he wasn't going to spill his soul first.
[She tilts her head up off his hand after their fingers interlock. She looks over at it before looking back up at him, then her gaze darts away as the same red flush creeps itself back onto her face. She hadn't registered the hand on her back until he pulls her up, letting out a small squeak in response.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Ah — um ... sorry .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She seems to be avoiding spilling her heart out as much as he is.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I do . It felt like to talk to you without you bullying me .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't seem to bring up the argument, but it definitely hasn't slipped her mind. She remembers it like it was yesterday, it's practically drilled into her brain. The fact he wouldn't care, that he'd just move on like everybody else eventually would... It makes her stomach churn. But she doesn't mention it.]
Jax took another breath and close his eyes, before leaning up to Pomni’s face and placing a gentle kiss upon her lips. He kept his composure well, despite his hands shaking slightly as he leans back onto the armrest.
You could barely tell the difference between his and Evil Jax’s face with how flushed he is.
[Pomni's eyes somehow widen even further. The kiss startles her, and she almost pulls away. Almost. Instead, she melts into the kiss as Jax melts into the sofa. Her face flushed an impossible shade of red, she looks like a tomato. She eventually pulls back for air, blinking rapidly a few times.]
[Until she suddenly pushed herself off of the couch, standing awkwardly beside it instead. She almost looked ready to run away, but something held her in place.]
"Wh- Wow what, Pom? That I said 'sorry' for once? I don't know if you've noticed but.. I've changed. Hopefully for the better, but it's not up to me to put that verdict down. What do you think, Pompom?"
Jax turns to look at the jester, leaning back into the couch of the main commons area.
"That's good. I'm.. glad. I mean it, by the way. I regret all the mean stuff I said, especially when I had that- let's just call it a breakdown, at the end of the gun adventure. I wouldn't forget about you, and I definitely wouldn't be able to just move on."
He chuckles, and takes a deep breath before slightly smiling. It's clear that he's thinking about something still, and this sudden apology begs a question. What happened to him to make him like this?
[Pomni listens carefully to Jax's words, trying to find a hole in his message, anything to grasp why. It's all rather sudden. Maybe after everything that's happened, he just feels the need to? But even that explanation doesn't feel right. And Pomni is horrible at hiding her curiosity.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , I get it . I couldn't stop thinkjng about you either , just got all worried , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She laughs humorlessly at her stumbling speech.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《So ... What warranted the change ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"The change- Oh, MY change. It's uh, kinda a funny story, actually. Well, one you might find funny. It was during that awards show that Caine hosted right after the gun adventure, remember? I was.. kinda far away from the stage, and from you and Ragatha. I saw you left a spot open for me- I probably made you bad that I never moved up to it."
Jax looked back down, slightly fiddling with his gloves
"B- but that's not why, no no. It was a little later. Something finally gotten into my head that I needed to get out, away from the noise.. away from you.."
[She listens intently and sincerely as if she cares because truly, she does. She cares for everyone in this shitshow of a circus. It'd be difficult not to sympathize with the same few people you're stuck around all the time or at least it is for Pomni.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《It was kinda loud in there , so I don't blame you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods as she speaks, stopping abruptly, assuming Jax would continue on.]
“That wasn’t the only reason. My chest felt heavy, I couldn’t keep still, I- I didn’t know what was coming over me, so I rushed into the bathroom and turned the sink on to block out the noise. Didn’t help. Tried to do some calming breathing, instantly backfired and started hyperventilating. Nothing was helping.”
His paw would start tapping, not exactly quick, but slightly audible against the stale carpet under them.
“I.. was having a panic attack. Because I have horrible trust issues, and the last person in the circus who got close to me.. abstracted..”
[Pomni's sincere expression turned sour rather quickly. Her expression faltering as she begins to stare at Jax in worry. Her hand twitching beside her, debating on what to do. She's not exactly keen on how to comfort someone especially in a setting like this.]
[Instead of verbally comforting him, she wraps her arms around him. Her hug is tight enough to be comforting, but loose enough that if he's uncomfortable he can move away.]
The few seconds of silence started to worry him, so he was about to turn to Pomni.
“Pompo-?”
Until he was hugged by the jester, completely halting his thought process. His leg stopped, and he thought he was going to have a repeat reaction to Pomni hugging him.. until his arms wrapped around her as well, pulling her close to himself.
[Pomni honestly thought he'd have a repulsive reaction to her hugging him, so she definitely didn't expect to be pulled closer. It felt strangely nice to have the hug returned by warm, smooth hands. She subconsciously melted into the hug once it's returned to her.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You don't have to suffer alone , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She sounds so matter-of-fact, it's hard to disagree, but it's really not as easy as she makes it sound.]
"I.. know, Pomni. But it's not that simple. And- I haven't even finished my story yet."
He let his grip loosen around Pomni, but not so much to completely let her slip away
"Eventually It passed, and I was left alone with just my thoughts. I looked at myself in the mirror, and told myself: 'you look stupid'. Cause I did. Afterwards though, I had a moment of clarity. What's my problem? I don't let anyone get close to me, like Ribbit, just to see them.. turn into that. So I put on a mean personality, be abrasive, mess with everyone so that no one wants to get close to me."
[Pomni's hold never loosens. If Jax doesn't let her go, she probably won't move. She does try to tilt her head to look up at him, but she's too short to actually be able to see his face clearly, so she gives up on trying.]
[She lets out a short, breathy laugh when he calls himself stupid. She doubts that he actually did, but with how blunt he sounded, it was just a bit funny.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm not easily deterred by personality traits . You are no expection to that .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
He lets out a little laugh as well, gently placing his hand on top of her hat, making the bells jingle a little.
"I know. That's why I hung around you so much. I kinda knew you saw through my whole thing.. I think when I was finally staring at myself in that mirror, I realized. Why do I want to be the bad guy. I don't want to be the one that causes someone to.. y'know.."
Jax suddenly pulled pomni in again close, looking down to her.
[Pomni tenses up slightly at the sudden touch to her head, but her shoulders slack quickly after. A smile crossing her face again as she's pulled closer, tightening her grip on Jax and laying her head on his chest (kind of, she's a bit short).]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You're not exactly good at hiding it either .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[Her brows furrowed "fakest idgafer", a bit confused on what it means. She mentally shrugs it off, she'll ask Zooble later. Though her heart seems to swell when he mentions that he does care for her... she'll deal with that later.]
[She didn't realize her struggle was that prominent, a faint blush creeping onto her face from embarrassment. Her hands fly off from around Jax, and she laughs awkwardly.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , that'd probably be better than ... y'know , dealing with being short .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
Jax's smile went WIDE, as it only shows when he gets a particularly mischievous idea.
"Well, there's a solution for that, pompom!"
The rabbit picked the jester up with a firm hug around her, and walked over to the purple couch he was laying on earlier with her in his arms. He made sure to lay back down carefully, even though he couldn't really hurt her. He rested her on his chest while he melted into the couch.
[Pomni quirked a brow as Jax spoke of a solution. Though she couldn't particularly see his expression, she could feel the mischief radiating off of him. She just suspiciously hums in response to his mischief.]
[She squeaks when suddenly picked up. She knew she was light but not that light. As soon as she thinks about kicking her feet to get Jax to put her down, she's plopped onto the couch with Jax. It eases her earlier discomfort as she buries her face into his chest.]
"Heyyy, c'mon! You know I wish I was! So many other jaxs out there being actually furry 'n.. I'm stuck with this damn rubbery ass skin.."
Jax grumbles and turns his head down off to the side, his ears following along as they droop towards where he's leaning to as well. Might've touched a nerve there, Pomni.
"I don't wanna be stuck like.. this forever.. you probably don't either, do you, pom?"
[Whoops, she didn't realize how sore that spot was. She'd tried to quickly think of something to say to not ruin this moment. She always felt on edge around him, having the tip-toe around.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Hey , it just means your special !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She wanted to choke the words back in the moment she spoke them. She hoped that Jax would ignore it if she continued on.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《No , I really don't . But it feels almost useless to try and leave .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"You thought I meant- Ah, hah.. No, no, I didn't mean leaving, pompom. Though, that'd be nice too. I meant these outfits, the bodies, kinda along with the everything else. I'd love to have fur, a sweatshirt or two, different pairs of gloves, a couple sweatpants, y'know?"
He turned back, reaching over with one of the hands that was wrapped around her to gently pat pomni through her hat.
"Don't you ever get tired of the hat? The outfit? I mean- psh, probably your height too if you asked nice enough."
[She averts her gaze afterwards. She's doing a damn good job at embarrassing herself lately. What is up with her?]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I dunno , I don't really ... think about it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She pauses, questioning to continue on. Eventually, she does.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm gunna sound crazy but — I don't really hate it ? It's nice to not have to think about change . It gets annoying , but I almost prefer it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'd still like you . I doubt a whole lot could deter me from liking you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't answer the second question just out of politeness. If she were honest, she'd probably prefer if he didn't change. It's easier to deal with change, especially spontaneous change. She looks back up at him, somewhat avoiding his eyes directly.]
The bunny smiles.. then he gets a thought, which makes it go from his normal smile to his devious smile once more. He leans in close to Pomni's face, almost uncomfortably close for a normal person.
"I think you're being modest, Pompom. I think you'd totally want me to change to be fluffy. That way, you could have a fluffy bunny boy to sleep on at night~"
[Pomni leans away from Jax, startled by the sudden closeness to her face. She blinks a few times, trying to register the situation. Once she does, her cheeks flush a bright red.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I didn't say anything like that !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
“Ohh but you diiid, you said you’d still like me no matter if I changed or not, but you sounded just that teeensy bit disappointed by the fact I wasn’t fluffy. It’s okay Pom, I understand.”
He moved his head back to leaning against the armrest, still smiling wide. It was all mean to just poke fun at Pomni, he didn’t mean any of it to be mean.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think you're just hearing things .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She rolled her eyes playfully after. The flushness in her cheeks dying down finally. She looks around her, her eyes never seeming to stay in one place for very long, until Jax mumbled something, and she didn't quite catch it.]
"Huh? N- Nothing! Nothin, Pompom. Are you starting to hear things?"
Jax watched her eyes flick around, until landing back onto him as he spoke, where then he would move his hand from the top of her hat down to the side of her face, gently holding it. His smile would close, only leaving a thin line of a content looking bunny
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Maybe , we're just going crazy together .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She leans her head into his palm, closing her eyes shortly after. She never realized how much she missed this, gentle touch rather than being prodded and pulled like a toy.]
"That'd be funny, us going insane at the same time. People would say that's fate or something. Not me, nah, there's no fate to be found here.. just the decisions we make for ourselves."
A hue of pink would rise to Jax's cheeks as he felt the jester push into his hand, giving him some slight panic. He only NOW realizes the situation he's in, the jester laying on him, being comfortable around him of all people in the circus.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think there's a little fate in everything ...》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods and burrows her head impossibly further into Jax's hand. As calm as she seems, there's a slight panic in her mind, a fear that he'll pull away and she'll never get this again with him. Her hand snakes it's way around his wrist, keeping him in place. Her grip is still loose, so he could pull away if he wanted. It's quite a futile attempt.]
The rabbit's digital heart started to race, seeing how close and clingy she was getting. He didn't know what to do, but he didn't want to upset her though.. so he pulled the jester further up on his chest, his grappled hand moving to interlock his gloved with hers, holding on tighter with the hand that was still laid across her back.
He almost knew what was coming.. but he wasn't going to spill his soul first.
[She tilts her head up off his hand after their fingers interlock. She looks over at it before looking back up at him, then her gaze darts away as the same red flush creeps itself back onto her face. She hadn't registered the hand on her back until he pulls her up, letting out a small squeak in response.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Ah — um ... sorry .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She seems to be avoiding spilling her heart out as much as he is.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I do . It felt like to talk to you without you bullying me .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't seem to bring up the argument, but it definitely hasn't slipped her mind. She remembers it like it was yesterday, it's practically drilled into her brain. The fact he wouldn't care, that he'd just move on like everybody else eventually would... It makes her stomach churn. But she doesn't mention it.]
"Wh- Wow what, Pom? That I said 'sorry' for once? I don't know if you've noticed but.. I've changed. Hopefully for the better, but it's not up to me to put that verdict down. What do you think, Pompom?"
Jax turns to look at the jester, leaning back into the couch of the main commons area.
"That's good. I'm.. glad. I mean it, by the way. I regret all the mean stuff I said, especially when I had that- let's just call it a breakdown, at the end of the gun adventure. I wouldn't forget about you, and I definitely wouldn't be able to just move on."
He chuckles, and takes a deep breath before slightly smiling. It's clear that he's thinking about something still, and this sudden apology begs a question. What happened to him to make him like this?
[Pomni listens carefully to Jax's words, trying to find a hole in his message, anything to grasp why. It's all rather sudden. Maybe after everything that's happened, he just feels the need to? But even that explanation doesn't feel right. And Pomni is horrible at hiding her curiosity.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , I get it . I couldn't stop thinkjng about you either , just got all worried , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She laughs humorlessly at her stumbling speech.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《So ... What warranted the change ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"The change- Oh, MY change. It's uh, kinda a funny story, actually. Well, one you might find funny. It was during that awards show that Caine hosted right after the gun adventure, remember? I was.. kinda far away from the stage, and from you and Ragatha. I saw you left a spot open for me- I probably made you bad that I never moved up to it."
Jax looked back down, slightly fiddling with his gloves
"B- but that's not why, no no. It was a little later. Something finally gotten into my head that I needed to get out, away from the noise.. away from you.."
[She listens intently and sincerely as if she cares because truly, she does. She cares for everyone in this shitshow of a circus. It'd be difficult not to sympathize with the same few people you're stuck around all the time or at least it is for Pomni.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《It was kinda loud in there , so I don't blame you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods as she speaks, stopping abruptly, assuming Jax would continue on.]
“That wasn’t the only reason. My chest felt heavy, I couldn’t keep still, I- I didn’t know what was coming over me, so I rushed into the bathroom and turned the sink on to block out the noise. Didn’t help. Tried to do some calming breathing, instantly backfired and started hyperventilating. Nothing was helping.”
His paw would start tapping, not exactly quick, but slightly audible against the stale carpet under them.
“I.. was having a panic attack. Because I have horrible trust issues, and the last person in the circus who got close to me.. abstracted..”
[Pomni's sincere expression turned sour rather quickly. Her expression faltering as she begins to stare at Jax in worry. Her hand twitching beside her, debating on what to do. She's not exactly keen on how to comfort someone especially in a setting like this.]
[Instead of verbally comforting him, she wraps her arms around him. Her hug is tight enough to be comforting, but loose enough that if he's uncomfortable he can move away.]
The few seconds of silence started to worry him, so he was about to turn to Pomni.
“Pompo-?”
Until he was hugged by the jester, completely halting his thought process. His leg stopped, and he thought he was going to have a repeat reaction to Pomni hugging him.. until his arms wrapped around her as well, pulling her close to himself.
[Pomni honestly thought he'd have a repulsive reaction to her hugging him, so she definitely didn't expect to be pulled closer. It felt strangely nice to have the hug returned by warm, smooth hands. She subconsciously melted into the hug once it's returned to her.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You don't have to suffer alone , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She sounds so matter-of-fact, it's hard to disagree, but it's really not as easy as she makes it sound.]
"I.. know, Pomni. But it's not that simple. And- I haven't even finished my story yet."
He let his grip loosen around Pomni, but not so much to completely let her slip away
"Eventually It passed, and I was left alone with just my thoughts. I looked at myself in the mirror, and told myself: 'you look stupid'. Cause I did. Afterwards though, I had a moment of clarity. What's my problem? I don't let anyone get close to me, like Ribbit, just to see them.. turn into that. So I put on a mean personality, be abrasive, mess with everyone so that no one wants to get close to me."
[Pomni's hold never loosens. If Jax doesn't let her go, she probably won't move. She does try to tilt her head to look up at him, but she's too short to actually be able to see his face clearly, so she gives up on trying.]
[She lets out a short, breathy laugh when he calls himself stupid. She doubts that he actually did, but with how blunt he sounded, it was just a bit funny.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm not easily deterred by personality traits . You are no expection to that .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
He lets out a little laugh as well, gently placing his hand on top of her hat, making the bells jingle a little.
"I know. That's why I hung around you so much. I kinda knew you saw through my whole thing.. I think when I was finally staring at myself in that mirror, I realized. Why do I want to be the bad guy. I don't want to be the one that causes someone to.. y'know.."
Jax suddenly pulled pomni in again close, looking down to her.
[Pomni tenses up slightly at the sudden touch to her head, but her shoulders slack quickly after. A smile crossing her face again as she's pulled closer, tightening her grip on Jax and laying her head on his chest (kind of, she's a bit short).]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You're not exactly good at hiding it either .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[Her brows furrowed "fakest idgafer", a bit confused on what it means. She mentally shrugs it off, she'll ask Zooble later. Though her heart seems to swell when he mentions that he does care for her... she'll deal with that later.]
[She didn't realize her struggle was that prominent, a faint blush creeping onto her face from embarrassment. Her hands fly off from around Jax, and she laughs awkwardly.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , that'd probably be better than ... y'know , dealing with being short .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
Jax's smile went WIDE, as it only shows when he gets a particularly mischievous idea.
"Well, there's a solution for that, pompom!"
The rabbit picked the jester up with a firm hug around her, and walked over to the purple couch he was laying on earlier with her in his arms. He made sure to lay back down carefully, even though he couldn't really hurt her. He rested her on his chest while he melted into the couch.
[Pomni quirked a brow as Jax spoke of a solution. Though she couldn't particularly see his expression, she could feel the mischief radiating off of him. She just suspiciously hums in response to his mischief.]
[She squeaks when suddenly picked up. She knew she was light but not that light. As soon as she thinks about kicking her feet to get Jax to put her down, she's plopped onto the couch with Jax. It eases her earlier discomfort as she buries her face into his chest.]
"Heyyy, c'mon! You know I wish I was! So many other jaxs out there being actually furry 'n.. I'm stuck with this damn rubbery ass skin.."
Jax grumbles and turns his head down off to the side, his ears following along as they droop towards where he's leaning to as well. Might've touched a nerve there, Pomni.
"I don't wanna be stuck like.. this forever.. you probably don't either, do you, pom?"
[Whoops, she didn't realize how sore that spot was. She'd tried to quickly think of something to say to not ruin this moment. She always felt on edge around him, having the tip-toe around.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Hey , it just means your special !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She wanted to choke the words back in the moment she spoke them. She hoped that Jax would ignore it if she continued on.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《No , I really don't . But it feels almost useless to try and leave .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"You thought I meant- Ah, hah.. No, no, I didn't mean leaving, pompom. Though, that'd be nice too. I meant these outfits, the bodies, kinda along with the everything else. I'd love to have fur, a sweatshirt or two, different pairs of gloves, a couple sweatpants, y'know?"
He turned back, reaching over with one of the hands that was wrapped around her to gently pat pomni through her hat.
"Don't you ever get tired of the hat? The outfit? I mean- psh, probably your height too if you asked nice enough."
[She averts her gaze afterwards. She's doing a damn good job at embarrassing herself lately. What is up with her?]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I dunno , I don't really ... think about it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She pauses, questioning to continue on. Eventually, she does.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm gunna sound crazy but — I don't really hate it ? It's nice to not have to think about change . It gets annoying , but I almost prefer it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'd still like you . I doubt a whole lot could deter me from liking you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't answer the second question just out of politeness. If she were honest, she'd probably prefer if he didn't change. It's easier to deal with change, especially spontaneous change. She looks back up at him, somewhat avoiding his eyes directly.]
The bunny smiles.. then he gets a thought, which makes it go from his normal smile to his devious smile once more. He leans in close to Pomni's face, almost uncomfortably close for a normal person.
"I think you're being modest, Pompom. I think you'd totally want me to change to be fluffy. That way, you could have a fluffy bunny boy to sleep on at night~"
[Pomni leans away from Jax, startled by the sudden closeness to her face. She blinks a few times, trying to register the situation. Once she does, her cheeks flush a bright red.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I didn't say anything like that !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
“Ohh but you diiid, you said you’d still like me no matter if I changed or not, but you sounded just that teeensy bit disappointed by the fact I wasn’t fluffy. It’s okay Pom, I understand.”
He moved his head back to leaning against the armrest, still smiling wide. It was all mean to just poke fun at Pomni, he didn’t mean any of it to be mean.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think you're just hearing things .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She rolled her eyes playfully after. The flushness in her cheeks dying down finally. She looks around her, her eyes never seeming to stay in one place for very long, until Jax mumbled something, and she didn't quite catch it.]
"Huh? N- Nothing! Nothin, Pompom. Are you starting to hear things?"
Jax watched her eyes flick around, until landing back onto him as he spoke, where then he would move his hand from the top of her hat down to the side of her face, gently holding it. His smile would close, only leaving a thin line of a content looking bunny
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Maybe , we're just going crazy together .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She leans her head into his palm, closing her eyes shortly after. She never realized how much she missed this, gentle touch rather than being prodded and pulled like a toy.]
"That'd be funny, us going insane at the same time. People would say that's fate or something. Not me, nah, there's no fate to be found here.. just the decisions we make for ourselves."
A hue of pink would rise to Jax's cheeks as he felt the jester push into his hand, giving him some slight panic. He only NOW realizes the situation he's in, the jester laying on him, being comfortable around him of all people in the circus.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think there's a little fate in everything ...》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods and burrows her head impossibly further into Jax's hand. As calm as she seems, there's a slight panic in her mind, a fear that he'll pull away and she'll never get this again with him. Her hand snakes it's way around his wrist, keeping him in place. Her grip is still loose, so he could pull away if he wanted. It's quite a futile attempt.]
The rabbit's digital heart started to race, seeing how close and clingy she was getting. He didn't know what to do, but he didn't want to upset her though.. so he pulled the jester further up on his chest, his grappled hand moving to interlock his gloved with hers, holding on tighter with the hand that was still laid across her back.
He almost knew what was coming.. but he wasn't going to spill his soul first.
[She tilts her head up off his hand after their fingers interlock. She looks over at it before looking back up at him, then her gaze darts away as the same red flush creeps itself back onto her face. She hadn't registered the hand on her back until he pulls her up, letting out a small squeak in response.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Ah — um ... sorry .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She seems to be avoiding spilling her heart out as much as he is.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I do . It felt like to talk to you without you bullying me .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't seem to bring up the argument, but it definitely hasn't slipped her mind. She remembers it like it was yesterday, it's practically drilled into her brain. The fact he wouldn't care, that he'd just move on like everybody else eventually would... It makes her stomach churn. But she doesn't mention it.]
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"Wh- Wow what, Pom? That I said 'sorry' for once? I don't know if you've noticed but.. I've changed. Hopefully for the better, but it's not up to me to put that verdict down. What do you think, Pompom?"
Jax turns to look at the jester, leaning back into the couch of the main commons area.
"That's good. I'm.. glad. I mean it, by the way. I regret all the mean stuff I said, especially when I had that- let's just call it a breakdown, at the end of the gun adventure. I wouldn't forget about you, and I definitely wouldn't be able to just move on."
He chuckles, and takes a deep breath before slightly smiling. It's clear that he's thinking about something still, and this sudden apology begs a question. What happened to him to make him like this?
[Pomni listens carefully to Jax's words, trying to find a hole in his message, anything to grasp why. It's all rather sudden. Maybe after everything that's happened, he just feels the need to? But even that explanation doesn't feel right. And Pomni is horrible at hiding her curiosity.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , I get it . I couldn't stop thinkjng about you either , just got all worried , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She laughs humorlessly at her stumbling speech.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《So ... What warranted the change ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"The change- Oh, MY change. It's uh, kinda a funny story, actually. Well, one you might find funny. It was during that awards show that Caine hosted right after the gun adventure, remember? I was.. kinda far away from the stage, and from you and Ragatha. I saw you left a spot open for me- I probably made you bad that I never moved up to it."
Jax looked back down, slightly fiddling with his gloves
"B- but that's not why, no no. It was a little later. Something finally gotten into my head that I needed to get out, away from the noise.. away from you.."
[She listens intently and sincerely as if she cares because truly, she does. She cares for everyone in this shitshow of a circus. It'd be difficult not to sympathize with the same few people you're stuck around all the time or at least it is for Pomni.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《It was kinda loud in there , so I don't blame you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods as she speaks, stopping abruptly, assuming Jax would continue on.]
“That wasn’t the only reason. My chest felt heavy, I couldn’t keep still, I- I didn’t know what was coming over me, so I rushed into the bathroom and turned the sink on to block out the noise. Didn’t help. Tried to do some calming breathing, instantly backfired and started hyperventilating. Nothing was helping.”
His paw would start tapping, not exactly quick, but slightly audible against the stale carpet under them.
“I.. was having a panic attack. Because I have horrible trust issues, and the last person in the circus who got close to me.. abstracted..”
[Pomni's sincere expression turned sour rather quickly. Her expression faltering as she begins to stare at Jax in worry. Her hand twitching beside her, debating on what to do. She's not exactly keen on how to comfort someone especially in a setting like this.]
[Instead of verbally comforting him, she wraps her arms around him. Her hug is tight enough to be comforting, but loose enough that if he's uncomfortable he can move away.]
The few seconds of silence started to worry him, so he was about to turn to Pomni.
“Pompo-?”
Until he was hugged by the jester, completely halting his thought process. His leg stopped, and he thought he was going to have a repeat reaction to Pomni hugging him.. until his arms wrapped around her as well, pulling her close to himself.
[Pomni honestly thought he'd have a repulsive reaction to her hugging him, so she definitely didn't expect to be pulled closer. It felt strangely nice to have the hug returned by warm, smooth hands. She subconsciously melted into the hug once it's returned to her.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You don't have to suffer alone , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She sounds so matter-of-fact, it's hard to disagree, but it's really not as easy as she makes it sound.]
"I.. know, Pomni. But it's not that simple. And- I haven't even finished my story yet."
He let his grip loosen around Pomni, but not so much to completely let her slip away
"Eventually It passed, and I was left alone with just my thoughts. I looked at myself in the mirror, and told myself: 'you look stupid'. Cause I did. Afterwards though, I had a moment of clarity. What's my problem? I don't let anyone get close to me, like Ribbit, just to see them.. turn into that. So I put on a mean personality, be abrasive, mess with everyone so that no one wants to get close to me."
[Pomni's hold never loosens. If Jax doesn't let her go, she probably won't move. She does try to tilt her head to look up at him, but she's too short to actually be able to see his face clearly, so she gives up on trying.]
[She lets out a short, breathy laugh when he calls himself stupid. She doubts that he actually did, but with how blunt he sounded, it was just a bit funny.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm not easily deterred by personality traits . You are no expection to that .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
He lets out a little laugh as well, gently placing his hand on top of her hat, making the bells jingle a little.
"I know. That's why I hung around you so much. I kinda knew you saw through my whole thing.. I think when I was finally staring at myself in that mirror, I realized. Why do I want to be the bad guy. I don't want to be the one that causes someone to.. y'know.."
Jax suddenly pulled pomni in again close, looking down to her.
[Pomni tenses up slightly at the sudden touch to her head, but her shoulders slack quickly after. A smile crossing her face again as she's pulled closer, tightening her grip on Jax and laying her head on his chest (kind of, she's a bit short).]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You're not exactly good at hiding it either .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[Her brows furrowed "fakest idgafer", a bit confused on what it means. She mentally shrugs it off, she'll ask Zooble later. Though her heart seems to swell when he mentions that he does care for her... she'll deal with that later.]
[She didn't realize her struggle was that prominent, a faint blush creeping onto her face from embarrassment. Her hands fly off from around Jax, and she laughs awkwardly.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , that'd probably be better than ... y'know , dealing with being short .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
Jax's smile went WIDE, as it only shows when he gets a particularly mischievous idea.
"Well, there's a solution for that, pompom!"
The rabbit picked the jester up with a firm hug around her, and walked over to the purple couch he was laying on earlier with her in his arms. He made sure to lay back down carefully, even though he couldn't really hurt her. He rested her on his chest while he melted into the couch.
[Pomni quirked a brow as Jax spoke of a solution. Though she couldn't particularly see his expression, she could feel the mischief radiating off of him. She just suspiciously hums in response to his mischief.]
[She squeaks when suddenly picked up. She knew she was light but not that light. As soon as she thinks about kicking her feet to get Jax to put her down, she's plopped onto the couch with Jax. It eases her earlier discomfort as she buries her face into his chest.]
"Heyyy, c'mon! You know I wish I was! So many other jaxs out there being actually furry 'n.. I'm stuck with this damn rubbery ass skin.."
Jax grumbles and turns his head down off to the side, his ears following along as they droop towards where he's leaning to as well. Might've touched a nerve there, Pomni.
"I don't wanna be stuck like.. this forever.. you probably don't either, do you, pom?"
[Whoops, she didn't realize how sore that spot was. She'd tried to quickly think of something to say to not ruin this moment. She always felt on edge around him, having the tip-toe around.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Hey , it just means your special !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She wanted to choke the words back in the moment she spoke them. She hoped that Jax would ignore it if she continued on.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《No , I really don't . But it feels almost useless to try and leave .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"You thought I meant- Ah, hah.. No, no, I didn't mean leaving, pompom. Though, that'd be nice too. I meant these outfits, the bodies, kinda along with the everything else. I'd love to have fur, a sweatshirt or two, different pairs of gloves, a couple sweatpants, y'know?"
He turned back, reaching over with one of the hands that was wrapped around her to gently pat pomni through her hat.
"Don't you ever get tired of the hat? The outfit? I mean- psh, probably your height too if you asked nice enough."
[She averts her gaze afterwards. She's doing a damn good job at embarrassing herself lately. What is up with her?]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I dunno , I don't really ... think about it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She pauses, questioning to continue on. Eventually, she does.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm gunna sound crazy but — I don't really hate it ? It's nice to not have to think about change . It gets annoying , but I almost prefer it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'd still like you . I doubt a whole lot could deter me from liking you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't answer the second question just out of politeness. If she were honest, she'd probably prefer if he didn't change. It's easier to deal with change, especially spontaneous change. She looks back up at him, somewhat avoiding his eyes directly.]
The bunny smiles.. then he gets a thought, which makes it go from his normal smile to his devious smile once more. He leans in close to Pomni's face, almost uncomfortably close for a normal person.
"I think you're being modest, Pompom. I think you'd totally want me to change to be fluffy. That way, you could have a fluffy bunny boy to sleep on at night~"
[Pomni leans away from Jax, startled by the sudden closeness to her face. She blinks a few times, trying to register the situation. Once she does, her cheeks flush a bright red.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I didn't say anything like that !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
“Ohh but you diiid, you said you’d still like me no matter if I changed or not, but you sounded just that teeensy bit disappointed by the fact I wasn’t fluffy. It’s okay Pom, I understand.”
He moved his head back to leaning against the armrest, still smiling wide. It was all mean to just poke fun at Pomni, he didn’t mean any of it to be mean.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think you're just hearing things .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She rolled her eyes playfully after. The flushness in her cheeks dying down finally. She looks around her, her eyes never seeming to stay in one place for very long, until Jax mumbled something, and she didn't quite catch it.]
"Huh? N- Nothing! Nothin, Pompom. Are you starting to hear things?"
Jax watched her eyes flick around, until landing back onto him as he spoke, where then he would move his hand from the top of her hat down to the side of her face, gently holding it. His smile would close, only leaving a thin line of a content looking bunny
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Maybe , we're just going crazy together .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She leans her head into his palm, closing her eyes shortly after. She never realized how much she missed this, gentle touch rather than being prodded and pulled like a toy.]
"That'd be funny, us going insane at the same time. People would say that's fate or something. Not me, nah, there's no fate to be found here.. just the decisions we make for ourselves."
A hue of pink would rise to Jax's cheeks as he felt the jester push into his hand, giving him some slight panic. He only NOW realizes the situation he's in, the jester laying on him, being comfortable around him of all people in the circus.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think there's a little fate in everything ...》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods and burrows her head impossibly further into Jax's hand. As calm as she seems, there's a slight panic in her mind, a fear that he'll pull away and she'll never get this again with him. Her hand snakes it's way around his wrist, keeping him in place. Her grip is still loose, so he could pull away if he wanted. It's quite a futile attempt.]
The rabbit's digital heart started to race, seeing how close and clingy she was getting. He didn't know what to do, but he didn't want to upset her though.. so he pulled the jester further up on his chest, his grappled hand moving to interlock his gloved with hers, holding on tighter with the hand that was still laid across her back.
He almost knew what was coming.. but he wasn't going to spill his soul first.
[She tilts her head up off his hand after their fingers interlock. She looks over at it before looking back up at him, then her gaze darts away as the same red flush creeps itself back onto her face. She hadn't registered the hand on her back until he pulls her up, letting out a small squeak in response.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Ah — um ... sorry .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She seems to be avoiding spilling her heart out as much as he is.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I do . It felt like to talk to you without you bullying me .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't seem to bring up the argument, but it definitely hasn't slipped her mind. She remembers it like it was yesterday, it's practically drilled into her brain. The fact he wouldn't care, that he'd just move on like everybody else eventually would... It makes her stomach churn. But she doesn't mention it.]
"Wh- Wow what, Pom? That I said 'sorry' for once? I don't know if you've noticed but.. I've changed. Hopefully for the better, but it's not up to me to put that verdict down. What do you think, Pompom?"
Jax turns to look at the jester, leaning back into the couch of the main commons area.
"That's good. I'm.. glad. I mean it, by the way. I regret all the mean stuff I said, especially when I had that- let's just call it a breakdown, at the end of the gun adventure. I wouldn't forget about you, and I definitely wouldn't be able to just move on."
He chuckles, and takes a deep breath before slightly smiling. It's clear that he's thinking about something still, and this sudden apology begs a question. What happened to him to make him like this?
[Pomni listens carefully to Jax's words, trying to find a hole in his message, anything to grasp why. It's all rather sudden. Maybe after everything that's happened, he just feels the need to? But even that explanation doesn't feel right. And Pomni is horrible at hiding her curiosity.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , I get it . I couldn't stop thinkjng about you either , just got all worried , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She laughs humorlessly at her stumbling speech.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《So ... What warranted the change ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"The change- Oh, MY change. It's uh, kinda a funny story, actually. Well, one you might find funny. It was during that awards show that Caine hosted right after the gun adventure, remember? I was.. kinda far away from the stage, and from you and Ragatha. I saw you left a spot open for me- I probably made you bad that I never moved up to it."
Jax looked back down, slightly fiddling with his gloves
"B- but that's not why, no no. It was a little later. Something finally gotten into my head that I needed to get out, away from the noise.. away from you.."
[She listens intently and sincerely as if she cares because truly, she does. She cares for everyone in this shitshow of a circus. It'd be difficult not to sympathize with the same few people you're stuck around all the time or at least it is for Pomni.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《It was kinda loud in there , so I don't blame you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods as she speaks, stopping abruptly, assuming Jax would continue on.]
“That wasn’t the only reason. My chest felt heavy, I couldn’t keep still, I- I didn’t know what was coming over me, so I rushed into the bathroom and turned the sink on to block out the noise. Didn’t help. Tried to do some calming breathing, instantly backfired and started hyperventilating. Nothing was helping.”
His paw would start tapping, not exactly quick, but slightly audible against the stale carpet under them.
“I.. was having a panic attack. Because I have horrible trust issues, and the last person in the circus who got close to me.. abstracted..”
[Pomni's sincere expression turned sour rather quickly. Her expression faltering as she begins to stare at Jax in worry. Her hand twitching beside her, debating on what to do. She's not exactly keen on how to comfort someone especially in a setting like this.]
[Instead of verbally comforting him, she wraps her arms around him. Her hug is tight enough to be comforting, but loose enough that if he's uncomfortable he can move away.]
The few seconds of silence started to worry him, so he was about to turn to Pomni.
“Pompo-?”
Until he was hugged by the jester, completely halting his thought process. His leg stopped, and he thought he was going to have a repeat reaction to Pomni hugging him.. until his arms wrapped around her as well, pulling her close to himself.
[Pomni honestly thought he'd have a repulsive reaction to her hugging him, so she definitely didn't expect to be pulled closer. It felt strangely nice to have the hug returned by warm, smooth hands. She subconsciously melted into the hug once it's returned to her.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You don't have to suffer alone , y'know ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She sounds so matter-of-fact, it's hard to disagree, but it's really not as easy as she makes it sound.]
"I.. know, Pomni. But it's not that simple. And- I haven't even finished my story yet."
He let his grip loosen around Pomni, but not so much to completely let her slip away
"Eventually It passed, and I was left alone with just my thoughts. I looked at myself in the mirror, and told myself: 'you look stupid'. Cause I did. Afterwards though, I had a moment of clarity. What's my problem? I don't let anyone get close to me, like Ribbit, just to see them.. turn into that. So I put on a mean personality, be abrasive, mess with everyone so that no one wants to get close to me."
[Pomni's hold never loosens. If Jax doesn't let her go, she probably won't move. She does try to tilt her head to look up at him, but she's too short to actually be able to see his face clearly, so she gives up on trying.]
[She lets out a short, breathy laugh when he calls himself stupid. She doubts that he actually did, but with how blunt he sounded, it was just a bit funny.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm not easily deterred by personality traits . You are no expection to that .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
He lets out a little laugh as well, gently placing his hand on top of her hat, making the bells jingle a little.
"I know. That's why I hung around you so much. I kinda knew you saw through my whole thing.. I think when I was finally staring at myself in that mirror, I realized. Why do I want to be the bad guy. I don't want to be the one that causes someone to.. y'know.."
Jax suddenly pulled pomni in again close, looking down to her.
[Pomni tenses up slightly at the sudden touch to her head, but her shoulders slack quickly after. A smile crossing her face again as she's pulled closer, tightening her grip on Jax and laying her head on his chest (kind of, she's a bit short).]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《You're not exactly good at hiding it either .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[Her brows furrowed "fakest idgafer", a bit confused on what it means. She mentally shrugs it off, she'll ask Zooble later. Though her heart seems to swell when he mentions that he does care for her... she'll deal with that later.]
[She didn't realize her struggle was that prominent, a faint blush creeping onto her face from embarrassment. Her hands fly off from around Jax, and she laughs awkwardly.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Yeah , that'd probably be better than ... y'know , dealing with being short .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
Jax's smile went WIDE, as it only shows when he gets a particularly mischievous idea.
"Well, there's a solution for that, pompom!"
The rabbit picked the jester up with a firm hug around her, and walked over to the purple couch he was laying on earlier with her in his arms. He made sure to lay back down carefully, even though he couldn't really hurt her. He rested her on his chest while he melted into the couch.
[Pomni quirked a brow as Jax spoke of a solution. Though she couldn't particularly see his expression, she could feel the mischief radiating off of him. She just suspiciously hums in response to his mischief.]
[She squeaks when suddenly picked up. She knew she was light but not that light. As soon as she thinks about kicking her feet to get Jax to put her down, she's plopped onto the couch with Jax. It eases her earlier discomfort as she buries her face into his chest.]
"Heyyy, c'mon! You know I wish I was! So many other jaxs out there being actually furry 'n.. I'm stuck with this damn rubbery ass skin.."
Jax grumbles and turns his head down off to the side, his ears following along as they droop towards where he's leaning to as well. Might've touched a nerve there, Pomni.
"I don't wanna be stuck like.. this forever.. you probably don't either, do you, pom?"
[Whoops, she didn't realize how sore that spot was. She'd tried to quickly think of something to say to not ruin this moment. She always felt on edge around him, having the tip-toe around.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Hey , it just means your special !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She wanted to choke the words back in the moment she spoke them. She hoped that Jax would ignore it if she continued on.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《No , I really don't . But it feels almost useless to try and leave .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
"You thought I meant- Ah, hah.. No, no, I didn't mean leaving, pompom. Though, that'd be nice too. I meant these outfits, the bodies, kinda along with the everything else. I'd love to have fur, a sweatshirt or two, different pairs of gloves, a couple sweatpants, y'know?"
He turned back, reaching over with one of the hands that was wrapped around her to gently pat pomni through her hat.
"Don't you ever get tired of the hat? The outfit? I mean- psh, probably your height too if you asked nice enough."
[She averts her gaze afterwards. She's doing a damn good job at embarrassing herself lately. What is up with her?]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I dunno , I don't really ... think about it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She pauses, questioning to continue on. Eventually, she does.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'm gunna sound crazy but — I don't really hate it ? It's nice to not have to think about change . It gets annoying , but I almost prefer it ?》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I'd still like you . I doubt a whole lot could deter me from liking you .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She doesn't answer the second question just out of politeness. If she were honest, she'd probably prefer if he didn't change. It's easier to deal with change, especially spontaneous change. She looks back up at him, somewhat avoiding his eyes directly.]
The bunny smiles.. then he gets a thought, which makes it go from his normal smile to his devious smile once more. He leans in close to Pomni's face, almost uncomfortably close for a normal person.
"I think you're being modest, Pompom. I think you'd totally want me to change to be fluffy. That way, you could have a fluffy bunny boy to sleep on at night~"
[Pomni leans away from Jax, startled by the sudden closeness to her face. She blinks a few times, trying to register the situation. Once she does, her cheeks flush a bright red.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I didn't say anything like that !》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
“Ohh but you diiid, you said you’d still like me no matter if I changed or not, but you sounded just that teeensy bit disappointed by the fact I wasn’t fluffy. It’s okay Pom, I understand.”
He moved his head back to leaning against the armrest, still smiling wide. It was all mean to just poke fun at Pomni, he didn’t mean any of it to be mean.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think you're just hearing things .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She rolled her eyes playfully after. The flushness in her cheeks dying down finally. She looks around her, her eyes never seeming to stay in one place for very long, until Jax mumbled something, and she didn't quite catch it.]
"Huh? N- Nothing! Nothin, Pompom. Are you starting to hear things?"
Jax watched her eyes flick around, until landing back onto him as he spoke, where then he would move his hand from the top of her hat down to the side of her face, gently holding it. His smile would close, only leaving a thin line of a content looking bunny
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Maybe , we're just going crazy together .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She leans her head into his palm, closing her eyes shortly after. She never realized how much she missed this, gentle touch rather than being prodded and pulled like a toy.]
"That'd be funny, us going insane at the same time. People would say that's fate or something. Not me, nah, there's no fate to be found here.. just the decisions we make for ourselves."
A hue of pink would rise to Jax's cheeks as he felt the jester push into his hand, giving him some slight panic. He only NOW realizes the situation he's in, the jester laying on him, being comfortable around him of all people in the circus.
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《I think there's a little fate in everything ...》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She nods and burrows her head impossibly further into Jax's hand. As calm as she seems, there's a slight panic in her mind, a fear that he'll pull away and she'll never get this again with him. Her hand snakes it's way around his wrist, keeping him in place. Her grip is still loose, so he could pull away if he wanted. It's quite a futile attempt.]
The rabbit's digital heart started to race, seeing how close and clingy she was getting. He didn't know what to do, but he didn't want to upset her though.. so he pulled the jester further up on his chest, his grappled hand moving to interlock his gloved with hers, holding on tighter with the hand that was still laid across her back.
He almost knew what was coming.. but he wasn't going to spill his soul first.
[She tilts her head up off his hand after their fingers interlock. She looks over at it before looking back up at him, then her gaze darts away as the same red flush creeps itself back onto her face. She hadn't registered the hand on her back until he pulls her up, letting out a small squeak in response.]
𝜗˚̣̣̣℘ྀི 《Ah — um ... sorry .》 🎪 །ིྀ 𓈒˚̣̣
[She seems to be avoiding spilling her heart out as much as he is.]