i’m the problem

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I want Ilya to get to a better place with his mental health and finally look back and realize how unfair he was to Shane, and I want him to be horrified when Shane is like "but I deserved it, yeah maybe you were a little hard on me but that's because I wasn't being a good boyfriend," and I want him to hear Irina telling him "Papa is hard on me but it's because he has high expectations." I want Ilya to have a nightmare about the Boxing Day fight where he DID hurt Shane when he shoved him against the wall and have to confront that moment of anger. I want him to scroll through Shane's Instagram, perfectly curated and professional, and see hundreds of hateful comments under even the most benign post and realize that he's been holding onto resentment about Shane not plastering their relationship all over social media now that they can.

I want Shane to tell Hayden to fuck off when he makes another snide comment, and when Ilya expresses his surprise Shane explains that he couldn't risk even more disruption in the room in Montreal when management was already looking for any excuse to get rid of him after he came out, that if he hadn't pulled their miraculous cup run off there would have been a lot of very pointed comments about bringing in new blood and shaking things up, and what would they have done if he'd ended up somewhere further away?

I want Ilya to think about how Hayden hated him and JJ broke Shane's trust and Rose was never around so actually, who DID Shane have to talk about their relationship with, besides his parents?

I want Ilya to catch Shane flinching when one of the guys makes another crack about him not having a leadership position and realize he's been pouring salt in a wound he didn't see for months, and worse, letting the team do it too.

I want Ilya to see the impact that his behavior has had on the man he loves and work on fixing it, instead of spiraling into self loathing or being dismissive.