Words I couldn’t say to you

But you crashed me again,

you’re running in my head again

Fuck

You hurt me, too many times

Trying to think of something

And deleting everything again

your eyes are like star constellations in the sky.

But tonight it doesn’t show

and this time I can’t even cry.

Because all I’m feeling is a heavy emptiness,

without any clearness.

Please take these clouds away,

From a trauma I can’t escape

But I just cut

And keep to escalate.”

Like a huge mess.

Being without you,

And you being this way.

By your side I want to lay.

Can we turn back time,

Just for one last day?”

But all my motivation is gone.

Can’t I just lay,

I’m done.”

I feel

Or what I think

Because everything is empty”

In my old car

Let all the bad thoughts disappear

And dry every tear.”

Crash my head against everything I can find

Let me fall

I don’t wanna be kind”