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Im so so so so so disgusted. This person who has beef with me has lightskin and set their avi to someone with brown skin???? Why are u fishing. A lot of the reason I felt disgusting around you was my brown skin. Like dude ur...light skinned!!! Like white passing! Please stop this? Oh my god

I feel unreal. I feel like I no longer have a place or steady footing, like the world is slowly turning to water around me

I feel a heaviness that's like...I want to die alone in the future softly. I think about how little and fragile mt life is and I imagine it like a butterfly on the chest of the ground. So tiny. Mostly flattened against the road. Wifts fluttering

I dont want to write in a place he can see anymore. I'm thinking I dont want to live anymore. I'm thinking in dying and I don't even want anybody to see anymore. Not that I'm ashamed of it, just that I'm tired. And its not useful anymore to keep begging for help

Wait. I think I just get upset and jealous when bf bonds with other people about something and doesn't bond with me. Bc I get why other people mightve struggled and it doesn't bother me. But when there's any world of intensity I don't share with him....I get upset

Let me set a date, or I'll get upset. I have to write an essay for now, two essays in fact. I will tell him on the 15th that I think I also have adhd

I have autism and adhd. This is the only thing that explains it. I feel like im victim fishing here. As if I cant stand to see someone with a diagnosis I don't have. But. Look, I relate to adhd, and pretending I don't is making me mad. I fucking relate dude. Im both. Its really common to fhckingbbe both. Im autistic and have adhd. Im both. Im internalizing this. I will tell him. Soon, I will tell him, that I have both, and....he will deal with that how he will.

Whats wrong with me? Anytime I hear anyone say anything, disclose anything they dealt with that I haven't dealt with, im always like, I HATE that that didn't happen to me. I'm so fucking ANGRYYY that I can't relate like so fucking anget and upset. Fuckbyoh for having pain I don't have. I want all of it. I deserve all of it. I deserve all the pain in the whole fuckkng world

Anyone remember that tumblr post that was screenshots in pink talking about depression and basically the person with the blurred out black circle pfp was talking about how he believed there could be a cure someday? Can someone link me to that please

Can I please stop being a sick disgusting attention whoee bitch

People are quick to call revenge immature and forgiveness mature... yet a carceral response is societally accepted as just, as mercy, but to hurt someone back is seen as revenge. If someone insulted me its immature to insult them back. Its seen as mature to calmly explain. But wanting revenge is normal. To have everything cleanly explained when you were hurt isn't human. Its colonial to cleanse your revenge. To cancel someone and call it the "right thing to do." Revenge with the awareness that what you're doing is bad is ok,

I dont know how im meant to keep on

I csnt do this anymore. No one misses me everyone's glad I'm gone. I seriously can't live in the false reality of two people loving me so much. When everyone else is healing in my absence. I csnt take it in as real that I could be loved like this