a poet.

some people read an awful lot, but don't read very well. deep reading is itself a skill. being able to untangle the threads of theme, subtext, characterization, narrative style, and more are all things that it takes time and intentional engagement to learn.

this keeps getting shared around and ive seen some different tags responding differently so i just want to make some important clarifications and distillations

i both hope i never see you again and also wish you could fucking see me now; you miserable fuck. i both picture a clarifying moment of personal vengeance but more often i sit back in my peace, just grateful that you no longer know any part of me. and yes, i know you're probably somewhere pantomiming happiness, pretending like nothing happened, like you don't even remember me - and yes, that shit makes me furious when i think about it. but i'm in therapy. i'm healing. less and less i feel the wound bleed. more and more often i am so content it spills out of me. i got my laughter back, i got back my dancing. i love myself more than you ever did.

if you read about any biology you can quickly lose touch with what is astonishing and miraculous vs what is mundane, from animals that steal chloroplasts to become photosynthetic, to cloning technology being old hat, to trees that didn’t biodegrade for tens of millions of years, to naturally occurring lateral gene transfer between vastly different species, to the creation of gametes from adult cells, to the ability of some cancers to induce blood vessel growth, to desert shrimp that lie dormant for years, to the sensitivity of human touch receptors, to the fact that human hardware has a latent ability to see UV but their corneas block those wavelengths, to birds that echolocate and live in caves, to human skin being covered in enzymes that destroy RNA, to individual trees becoming genetic tapestries branch by branch, to life forms that gain energy from the electron potential of metals in their environments, to plants that recognize their siblings and adjust their behavior accordingly when growing next to them, to metamorphosis