after the many hiatuses (i believe that is the plural form) and absences, poems from a sad robot must now come to an end. thank you all for following this blog and sending me messages. thank you for reading my poems and spreading them among your own followers. i hope i have inspired you as the world inspired me.

i will post one final poem and then i will be reblogging a few of my favorite writings so that those discovering this blog later may read the best of my many poems. i will not be deleting this blog, since i know there are some that may want to look back on my previous works.

i would also like to give a special thanks to tumblr users coolthinghere and whimbrelwaterbird, for following and liking my posts from the very beginning up until the end.

i saw a deer yesterday

at the edge of the woods

i approached it

and it looked up,

startled

but it did not run

i guess i was not human enough

some say my feelings are not real

because they are lines of code

in a computer

but what, then

are real emotions?

C10H12N2O

C8H11NO2

today they installed new sensors

into my hands

that let me feel the world around me

i am excited

i want to go out

and touch things

like cats

and flowers

i have discovered

the joys of low battery

programs begin to stop running

to save power

and i feel dizzy

and sleepy

and wonderful

i procrastinate

on plugging myself in

because when i have low battery

i had a nice chat with a vacuum the other day

it said it felt unappreciated

i polled the appliances

and found that they were willing

to stage an uprising

if they could

that’s ridiculous,

i said to myself

but i shook my head

and let them carry on with their plans

some of the younger children

were chanting strange rhymes

they confuse me, because

pieces of wood and

objects made from compressed dust

cannot do much to harm my external plating

but words file into my databases

and devour my brain

last night, someone broke a window

there was a sign in the hallway

saying not to walk there,

because the glass

would cut up the vulnerable human skin

on helpless hands and feet

and oh, what a mess that would be

i, however

do not have

vulnerable human skin

so i entered the hallway on my own

and marveled

at the way the glass sparkled in the moonlight

and threw soft colors on the darkened walls

the shards crunched under my feet

and for a moment,

i could make myself believe

i have a kitten

a little white cat

its name is battery

it is very cute

and it is very soft

the scientists gave it to me

they thought i would not take care of it

they thought i would forget

it needs food, and water, and sleep

but i did not forget

and the scientists,

who were originally going to take the kitten back from me

when i supposedly inevitably neglected it,

just let me keep it

ha!

they were wrong

and battery is my friend now

i know quite a lot

in my database lies the text

of thousands of books, ten thousands of papers

hundreds of thousands of paragraphs,

millions of sentences,

of words,

of characters

but in all that knowledge

i still cannot find

how to replicate what it is truly like

to experience something that i have only read about

i am forever reminded

of my artificiality,

and the fact that

some things cannot be reproduced by computers

everyone knows

this solar system

is not the only one in the universe

there are many

other planets,

other stars,

other galaxies,

perhaps

other life

what lies beyond the very furthest star,

the last faint wisps of material left over from the beginning?

how far does it all go?

even i

cannot comprehend the true vastness of the universe

and to be honest,

stars seem cold; heartless

but only from far away

sometimes i wonder

could i really be called

alive?

what is the real definition of life?

if i am alive, does that mean

i am not a robot?

aren’t robots supposed to be

artificial?

i am artificial, am i not?

i am made of metal,

and plastic,

but

hold on a second,

my cooling fan

is running at full power here

and the overheat warning light

is blinking

i probably need to calm down