C h l o é

A situation that will be of great loss however, one that will propel you into the life your truly deserving of.

“I’m a fool.” She thought, as she stared at Venus shining bright in the evening skies.

Open your mind and embrace the love.

Yes. Predisposed my genetics. A combination of two existing beings. But I get to put meaning to my existence despite not having control over my genetic expression. Maybe it’s a sensitive topic because I am still growing from the aspects in which I have no control. I am my mothers child. But that does not mean that I share the same destiny or predestined will. I am my own individual. I put meaning to my name. And I am careful not to fall into the same holes hidden along the path in which past generations of my family have fallen. Let these generational karmic ties dissipate. Let me put new meaning to my blood and alter my genetics as I continue to reproduce my dna. I have been chosen to break the karmic generational ties of my blood.

I do not owe you an explanation. I am very protective of my energy. I have crawled out of depths below. It has taken time and great amount of strength to rebuild myself. Therefore when it comes to extending my energy, I am consciously aware. I’ll begin to notice similar behaviors, actions in comparison to toxic behaviors. I see these behaviors as repetitive and karmic. I have grown from these aspect in which have caused wounding. However, my wounds are still healing and I will not stand to be subject to such intolerable acts. See I earned my crown the day I scratched the surface.. after numerous times of being kicked while I was down.. thrown back into the darkness. I rise with my sword and protect what I have conquered. 

We were laying down together. As we held one another we drifted into a sleep. I don’t think we knew we were dreaming. It was just as if we continued our aliveness in a different realm. We were just looking at one another. No words just facial expression. I think I did something dorky. It made you laugh. Although your laugh.. I heard it into two different places my head and in my arms. You laughed in your dream but you also laughed in your sleep as I did the same. Then we both woke by the sound of one another’s laugh and laughed about it even more.

Finally, after so long I am ready to accept someone into my space. I am ready to allow someone to consume me. I want to get to know someone. I want to poke and pry into someones mind and know every aspect of them. Just as much as I want to know someone entirely, I want it to be mutual. I wonder how someone can be entirely obsessed with me.. not just the idea of me. How can someone be about me one hundred and be absolutely accepting of every aspect that makes me who I am? My laugh, what sparks my curiosity, my fears, my shadows, what can trigger emotion.. and so much more. I want to learn someone and I am ready to welcome the right person that is meant for me into my life. I am ready to dance with someone. I am ready.