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I started this blog in November of 2011 (I deleted posts a long time ago from then a long time ago). I was 12 years old at that point, getting asked to join tumblr from a friend of mine on stardoll. I joined, thinking it was just a place to share pretty pictures. I slowly but surely gained followers on this blog, after making a few buzzfeed-featured 100k note posts. When I was 12, I remember the main joke of the website was “12.9 years old”, and I never said my age, even after my birthday. I remember someone sent me an ask that said “HAPPY 12TH BIRTHDAY!!” and I just replied “it’s actually my 13th birthday”. From then on, this website had a big impact on me.

When I was 13, I had one of those “pro-ana” blogs. I wasn’t anorexic, but I guess you could say I was bulimic. I was depressed and I cut myself, but I almost feel like it was subconsciously because I reblogged all the content telling me that everything is hopeless. (By the way, “8th grade jenna” is one of the longest running jokes about me. 3 years running.) 

I went through a phase on tumblr where I realized that I wasn’t a girl. I went by some ridiculous nicknames like “mudsocks”. I went by Charlie, J, and some I probably don’t want to remember. I got my hair cut short (a bowlcut, more or less). I started dressing like a “guy”. Mind you, this was a little bit short of when they/them pronouns and various genders floated around tumblr. It made me feel good about myself, because I felt like I belonged in some group.

I went through my weeaboo phase on here. The first anime I ever watched was soul eater, and the second one was ouran high school host club. Madoka Magica and evangelion were my favorite anime shows during my phase (and I still kinda like evangelion, honestly.)

I went through my /mu/ phase too, and i objectively am still in it. i love you, jeff mangum. and you too, jesus christ.