Nova Reset

This isn’t really fankid related or anything, it’s just my thoughts and what I sort of want to say to those who followed this blog for fankid content, to friends I’ve made in the pokemon fankid community etc. I’m probably going to ramble on and maybe repeat stuff since I’m just word-vomitting this but I just wanted to put this out there to whoever is reading.

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I just wanted to say thank you. Thank you for letting me experience the fun it was in creating pokemon fankids and sharing them with everyone all those years ago when it was starting to pick up. It was amazing just getting to know different people and learning about their own pokemon fankids and just bonding over a similar interest.

The time I spent with the pokemon fankid community has been amazing and I don’t regret any of it. I am so grateful to have met the people that I’ve met, and to have befriended the people within the community.

I know I haven’t been keeping up to date with this blog in like, the last few years. As I believe I’ve mentioned before somewhere on this blog, I had to take a hiatus because the passion and motivation I had for creating and talking about my fankids was just lost to me. Like I started to hate it because it was like I had to force myself to keep talking about them when I actually wanted to discuss other stuff, other projects that I picked up and was excited about. And because of that, I haven’t been posting content as much as I did when I first started this blog. A way to take a break so I don’t end up loathing these characters that I care so deeply about. I don’t want to feel that resentment towards these creations or to others.

This isn’t the end for me, this blog, or my fankids. Their stories are definitely not over. I have so many things I want to tell with these characters that it’s way too soon for it to be over. I just don’t know if I can muster up the energy I once had, to continue their pokemon journey. I’m positive their stories will continue elsewhere in the world, in some of my own personal projects. It’s way too soon for me to give up on my characters and I don’t feel right with just abandoning them and their stories. Since last year when I started my film school program (also ended last year but it was also due to covid so it took longer for it to finish), I’ve started to come up with so many ideas and plans and I keep looking back at these characters and I want to be able to use them again, to re-familiarize myself with them and find that passion I lost. And I hope one day I’ll be able to bring them to life in those projects that I have plans for for everyone to enjoy. 

So I’m not even sure if I’ll ever post content again on this blog? Maybe I will, or maybe it’ll just be some musings that I want to share and keep track of since my thoughts are always so jumbled and I tend to forget. But uh, yeah, I think this is honestly, probably, the last post on this blog? But also don’t quote me on that... I’m a hypocrite and may just end up posting something but again, more of a “let me talk myself through my thoughts” kind of way haha.

This is not a good-bye, but more of a see you all soon and please look forward to seeing these kiddos again sometime in the future in a different medium.

Thank you <3 :)

Instead, I'll write a brief tl;dr of what I said in that answer:

but i've been doing nanowrimo for the first time this year and then it got me thinking of a new story idea that's basically taking what I've already covered main timeline wise for my pkmn fankids-verse in addition to the fuckery of what I've written for timeline21

timeline21 is basically the more fucked up dark angst version of main timeline where instead of all the main kiddos (paige isabella, ashley, daniel, damien, chloe, atlas) basically """dying""" and joining the Legendaries after they defeated the BBEG because they made/formed a pact with each Legendaries to give them power/abilities to use to defeat BBEG and then everyone forgetting their existence in order to preserve the knowledge that Legendaries exists and are not myths--timeline21 only has daniel being the sole survivor cuz the Legendaries took pity on him or something idfk and HE'S the only one who remembers his sister and friends and their sacrifice and decides to bring them back no matter the cost, even if it means waging war against the Legendaries and destroying the world to do so

anyway i'm rambling and that's not helping me with getting my thoughts in order

Daniel 9001% without a question of a doubt, has general anxiety with depression and he may or may not also have avoidant personality disorder.

He got diagnosed pretty early on in his life (mostly for GAD) and it was actually around the same time it was confirmed that he has dyslexia. Paul and Dawn were informed of the dyslexia bit but didn't realize about the GAD until they talked to a professional about it. (Dawn and Paul have been amazing with how they approached this and read up so much about it bc they wanna help their darling precious bby boi)

Daniel does take meds for his anxiety and did go to see a psychiatrist for that extra help--back before he left on his epic Pokemon adventure with his older sister and her friends though. Since being on the road, he's only had the meds but he does remember to do some of the cognitive behavioural therapy he learned from his sessions.

The anxiety WITH depression tho came during the Pokemon journey

But Daniel nor his sister or parents really have any confirmation that he has avoidant personality disorder, but Daniel has read up about it (and Chloe too because she likes to do her best to help her buddies so being well informed was the way to go) and went

"oh... maybe... maybe i have this too?"

Sort of hard trying to find a doctor and set up an appointment in order to get a confirmation on that while constantly on the move (especially ones that don't dismiss him and his concerns). So Daniel sort of just left the possibility of having avpd alone. He'll deal with that later because thinking about it was Too Stressful(TM) and this Pokemon journey was already stressful enough like--

hello?????? pokemon can die if they ain't careful?????????? he doesn't want to lose his team?????? he'd cry if that ever happened????????????? oh no he's stressing about it already and is crying now?????? someone give this cinnamon boi a hug?????????

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Paige Isabella would be a Summoner. I did consider Black Mage for her, as well as Reaper--which would be freaking hilarious--but I settled for Summoner because I think it'd be neat to summon different creatures to aid you in fights.

Ashley would be a Dragoon. I would say that I have a detailed reason as to why, but I don't. I'm just biased. Dragoons are hot.

Damien would be a Dancer. I humoured the idea of him being Paladin (since I believe that's what I gave him for the D&D post), but I think Dancer would be fitting because it sort of reminded me of Pokemon Contests and I think I wrote that he's a Pokemon Coordinator.

Chloe would be a Black Mage or Astrologian. I think Black Mage would fit since she's an elemental witch. But Astrologian would also maybe be fitting because Astrologian uses cards to cast spells. But I don't know if Chloe would prefer to be Magic DPS or Healer. I think knowing her, she'd probably prefer to be Magic DPS so Black Mage it is!

Daniel would be a White Mage or a Scholar. Maybe a Scholar because--if I remember correctly, he wanted to be a Pokemon professor or researcher? So maybe he'd be better suited as a Scholar, plus, he'll have a little friend with him to help and I think that's cute.