This is who I am, This is my life.

I miss you so much. You are the only star in my sky..

I'm so exhausted of moving on.... no one can fill the shoes you left behind.

Today was such a hard day. I wish I could come home to you. Being able to do that was the most happy I've ever been. You're personality and heart made me so attracted to you.. the way you cared and understood is quite rare. I'm so sorry I let you down. I miss you everyday. And I think about and get reminded about you constantly. An Ohio bumper sticker here or a red cardinal flying in the sky... I feel you here with me...if only I could speak to you. Just for a moment.

Happy Mothers Day Caryce, I know you're probably thinking about our Lilly today. Just know that I'm here if you need to or want to talk about it. I love you

It's the weekend and all I want to do is cuddle and watch greys with you... I can't seem to get myself to watch it and catch up on everything. I've been thinking about you A lot recently the last few days. It's so hard to not be able to talk. I wish I knew you were alright and happy. It's almost been a full year since we separated.. so weird to think about. I miss you and I love you caryce. Always

Go ahead lie to everyone. Lie to me. Pretend all you want. But I know the truth. I'll be here. You're not fooling anyone not even yourself.

I'm okay, you're okay, everything is okay. You spoke to me. Even though it wasn't something that was very friendly. It still happened. I wonder if I'll ever get the closure I need or if I've already gotten it. All I know is how can I move when I'm still in love with you.. Even with everything happening. I want to be different and when I find someone again I'll take this lesson with me. I'll make sure to never mess up again.

I can't get you outta my mind Caryce. Miss you too the moon and back. Lily too. You're my heros.

Remembering today randomly how we always use to eat at the sheik. We always loved how friendly they were to us and those tasty seasoned fries were bomb. Maybe someday in the future well meet up and get some lunch there again. One could only hope. I hope you're doing okay Caryce.

me, exhausted suddenly: no