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when considering the sexual violence against trans women, it's important to remember that "people only view us sexually" does not mean the same thing as "people only find us attractive". it means "people can only conceptualize of our existence within a sexual light" because that's how the majority of our coverage in media has been tinged in the past century. as a result of the chaste and patriarchal nature of modern capitalism, gender and sexuality are inseparable in much public discourse by virtue of propaganda, and as a result, a trans woman is seen as sexual because efforts towards projecting specifically femininity is only categorized as sexual. and when paired with the uncharitable perception of "man", that propaganda can often evolve how people view us directly into "sexual threat" anywhere, for any reason. i could be in the freezer aisle of costco looking down at the ground while i push my cart and i'd still get dirty looks for wearing a dress (this has happened).

when i say "they're either jerking off or sharpening a knife", i mean we're either viewed sexually, or as sexually threatening, in almost all scenarios.

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previous chapters show very well the ways in which she takes after her father. she's kind, she's funny, she tries to be easy-going, she's able to get along with difficult people. she's drawn to assertive women. while Rudy seems rougher than her on the surface, it's clear he's actually the level-headed one between himself and Carol, and in most circumstances, Noelle tries to be the voice of reason with her friends in a similar way.

in chapter 5, it turns out she also has that hidden iron core that Carol has. I think it's likely she normally hides it on purpose because she's trying so hard to be agreeable and just get through the day, but it's clearly been in there all along. it's somewhat more subtle in the normal route, where she gradually becomes more confident, but in the weird route, her recent traumatic experiences cause her to snap and suddenly change drastically. like her mother, she works hard, she's diligent, and she sticks to her assigned social role, even though none of it seems to be making her happy. she's going through the motions, waiting for something to change. they both miss Dess to the point of stagnation. once Noelle has become distant enough from other people (through leveling up/"becoming strong"), she begins showing the same calculating streak and fierce determination that Carol seems to have. she becomes aggressive, controlling, and overly goal-oriented to the point of scaring her loved ones. when they show distress, she pressures them into following her orders, prioritizing her goals first and foremost, no matter how badly it scars those she cares about. she cracks that same cold, lopsided smile that her mother does (pulling up further on their left sides) when something finally seems to be going her way.

My guy Daniil is gonna have to do this the old fashioned way

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