Being on antidepressants made me realize that it wasn't just the depression. I feel different and not as pathetic but I feel like I've reverted back to when I was a child and constantly angry and exploding at anybody who was in my way.

I dream of people I know doing bad things so that I finally get a reason to hate them. My brain wants me to hate and it's trying to justify it with my dreams.

I have a lot of dreams where I get extremely angry and I try to hit people but my limbs get so weak and I can't. Then I get extremely frustrated and start yelling, then I wake myself up because I was screaming in my sleep. I wake the other people in my house at least once a week.

I want to be more organised so I'm moving all coins to @machinoia

To me, eroticism exists in a completely different realm to sexuality. I am somewhat repulsed by the thought of involving myself in a sexual act. However, a lot of things are erotic to me. They are extreme and intrigue me greatly. I am very entertained by them. While sexual relationships aren't something I desire, I still enjoy the culture and discussions surrounding extreme kinks.