The beneficial cucumber.

Like I mentioned, I plan on starting from scratch on a brand new account, that way I won't feel any sort of pressure to post silly doodles and dumb opinions with all these bots and extinct accounts following me.

So hey, if we've ever interacted in any way, do let me know, in case you're gonna follow my new blog: https://www.tumblr.com/sour-pickl

first of all, i noticed a couple new (real) followers after posting that madama butterfly drawing and i'm really thankful that people seemed to enjoy it, i had fun drawing it and i hope i can whip out more drawings in the near future because i really, really miss it. there's nothing i miss more than feeling passionate about art and pouring lots of time and energy into it and i really wish i had the mental fortitude to do some proper changes in my life that could accommodate that, but alas, adhd and growing up, adult responsibilities truly are a pain in the ass

secondly, i have given up on staying consistent with my interests because again, adhd, i may be active for a week or two, be super excited about drawing and actually post stuff and then suddenly lose all interest for a while because that's just how i work, and I'm trying not to beat myself up over it too much. i'm just hoping that my undying love for drawing will resurface often and strongly enough that it motivates me to actually draw a thing or two and be present because another thing i really miss is interacting with like-minded people who share interests and help me keep the wheels turning

thirdly, i have to study for driving school and it's not going great, i am losing all interest for it and again, my adhd ass prevents me from enjoying literally anything else in the meantime because I know i should be studying but i can't because it's of little interest to me but i also can't engage in anything else because i know studying should take priority so i am basically stuck in limbo for the time being until i figure out how to feel excited about driving school again lol