i just want a special interest

there seems to be a tiny light at the end of the tunnel so wish me luck

so now i have crippling depression, crippling anxiety, urgent work problems, a dream that's most likely dead and to top it all of i got an infection! life is great

i have a splitting headache, a shit ton of work stuff to do, a hovering sense of nothingness and i have to go to my aunts birthday because im pretending everything is ok

bear with me cause i wanna complain but i don't wanna talk with anyone

everything went downhill so fast. i didn't think this would impact everything in my life but it did. it feels like there's an elephant sitting on my chest and nothing makes sense. i fucked up at work and even though i don't particularly care right now it's still giving me anxiety. and i just wanted to feel good about something. anything. i want to feel joy. but i don't want to talk to anyone or do anything.

did you know that if you cry several times a day your eyes hurt constantly? fun fact

i've had depression for a really long time but i think im just now learning what it really means to not fucking care about anything

not to be depressed on main but like what is the point actually

i just want to know how the fuck i got here

financially irresponsible but at least i'm seeing hayley williams in november