koi, read the tags before you keep reading, honey!
did you know i'm scared of driving on bridges above water because of a story my mom told me as a kid that stuck with me?
did you know that i love the look of white clothing but get self-conscious wearing it, especially shirts?
did you know that i'm extremely selective with meat when i eat a meal, and if any part of it suddenly tastes or feels wrong, i feel sick and have to throw it away?
did you know that i love taking care of other people or their pets when they're hurt or sick because i love having the feeling of being needed? did you know that it's because i got told "i love you, but you aren't helping" as a kid, making me feel incapable of doing things that would aid others?
did you know that i hate crying around others, and only do so when i've laughed hard enough or gotten overly happy over something, because i hate the feeling of being worried about?
did you know that i'm not actually as smart in terms of common sense than in academics? history isn't my strong suit, i can't tell you where the states go on a map, i struggle to recall what is and isn't okay to do or say around people...
did you know that i physically struggle with crying because of my own emotional repression, making it hard for me to visualize how i feel in certain situations? i get all sniffly, yeah, but haven't had a good and solid cry since i was a kid.