I've just had a TERRIFIC FUCKING DAY. So for past few months I have been hanging out with my racist annoying ex who is just the worst person I have probably ever met. He hates absolutely everything left or that doesn't fit his fucked up world view. I am obviously bisexual and so is he and I've just picked up on his fucked up worldviews and shit that he believes in. And I became myself a cynical loser trying to fit in with the worst of humanity. I've lost my entire livelihood because I fit in the wrong crowd. My pets, my partner, my friends, my life. All because I've liked the wrong person and trusted him. He did so much illegal shit and he was genuinely hard to be around. Obviously we haven't been dating for 6 months we just stayed friends. But I feel like I shouldn't even gave him one chance let alone 12 chances I gave. He called me slurs and called my problems and the way I live sexual trauma. On which I explained to him my entire childhood to TRY TO GET HIM TO UNDERSTAN WHY I AM LIKE I AM. He dismissed it and gave a misogynistic remark. Cuz I am a woman and he is a man. I felt uncomfortable and called him out on his bullshit. On which he just continued saying stupid shit. At the end we ended it up on me bringing up him wanting to make me kill myself. When all of his friends heard that he felt embarrassed and started saying he will go play a video game. I've wasted my entire life on a person who is a pervert, drug addict, abuser and a na*i. I don't know why I continued giving him chances time after time after time after time. I shouldn't even have contacted him after I called police on him. But I fucking did. He is an insult to society and actual philosophers. He is a mentally ill manchild who jerks off in his shitty room and talks in discord voice calls for hours instead of going out with his friends. He called me a ltb in blackpill standards and ugly in general, while he looks like fat crusty hobo. Bitch I have perfect facial structure unlike your balding ass head. Anyway rant over, he will probably end up in jail some day for hanging out with people who do bomb threats. I will try to recover myself and become a better human being who has more self respect for herself and I will try to find a better partner and a friend. This wasn't for me and I am happy that I fucked his day up and left the friend group Luna out!
