CYBERPUNK ALTERNATIVE PARTIE 78
October 7th, 2077 â 7:30 PM
(V finds a spot overlooking the city. He needs a moment to sort through his thoughts. Right now, only one name comes to mind: Panam.)
âIâm gonna take five minutes to clear my head⊠and record a few words for you. Just in case.â
(V takes a deep breath, lets out a soft sigh, then falls silent.)
âHey, Panam⊠I needed to talk for a bit.â
âI donât know how things are where you are. I donât even know if any of this mess affects you or not. But hereâŠâ
âI feel like all this shit happened because of me. A selfish quest to try and fill that void.â
âTo save myself from that goddamn feeling of losing another brother. So I charged in headfirst.â
âLike always. Without thinking about the consequences.â
âYou knew from the beginning that I was heading down the wrong path. And I didnât listen.â
âYou were right when you said I didnât know how to stop.â
âAnd yet⊠despite all that, you stayed.â
âYou had my back. Picked me up every time I screwed up.â
âToday, youâre not here to help me through this. And honestly?â
âI canât even blame you.â
âAfter everything I put you through⊠Iâd have no right to.â
(He looks out at Night City in the distance.)
âWhen all this shit is over⊠if there really is an afterâŠâ
âI promise you that this time, Iâll do things differently.â
âAway from Night City. Away from the corpos, the mercs, the wars that donât even belong to us.â
âWhat you always wanted.â
âIâll let go of all these ghosts. All this anger.â
âAll this shit Iâve been dragging behind me for far too long.â
âAnd now that I think about it⊠thereâs something Iâve never told you since the day we met.â
âMaybe because it scares the hell out of me.â
âMaybe because part of me still believes saying it too soon brings bad luck.â
âI wouldâve rather told you face-to-face.â
âBut hearing your voice⊠would probably make this a whole lot harder.â
(V lowers his gaze for a moment before looking back at the lights of Night City.)
âSo Iâm gonna say it here.â
âWith this cursed city right in front of me.â
(This message isnât meant for her today. But for the first time in a long while, V needed to say it.)
(V remains alone for a little while longer before leaving.)