CYBERPUNK ALTERNATIVE PARTIE 78
October 7th, 2077 — 7:30 PM
(V finds a spot overlooking the city. He needs a moment to sort through his thoughts. Right now, only one name comes to mind: Panam.)
“I’m gonna take five minutes to clear my head… and record a few words for you. Just in case.”
(V takes a deep breath, lets out a soft sigh, then falls silent.)
“Hey, Panam… I needed to talk for a bit.”
“I don’t know how things are where you are. I don’t even know if any of this mess affects you or not. But here…”
“I feel like all this shit happened because of me. A selfish quest to try and fill that void.”
“To save myself from that goddamn feeling of losing another brother. So I charged in headfirst.”
“Like always. Without thinking about the consequences.”
“You knew from the beginning that I was heading down the wrong path. And I didn’t listen.”
“You were right when you said I didn’t know how to stop.”
“And yet… despite all that, you stayed.”
“You had my back. Picked me up every time I screwed up.”
“Today, you’re not here to help me through this. And honestly?”
“I can’t even blame you.”
“After everything I put you through… I’d have no right to.”
(He looks out at Night City in the distance.)
“When all this shit is over… if there really is an after…”
“I promise you that this time, I’ll do things differently.”
“Away from Night City. Away from the corpos, the mercs, the wars that don’t even belong to us.”
“What you always wanted.”
“I’ll let go of all these ghosts. All this anger.”
“All this shit I’ve been dragging behind me for far too long.”
“And now that I think about it… there’s something I’ve never told you since the day we met.”
“Maybe because it scares the hell out of me.”
“Maybe because part of me still believes saying it too soon brings bad luck.”
“I would’ve rather told you face-to-face.”
“But hearing your voice… would probably make this a whole lot harder.”
(V lowers his gaze for a moment before looking back at the lights of Night City.)
“So I’m gonna say it here.”
“With this cursed city right in front of me.”
(This message isn’t meant for her today. But for the first time in a long while, V needed to say it.)
(V remains alone for a little while longer before leaving.)