Penelope Miles

Op I’d like to thank you for sharing this. Ever since the first time I’ve read it I’ve held it in my mind and it really has helped me to be kinder to others and to myself.

on the flipside of the genre aware Dean coin I've always had this idea that sam is genre-resistant, he is oblivious or disdainful or both. I mean obviously with moments like 'you peed yourself!' or 'there aren't even words in this newspaper dean!' the joke is that he's not participating in Dean's self-conscious vaudeville act. first scene of him as an adult is him telling Jess he doesn't want to dress up for Halloween, he resists being costumed, he doesn't pick the music and all the music he is shown genuinely enjoying the joke is that it's out-of-place, too whiny or modern. his pop culture touchstones don't mesh with the show's very strict aesthetic sensibilities. also in comparison to Dean who is such a chameleon Sam is kind of allergic to pretense. like thinking abt in it's a terrible life where Dean immediately adapts to the contours of his new role vs Sam who is thrashing around like a trapped animal.

The thing that gets me about the Haley 1.02 Wendigo and Dean parallel is that Haley's brother is missing but Haley has TWO brothers and no parents, and Sam is more like the angsty younger brother, Ben. John's parallel is as the older of Haley's two brothers—the missing one—Tommy. And John not being a missing dad and instead being a missing brother is kind of what Dean's life is actually like honestly (in a literal sense, both of Dean's parents aren't dead like Haley's are, but in a metaphorical sense, John as a father died along with Mary). John was Dean's father in terms of authority but in terms of the obligations of a father to his child, those were all deeply warped and even reversed such that Dean was more of an emotional support to John, taking care of him along with Sam (as John himself admits in 2.01 and as is also brought up in 5.16).

I MISS YOU CASTIEL COME BACK THIS IS NO LONGER FUNNY

the thing about sam my best friend sam is that he is so so so oblivious. i genuinely think he doesn’t find out about dean and cas until maybe seven years after they get together purely because nobody ever outright tells him. this is my truth

dean and cas move in together and sam is like yeah that makes sense because they’re friends and living alone is rough and also cas just died and came back again so of course we’re all feeling a little clingy. about a year in it crosses his mind to ask if deans alright with his confirmed bachelor lifestyle and so he asks if dean is happy and dean says “yeah i’m real good sam” with such obvious affection that sam is like Woah dean is truly happy for the first time ever this is huge. on one occasion he notices that only one bedroom is in use but when he asks cas about it cas is like yes??? of course??? and sam is like (thinking about sharing a room with someone for most of his life and how he finds it comforting to hear someone else’s breathing at night and how this is probably the same for dean) yeah ok that’s not that weird actually. you don’t get sick of dean though? and cas is like. “no”. at a local diner the server asks dean how his partner is doing and dean says cas is doing just fine thanks and sam is like “wow dude i’m really proud of you. twenty years ago something like that would’ve really gotten to you” and this isn’t like a situation where everybody is in on it and hiding it from sam because they think it’s funny this is literally just sam being so incredibly poorly tuned to what dean looks like when he’s in love. everyone else assumes he knows. one time dean calls out honey i’m home when he gets back and sam literally does not bat an eyelid because those are the kinds of jokes dean makes???? i don’t know what exactly tips sam off in the end but i DO know that he has to swear eileen to secrecy about the entire thing because it is too mortifying to admit he was in the dark for seven years and i DO know that the first thing eileen says at the next get together is “sam wants to congratulate you on your new relationship btw” and then he never lives it down ever ever ever

Why choose? We can have both. Sam fighting for his life dealing with their cluelessness while trying to make them realize they are in love with each other. And when they do and are each other he's the most oblivious one because they were already acting like a couple for years so nothing really changes.

You get it!!!!

I MISS YOU CASTIEL COME BACK THIS IS NO LONGER FUNNY

in the world of supernatural, cells like nerve cells and muscle cells that permenantly stay in G0 phase but technically remain in the cell cycle do that so that angels (and other magic users) can force them to undergo mitosis when needed. in the supernatural universe those cells can be taken out of G0 but ONLY when prompted by an angel or smth