Translucent Presence

Being left navigating the nothingness between friendship and love. It’s not knowing where to find yourself in the aftermath of a relationship that had run its course before ever having the chance to take shape. It’s trying to stay away yet being magnetically drawn in. It’s wanting to keep close yet being repelled by gravity. For all your loves left undefined. For the people that settled for the spaces, instead of jumping fully into your orbit.

After 2 years, she reaches out to finally talk with me. Although, a lot of things have happened already and it seems I lost my hope as I heard the news that she’s already dating someone. I have never been so heart broken. All I know is that I still remained the same towards her. I have two nights remaining until we’ll see each other and make things clear. I only have this chance, only chance. Will she really see my heart? Trauma and fear paralyses me. My soul is downcast and my thoughts are too noisy. I cried a lot tonight, but He answered me with this song: “Lord, You seem so far away A million miles or more, it feels today And though I haven't lost my faith I must confess right now That it's hard for me to pray But I don't know what to say And I don't know where to start But as You give the grace With all that's in my heart I will sing, Yes, I will praise, Even in my darkest hour Through the sorrow and the pain I will sing, I will praise, lift my hands to honor You Because Your word is true, I will sing Lord it's hard for me to see all the thoughts And plans You have for me, yes it is But I will put my trust in You Knowing that you died to set me free” Lord, I want to hope with this relationship. Whatever the outcome I rest my case to You, Father.

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