shanni's (शहाणी's) studyblr

another summer internship over!

third year of uni is over!

time has been FLYING like anything, here's a dump of the last few weeks

had (overpriced) momos before locking in at a cafe

insane O grade streak (that I hope i maintain in my final exam grade too)

tried an energy drink for the first time (it was white peach flavoured pink redbull, pretty good!)

(lil aesthetic) cogntive psych notes

redbullwati (znmd reference, ifykyk) 🌸

watched the sunset w a friend who's graduating :(

next task: confirm a decent summer internship

(an intense) life lately

unusual but v necessary post 🌸

my grandfather passed away almost 2 months ago and i still can't believe it. ever since then, i feel like there's been competition between my grief and ambition.

the grief was slowing me down, weighing me down, making me want to give up everything and let the heaviness take over but the ambition kept pushing me, kept pushing the grief, to do one more task, to write one more line.

so now my life lately has been looking for a balance between my grief and ambition because that's how I'll be resilient, no?

things i did for my grief

cried (a lot)

had long conversations with my grandmother

thought of all the happy moments i had with my grandfather

spent time with friends, some of whom are graduating this summer

things i did for my ambition

tried to maintain my good grades on internal assessments (for the sake of my cgpa🙏)

presented a paper at an undergraduate conference and won best paper award

volunteered at another psychology conference

published an opinion piece on a reputed media platform

sem 5 finished ✿⁠

what an insane semester it has been! tried my best to study hard and also have a balanced social life <3

trying 💪

💌 bought myself flowers and had good food for the (self-induced) stress-finishing assignments

i will not lie, i had been anxiously waiting for the email and had convinced myself that i will simply move on if i don't make it

and that is exactly what im doing now, trying to focus on my current academics and praying for the best next year!

unfortunately i still had set an internal expectation for myself and since i haven't met it i do feel sad, but such is life <3

i can't believe 3rd year has started already

rainy mornings with a side of perpetual what am i gonna do in life <3

a cute butterfly bday card that my colleague gave me 🫶

small ice-cream run

my workspace (they let us decorate it!)

they have sm plants in the studio (and the cutest pots <3)

had to work on the terrace one day, felt v aesthetic

our supervisor got us flowers (she's a godsend honestly)

went out the studio for some fresh air and had chai (it was the best)

okay that's it for now!

second year of uni is over!

felt like it was yesterday that i moved in, all excited for the new year and it's suddenly just over :(

also technically it's not over because i have an abnormal psychology exam still left tomorrow but most of my exams/jury exhibitions are over and i feel sad ngl

but anyways i will try my best to study for the last exam after a cute dinner i had last night while watching apothecary diaries (love maomao sm)

academic comeback era <3

I have an assignment due tomorrow night, it's a literature review where I have to synthesize 10 articles.

How many articles am I done reading, you ask? NOT EVEN ONE

I keep getting stuck on the first paper because I JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY'RE SAYING. I think it's a translated paper because they use complicated language and phrasing.

I have other academic commitments today evening and half the day tomorrow.

and I also have 2 more assignments due on wednesday (in 3 days aaaaAAA) that I have started on.

please pray for me y'all 🙏

bonus: outdoor study session as I try to read 1/10 papers of said assignment

it's barely been a week since the new semester has started and there's SO MUCH work

meetings are endless and workload is piling up im trying to get ahead of tasks but staying motivated is difficult :/

wish me luck y'all 😭

will prolly have few breakdowns in the morning

till then, good night y'all <3