disco time B)

To everyone who feels alone in these times. To everyone who's battling mental illness right now. To everyone who doesn't feel the holidays as whimsical as before but just as normal days. To everyone who's having a hard time in these days that are supposed to be full of joy. My heart is with you.

I've had some very busy and stressful couple of months and I barely had any time for art and completing my drawings.

Juggling work + college + a dissertation soon to be started + sharing a small, crammed space with other 3 strangers had been killing my time and motivation to finish any art piece that I have started. I have a lot of unfinished WIPs and I wish, I want so bad to be able to finish them.

Lately I've had problems both at work and with a nightmare dorm roommate and it's been extremely difficult to get up and push forward. I'm barely at my dorm, and when I am I get shamed for wanting to unwind from my busy schedule and can't fall asleep because of the loud ass music and someone's will to argue for no reason, considering that I wake up at 5 AM to prepare for work.

This thing that happened lately put a strain on my emotional resistance (who is barely hold together with tape and medication) and made me exhausted as hell and unenthusiastic about anything at all.

Luckily I'll be leaving that place soon. I can't believe people like this exist. Shaming someone for needing time to relax after a stressful day of work, calling others hurtful words when faced with facts and they're in the wrong, being openly ableist and projecting their internalised mysoginy onto people who barely interact with them is 13th century core.

But I'll be fine. On Monday I'll finally leave that room and hopefully I'll be left alone. But after almost 5 years of staying in a dorm I feel so...exhausted. I want my own space. I don't want to be forced to interact with strangers or do my hobbies while they're in the room, it's just so uncomfortable. I've met nice people, yes, but I want privacy. I want to have my own art corner where I can draw and create in peace. I don't want people to jump at my throat for choosing to live however I want and criticise the way I decide to live my life unprompted.