lyra

i don’t understand but i would like to

very conflicted

why did i randomly get this blog back 😭😭😭🤔🤔🤔🤨🤨 now i look stupid with two pathologion blog variants

why do ed’s have to be so competitive 🫩🫩🫩

i love my scars sm i can’t imagine what it’ll be like in a few years once they fade a bunch :< im doing sm better with how i cope and have no reason to relapse but ughhhhhhh i want new ones 😵‍💫

i have been so absent the past 4 years it’s so sad when we have family convos because everyone lived those years together without me and now im back and i feel so so out of place yet things have only changed for the worse so what was even the point

i love love. i love showing up. i love reassurance. i love supporting people and listening. i love gratitude and i love effort. and i just love love so much

that water tasted like fucking gross mushroom dirt my tummy hurt bad

i look fat and groossssss please heavenly father help me

#distresstolerance so i don’t bash my head on the wall 🙂