nymphet

I want to post my thoughts here more often. I'm not accepted anywhere. I didn't choose to be this way; people have always thought I'm weird, but I never wanted to be. I avoid all social contact, I don't leave the house, I don't answer anyone's calls or messages. For what reason have I withdrawn into myself? Why are my body and brain being torn apart? It's not me, really. It's not me, but then why am I in this body with these thoughts?

I can't look at myself. The freak is crying into his pillow. My pillow is wet, like, ALWAYS.

I feel weird when I cry because of guilt and self-hatred. 40 kg is back yay🪷🪽

I have severe problems with myself, I keep throwing up, cutting myself, hating myself. I don't want to disappoint my parents, I love them. I'm afraid. I always feel anxious. I hear things that aren't there, I see things that aren't there. it's not normal. I take my pills but they don't help.

I feel fat when my weight changed from 39kg to 42kg after the holidays (my height is 161 cm). I hate people, I hate food, I hate myself

I'm tired of being.

The boy who was friends with me said that all his many friends think I'm weird. I heard those words a year ago and I still can't get them out of my head.

My diary!

They tell me to apologize but I grew up in a family where the word "sorry" was a sign of weakness.

Nya kawaii ฅ^>⩊<^ ฅ

Glitter can get into your eye, which is unpleasant. But it's even more unpleasant to realize you're useless. L0L >_<""